6.12.22


he headed to the well 
                          wished 
wishing for better 
wishing for best 

   Ohmy heel boyheel  no nonsense friend Best play it close to your vestNO  Closer  Heel heel hide it

he hid it had too had become too pronouncedtoo prominent tooo in her face

OHmy whellshit Let it loose 
                            she smiledwas amicable  carnivorous  into it  he graspedher kissedher pushedher down lickedher gobbled  his 20/15 went black fleshblinders  theyd gone glib all glibberig  slick
gobbled 
        chanted gibberishrubbish rubberish chased her tail across the floor  caught it  let her go  chased it again catch-an-release until gobbledegook got the best of themhis jaw locked up his tongue failed to work

   he had an oilcan 
                      offered it  gesturedsuggesting  Are you a glutton for punishment
thought  Whas a little pain between friends and lovers

 

   lovers 
           frankly  he asked others if outside the intimacy of their bedrooms if they ever publicly referred to their significant other as  My lover 
NO.
     they were terse

Lover it seemedas it was with him  to remain in their bedrooms bathrooms showers tubs kitchens livingrooms on diningroom tables on the floor up against the wall  on top of illloaded agitated washing machines 



   he stood up from the bench in the bar where she sat on his lap  an arm beneath her knees around her back  he stepped into the aisle an set her gently on her feet 
What’s wrong? she asked 
he turned by her shoulders patted her pretty fanny and sent her on her way 
over her shoulder What’s wrong?  
I think you ought to find your lover 
                                    You left him somewhere in here

   lover said in public  just didnt sit right with him       

2130ish,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  9. 22
1207,  Twosday,  6  12. 22


A toogood to be true wifey   whod really want one  or husband for that matter 
                                                                                      Fetch my slippers, my tobackey and corncob, we’ll smoke together, hurry, fetch girlie, fetch.

when she returned hed pat her head pat pat Thas a good girlie, such a good girl pat pat so good pat such a fine bitch, I wouldn’t have another. 
                           he thought his comment through 
he lied nay misspoke  embellished got carried awaygot ridiculous of course hed have another  an anotheras would she  thought Variety, wifey, it the spice of life. Varietals. Various delicious vagrants who grant accessexcess, grant ddelights cupped together thumbs under fingers aside, an offering, verily a banquet, not quit till every inch of skin is surveyed, touched, tonguetickled, sucked, lapped, tugged, twisted, poked, eyelashlashed to within an inchNo . . lesser . of the pleasure to rock her loins.

she returned
              But a moment wifey . . please pack and light my pipe. 
                                                                        he felt his face 
felt the glasses pinch his nose readers to see  goggles to ogle small printfine print bane of his existence
                                                                                                              though also she readers see-throughs xrays peekaboos agog aglance astarehysterical Ohme ohmy Heel lad heel, pull back. he thinks

the pipe litsmoking it she blowsbreathes cross his face it curls fancifully roundly  curvaceouscurlicues 
                                                                                                            Pipe? my love.  she grounds him
 
   Ey.
       Thank you, my beauty, my girlie, my wifey.

she pinches his cheek 
                        Can read yer mind donfool yourself, lovey, I’m plenty for ye, allya can handle. Pity men, so full of themselvescant do two things at one yet think they think they can pleasure two women at one.  Ah, given suchprospect better yelie back anleave us to ourselves pleasure each other whileye look on . . likely tuggin yer flesh.

she took the pipe from between his teethtook a puff blew the smoke
                                                                       Yehear me hubby?  I spoilye for reasons ye donundarstand.

Ey.  I hear you. 
                   Thank you for go for my pipe. 

she slipped it between his lips
                                 My pleasure, lovey.
          
