he came in from his daily walk in the sun

he was warmedwarmed twice a day 

                                        in the sunthe exertion of walking miles     then 

when he went to bed

                       slathered in the elegiacelectric fadedblue polyester blanket which faked sun

Elegiac

Certainly  Think about it 

   Ya got me 

               I understand it to mean wistful  mournful

Or sad 

         I don think it very often but being warmed at night by an electric blanket not a body is sad  Possibly   pitiful

My  Yare being unusually frank

Between you and I nawh 

                           shehes heshes were notoriously tightlipped they got it from him  friends knew they could confide in him  was like tossing a coin into a deep deep wishing well and if thinking to listen were unable to hear it strike bottom 

                Feeling pitiful for some reason this evening

Thas unlike you

It is unlike me

   You thought to call herdidnt you

a sad smile worked into his face 

                                      I did

You tipped the dominoes

I tipped the dominoes 

You have my condolences

 

   Thank you   Too manytoo quick 

                                       Im bent under the weight

If you don mind   Understandably

No I don   I understand a sharp HA hawk broke in his throat 

                                                                      I stand under it 

Yes   Yes you do

1437,  Twosday,  15  11. 22

1317,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  11. 22

Mogwai  Too Raging to Cheers  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TPiQUVyfCMY

   he  we  have a marvelous capacity for taking things for grantedcant help ourselves despite not knowing when the last time will be the last time  except which goes without saying 

                                                                    the thought reminded him of the Beatles Yesterday 

I loved you yesterday but yesterday’s gone. 

the cold linchpinstill dangling from his finger reminding him was bigfoot  a huge catnow shrinking he befriended ten years earlier who came morning and evening for food 

                                                  Yesterday

looking out his kitchen window he saw him sitting in the flower planter just outside it  

he killed flowers so the terracotta pots were empty except for vagrant plants which were likely weeds he appreciated all ways Nature manifests herself

he was surprised the planter held bigfoots weight  the last tenant hung it

                                                                             he rapped on the glassasked Hey big guy ya wanna treat  he hadnt ever fed him by hand   early in their relationship bigfoot had bitten his handshis arms both his legs  he noddedconceded itd be an interesting experiment

he dumped some tastyhe tried themthey werent bad salmon treats into his hand opened the window and held them out to him cupped in his hand 

bigfoots head waggled  he smelled them

                                              Aww big guy  ya kiddin me

eventually he found the kibble  apparently was having a hard time seeing them                                                                                                                                locating them he mouthednoshed on a couple backed off to chew sniffed again located a couple more   he took his time at the kibble  when bigfoot had finished he held his hand uprightSTOP All gone big guy all gone This was a treat Dinners in an houranahaf  bigfoot sat sphinxlike  he slid the window shut

returning to prepare his dinnercutting up vegetables he thought to this point their relationship they had been casual however in the last year yearanahaf when he came upon bigfoot at the foot of the hill leading up to his place hed hear him chirp hed stop hed pick him up carry him up the hilltheir faces inches apart ten years ago that wouldnt have happened bigfoot wouldnt have allowed him to pick him up he wouldnt have allowed bigfoot that close to his facehis eyes 

      TIME 

it occurred to himstomped him  he had no idea when the last time would be 

if he would find bigfoot or if bigfoot wouldnt show  disappear

                                                       ANGST

   DONTAKE BIGFOOT FOR GRANTED he didnt think animals had the capacity although he could be wrong

304preferred,  Twosday,  15  11. 22

1105,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  11. 22

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXTJBr9tt8Q

Whale Fall  The Dawn Thief  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kvZ2x4_sE8 

he disappearedhad no other choice 

                                      the hood bruised his thigh before he could completely dematerialise

                                                                                                         the driver saw him in the crosswalk the last second before impactthat didnt happen for him terrifiedhe saw his eyeshis face the driver swerved hard left and crashed into a semi that idled waiting to make a left onto the towns main artery which paralleled the highway

        a tremendous crash  the driver mistaking his gas pedal for the brake

   he didnt materialise until he was almost across intersectiondidnt attract any attention because all eyes were paying keen attention to the treacheroussmoking wrecks behind him 