2040,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 21  9. 22
1037,  Twosday,  6  12. 22 
Grouper  A I A: Alien Observer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBX5rDszspM

5.12.22


he understands what it is Vrbo
                                  however Virulent botox occursramrods its way into his skullwhich humours him   he cant help himself 
                   that certain class of First World detritus who arent satisfied with motel or hotel accommodationsthey they have to have an entire house for themselves while vacationing have the worldthey think by the balls 
                                                                                                                who  to his mind are World Class cunts
 
he despises acronyms  Vrbo 
                               Vacation rentals by owners 
who in fact  could also verily be Home owners running rentals or repossessions  YES Horror for fat cats not necessarily a reach  groping in the same ball park

leave letters laying aroundnot be explicit 
                                           hell make hell out of them because shit like that stirs his pot
   Vrbo 
          Yall can suck my dick

1624,  Monday,  5  12. 22
1849,  Monday
The Chordettes  Never On a Sunday  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPNASiM8rNQ


    Andromeda. 


she said Andromeda
                     when she did he immediately thought of the constellationthe galaxy it moving towards Earth towards our Milky Way 
                           they will collide in an approximated four billion years

she read him humour piqued her expression 
                                                False positive. 

because she was humoured an beautiful  an he was confused he smiled 
                                                                             uttered repeating her 
Yes.

How so goodlookin

Thank you . . you grimaced eversoslightly. 
                                             I believe you’re thinking of the galaxy. 
I am

I meant Andromeda, the daughter of Queen Cassiopeia and King Cepheus. 
                                                                               Am I in over your head? 
No no  Thank you for correcting my thinkingIm familiar

You are?

   Are you smirking

she giggled Maybe a bit, it’s unusual to meet a someone who knows mythology . which fascinates me.

   Arya givin me an opportunity to fascinate you

she smiled  bigdimples dominated her cheeks a soft peachblush washed her face and throat 

Mygawd shes beautiful he thought  Ill take it 
                                              Her parents were boastful of Andromedas beauty so godsbeing gods thinskinned were angered  They wanted to destroy the entire kingdom but relented instead they demanded Andromeda be sacrificedchained to a rock to be eaten by a seamonster 
                                                                            Pretty original if you think about it
   And he like the expression that had come into her face

   An Perseus who beheaded Medusa saved Andromeda from Cetus the seamonster in exchange for her hand in marriage

she was absolutely radiant  Mygoodness . I'm impressed.

Thank you my fingers were crossed

Why do you know mythology?

I failed religionlaughed at Bible stories However if I laughedenjoyed mythology I wasnt made to kneel on a broomstick
Ouch.

You said it 
            Aninparticular this story mystifies me rather the portrayal of Andromeda in Art as a white woman  Shes black a princess of Ethiopeia

she cleared her throat a wee bit 
                               You’re outdoing yourself . .
. . You falling in love with me

she snorteddidnt put her hand to her facecover her mouth pure elationlaughter  he was falling in love with her

I can seal the deal

her eyes sparkled 
                 You can?

   Yes  One more layer or perhaps another fathom to my depth 

Depth?
Can you believe it

Scarcely she giggled I’m game.

I like that 
            The seamonster

Cetus.  Yes.

Is Latin Greek is ketos  Root for cetacean Of whale of any large sea creature  Or seamonster 
                                                                                                      Will you marry me

I might have to.
                 she tossed her head slightly then leaned back against the wall in the bar the ruddy bricks brought out her freckles her face chest he placed his hand on the wall above her headleaned forward  he put his face beside her head smelled her hair her ear  her throat 
                                              she smelled like warm spongecake

prior to 0700,  Monday,  5  12. 22
1150,  Monday


Why do you do that?

   he couldnt saywith certitude why he avoid ears on coffee cups and mugs  preferred to grasp them like glasses or finger them above his pour or particular request  Just threequarters full please
                                                                                    always captured the servers attention 
I cant say  Im not fond of handles

Not fond . . that sounds like an excuse . .
. . No sounds like something I tossed out which I did   I cant remember anything distinct but since I can remember its how Ive held my cup

And threequarters full?

Reasonable to avoid burning my fingers or tongueI dislike burning my tongue scalding my mouth such unpleasant sensations annot like you recover immediately either  Im fond of them

So you’ve never considered why?

   No
        Im curious why you consider why

It’s odd . . peculiar. 
And

And what?

Exactly What of it

I find it peculiar.

I didnt ask you solicited 
                            If you prefer we not meet tha ought to alleviate your discomfort andor irritation
I’m not saying that.

Yet yare distracted how I take my coffee or drink it

   I’m observing.

Yare commenting The two are differentwoudnt you agree 



he wasnt liberal with his two centshe listened  anif asked what he thought then hed say  he understood that to be courteous understood it common sense 
                                          goes without saying

0914,  Monday,  5  12. 22
John Lennon  Whatever Gets You Thru the Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nnAbEkAs6M

4.12.22


his brotherrecovering from cancer remarked about his granddaughter  she had given him a new lease on life

lease

he heard leash 
                leash on life

he preferred leash to lease 
a lease could be revoked
leash

    life would have to take it out of his handmano a mano  he wouldnt be a rollover he enjoyed casting a shadow
he liked walking on wellworn shoes thin soleshe could feel the rottingconcrete of the street the grit sand stones crushed olives dropped acornstheir splitshells sidestepping busted bodies of squirrels cats lying them off in the grass at the side of the road never a dog dogs wear leashesare walked are domesticatedwho wanted to be domesticated  sounds like a thing a woman – sexist perhaps – a thing a woman might pullhe wouldnt pull  she was welcome her freedomwelcome to enjoy him as he enjoyed her  but if she wantedhad an itch he couldnt scratch KNOCK YOURSELF OUT  she was responsible for her happiness  not him

   lease on life 
                  he preferred a leash and whip

after1900,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  9. 22 
1344,  Sunday,  4  12. 22 
Allman Brothers  Whipping Post  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YSuoW8MTbZY


Onitsha Nobel Prize winner J.-M. G. Clezio 
                                             the books not in the library where he livesbut its not the first time hes been irked   worse  copies of books hed like to read have been formatted either audiobooks ebooks or both  and because they exist the library refuses to acquire them in print 
                                                       Onitsha is about the authors time in Nigeria

“Laila goes from one store to another trying on clothes – both women’s and men’s. ‘It’s my way of being someone else,’ she remarks. ‘That is, myself. . . . What I am looking for is my reflection in the mirrors. It frightens me, and attracts me. It’s me, and not me.’”

Laila one-ups him 

she looks in mirrors
                     he doesntdoesnt seek being anyone elsehas hard enough time being who he is  he knows whos the mirrorhas seen him all his life – all his life – Yay how ridiculous 

IF hes going out hell take a looksave himself odd glances or putting off someone fastidious  somebody like Laila

he remarks to a friend he sees oncetwice a week Lemme know if I need a shave only because he knows hes goodlooking enough to get away with his mirrorless gambit like dust collected on artworkhe chuckled  or an antique

0934,  Sunday,  4  12. 22


he dreamt of squalordreamt of stealing an expensive shinyblack limousine and parking it in the innercitysharing it with homeless on an overnight first-comefirst-serve basisdreamt of beating up a homeless bastard with his fist whoarriving late  shutout  smashed the rearwindow to inconvenience those who were timelywere inside 

he banished him Yare not welcome ever again  
                                                the lout must have had it in his head that violence would remediate his tardiness at the expense of someone other than himself when homeless recovered enough as he stood over him feet planted shoulderwidth apart crossarmed glaring  he crawled away stood then staggered off
                                                                                                    an all the while a refrain sounded in his ears an obsessive tone he couldnt shake Something isnt because it is said Only when tried an true is it 
   Evidence
               Evident
it struck him oddterribly odd that anyoneout of hand would accept the word of another
                                                                                          BAAAAH
Yay there is tha

earlyAM,  Sunday,  4  12. 22
1104,  Sunday,  4  12. 22

3.12.22


he tripped to the Midwest for his fathers birthday that weekend

his flight arrived late Wednesday evening his niece on her way home from workshe went in late picked him up at home family stayed up to greet him then they excused themselveswent to bed his time trailed theirs by three hours travel didnt affect him he went to the kitchen and sat with pen and paper magazines at the table

the kitchen table was novel
                             his place was too small he didnt have one

at the tables center was a Lazy Susan it matched the table

on it were two small potted green plants a crystal candy jar
                                                               his father would ask You don’t have one?   Nah Dad I don eat candy to speak of   You should have a candy jar.   An empty jar   You could fill it.   he laughed Yare the guy with a sweet tooth   You’re mother had a sweet tooth.   Obviously its not hereditary   Son, his father rarely called him by his name you should have a candy jar, I have four around the house.   So yare never far from onecorrect   Oh . I could suppose you could say that.   Its evident   I can’t believe you don’t have a candy jar.
                                                                                                  there was also a cut-crystal toothpick holder filled with cellophanewrapped toothpicks matching salt and pepper shakers a metal cylinder filled with peppercorns for freshcrushed pepper if preferred

the chairs around the table were Scandinavian design woodslats artfully bent forming continuous lines back to fanny to thighs  when his parents bought them in the 60s he thought they were very modern  they remain timelessly modern

he sat with the paper before himAtlantic magazines right cellphone atop them  above were three fingers of Jack in a crystal tumbler

he took a sipshifted his hips ahemmedcleared his throat 
                                                              before going to bed his sister told him had she sent pictures from the cemetery to his phone headstones  they would go Monday or Tuesday  it was her way of preparing him several relatives died during Trumpvirusnot of the virus he was unable to attend their wakes funerals

she was being thoughtful
 
he appreciated it 
                   he looked at the pictures saw stonessaw their facescould heard their voicesremembered interactions mell pell snapshots  laughter attended them  until tears rippleddiluted them  their voices quit 
                                                                                                    when he moved away he understood the risk  he never imagined wholesale family deaths seven  when airtravel was illadvised 


   it was a really nice kitchen table  hed eaten at it with every one of his deceased relatives
  
0022,  Thursday,  20  9. 22
1222,  Saturday,  2  12. 22
NIN – Trent Reznor  The Persistence of Loss  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kz9YRgugls


words appearwritten letter by letter before his eyes as he dreams

his dreamed-self gooses his dreaming-self 
                                            You seeing thiswe got something else going on here  Or are you playing with me

It aint me

We a conduit

Might be

   For

For Why ask me 

Because youve created me 
                             Yarean don let it go to your head  are a kind of autarch . .
. . Author

   Said autarch  but author ruler of absolute power  there is tha Im cool with either as Im an actor  Im dreamed

Autarch new word hmm   I like either

he rolled his eyes he had some capacitieshe wasnt an automatondidnt await every instruction  The words

Im not doing it 


Okay  The writing isnt goodneeds editing 
                                             I assume we can do tha yah 
Yah

Awright shall we

Lets get to it

   they proceeded like skilled surgeons on the reams of words illsentences that scrolledcollected down onto the wellswept fishbone HERRINGBONE THANK YOU parquet floor
                                                                     they picked it out together 

dreaming-self could be an autarch but wasnt  authoras he said was more concise an ofttimes he rolled with dreamed-self when he went offscript bent on improv 
                                              their  creative amalgamation
      

 

Amalgamation Theres something there

What are you talking about

Gamete

   Ohyes I see  Amalgamete

Yah addon   Amal-gamete   wait for it gamete-ideation

Nice  Amalgamation   Amalgameteideation 
Yes

I like it 
We do
      
0030,  Saturday,  17  9. 22
1043,  Saturday,  3  12. 22
NIN – Trent Reznor  13 Ghosts II  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgUWOeGzopA 

2.12.22


shooting from the hip 
                     he loved it 
loved waking every morningmake his absolutions  then without any idea what might be waiting at the keyboardthe begging electric white paper  proceed

his daily processionroutine was rarely disrupted 72 consecutive days last count they were preceded by seven days of travel for his fathers birthdaywouldntve missed it for the world  not the world   

as a child his father introduced him This is my son Joseph, when he grows up he won’t live here.

he was true to their words although it took him two years longer than he wantedchewed at the bitpulled restlessly in the harness  20years old not 18 



Yeah, living in a meat cooler will do that.

Wha

Stop, you heard I don’t have to repeat myself.

No 

You relish going against the grain, you’re downright obnoxious sometimes, purposefully being contrary for the sake of being contrary.

A contrarian

Yeah.

I disagree I keep to my moral convictions I was raisedif not religiously but religiously steadfast taught to adhere honour do right by myself  Damn wha others think

And of concessions, compromises, that fairminded people concede?

Cant Coudnt 
                Not if they detractdiminish me 

But when you come to a crossroad . .
. . Devils crossroad

No. Of course not.  

I sidestep crossroads Suffer no Clarksdale Mississippi old US highway 61 old US 49  coordinates latitude longitude 34degrees11minutes41seconds North 90degrees33minutes50seconds West
                                                                                 I run thoroughfares  full speed ahead HAdamn the torpedoes Admiral Farragut  You should understand he didnt have a choice either

Living in a meat cooler isnt a choice Weather dictates  I don pay attention to forecasts because weather is weather is weather 
          You have yet to accuse me of living on a hot skillet

No, I haven’t, but next summer I will if I can cop it off you.

Knock yourself out 
                        Please  
1247,  Reggaefriday,  2  12. 22
1640,  Reggaefriday
Robert Johnson  Crossroad  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJ_7nYEpkBo  
Mogwai  I Know You Are But What Am I?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMAZJ7RAQ5o  
Three Dog Night  Easy to be Hard  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIffz-72B8Y


he watched Journey to the Center of the Earth on DVD last night 
                                                                   OHshitno in colour 
the 1959 film was shot in Color by DE LUXE 
hed watched itmany times on blackanwhite television  it and The Time Machine Ohfuckno  its also in color 1960  Metrocolor
   they were disfiguring his youth he aiding an abetting 

the hitch in the filmALWAYS whenever he watched iteven last night Pat Boone  even as a kid he thought he was wrong for the rolewasnt believable 
                              it occurred to himhumourously given how religious he understood Boone to be he wondered if Boone forced his way thawas rich into the role as Sinatra did in From Here to Eternity a delicious rumour Godfather released in ’69read it as a kid planted that suspicion in his head  Sinatra a singer not an actor Sinatra got the part by having Mafia associates put a severed horse head in Cohns bed Paramount studio president to scare him

Boones insincerity which he realised was what he saw on screen was nailed-down during an telephone interview on January 27, 2018
                    “I think it was God honoring my efforts, my efforts, to just to stuff what I thought was right for me and turn down roles with Marilyn Monroe and other people that were immoral stories . . and risking, you know, being booted right out of the movie business and out of entertainment . . but . following my conscience actually turned, as it turned out as I look back . . paid off.”

   Paid off  money  residuals   how Christian of Boone   that said even as a singer Boone turned him off

2126,  Thursday,  1  12. 22
1224, Reggaefriday,  2  12. 22
https://wheremusicmeetsthesoul.com/patboone/ (Boone turned down a role to work with Marilyn Monroe in a film called the Stripper)

 
   if   if If IF  McCarthy become Speaker 
                                             theres talk of Republicans pissing away taxpayers dollars on bogus investigations against the January6 Special Committee its members DOJ FBI impeaching President Biden cabinet members McCarthys to followHup-two-three-four orders  of what-would-be his absurd base Freedom Caucus like a trailing dog its nose up the leads ass 
                                        and not to be outdone new House committee leads are also promising pissing matchestaxpayers dollars of their own old axes to grind  not that their subjects are legit but rather as political theatre being sensational salacious bogus  because they can

they wont spend money on their constituentsfor the country but rather to groom themselves

1552,  Thursday,  1  12. 22
1036,  Reggaefriday,  2  12. 22