   No  he wasnt going to attestbe a witness  let the driverif he survived and the authorities sort it out 

                                                                                                            hed done enough

   he wonderedbriefly  how that stress might physically have affected his body   psychically  becoming something other-dimensionally  soothed himits gentle hand assuring him that aside from the nanosecondfright which catapulted him 

     hed be fine

stepping up onto the street curbnot looking back he returned to reading 17 Dikter 17 Poems 1954  by Tomas Transtromer from new collected poems  titled 

                                     the great enigma

1410,  Twosday,  15  11. 22

 

   plash

the sound made by striking the surface of water 

                                                 poetic

splash

          to be sure it was a sound he thought he might hear when a threequarter ton pickup truck pounded a body suspended in midair a homeless man belligerently wheeling loops on a bicycle through an intersection six-lanes-in-either-direction  obliviousdisregard of noonhour traffic 

                                                          Thas mean 

Nobody asked ya addressing the inner

All because he almost clipped you . .

. . On purpose . . 

. . He embarrassed youya didnt see him coming . . 

. . Isnt embarrassment  provocation

Yasure

  Ya taunting me  donneedit 

Just sayin

   Motherfucker saw me 

                           Was tryin to be cute as cute appears to his obviously deranged or drugaddled mind

Yaknow theres never a cop around when you need one

he bellylaughed 

                   was tickled Mariachi tossed in hisher herhis two-cents

their intrusion turned homeless mans chide humorous 

                                               Can’t you walk without reading?

probably three weeks ago

1149,  Twosday,  15  11. 22

hes enjoyed uncountable hypnagogic hallucinationsnot wha he woud call them however this morning slowlywaking like oil dispersing across a watersurface he realised in his eyes or projected against the fleshveil of his eyelids constellations unlike those that bid him good night every evening before he went in to sleep 

                                                                                                no red Mars brilliant Jupiter Orion Cassiopeia Canes Ursas Andromeda Perseus Hercules

he tried imagining creatures pinpointed by stars but there was little space anif he concentrated on a small portion of sky it congealed into a ball of light thenshattered scatteredanew  brittleanplasticatonce 

                                                                                        the harder he tried the more he felt

    alien

                  losing himself

atoncefrightened he wideopened his eyes

                                  pureblack 

it held

               then shatteredfell away revealed his bedroom ceiling the light-fan fixture         back 

    he laid deathlystill as he reconnoiteredconfirmed his presence  his body 

back

               finally he rose       

2027,  Sunday,  13  11. 22

1021,  Twosday,  15  11. 22

https://www.constellation-guide.com/constellation-names/

Earth  The Colour of Poison  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CpTtj3JWws

he asked him as a matter of fact Ifya had your druther wha woud it be

If I had my druther?

Yes 

      I have one but rather than tell you I thought you ought to say first  carry some water as it were

What do you mean?

   Not hard

             Ifya did  wha    

You’re coming out of right field on me. 

Cant think on your feet 

                            Surely something must occur to you

No.  No.   I can’t think of anything.

Jesus it was marked with some derision       

Don’t say like tha . .

. . How shoud I say Druther druthers isarent difficult   preference in a matter

                                                                                   I would rather   Wha

I don’t kno . .

. . Ill get the ball rolling  apparently your world is flat balls go nowherelay still

Tha . .

. . Thas accurate pay attention After I provide an example itll be your turn

   IF I HAD MY DRUTHER if I had my druther  the random peppermint plant outsidegrew on its own ya know it  he pausedwanting him involved 

Yes.

Good Paying attention so far 

                                When I urinate outside after dark I pee on the peppermint . .

. . I like that . peeing on peppermint.

Good 

       Wha my druther woud be is to have someone approach me and ask if they coud dry some of it  make tea

   I woud say enthusiastically While Im not keen on tea when you brew your first cup woud ya mind having it here with me mornings are usually free   Ill take coffee 

                                                         Druther 

Jesus. disgusted he smacked his lips asif someone pissed in his mouth 

   And

And?

Your druther

I can’t compete with that.

Its not a competition   A question 

I haven’t an idea.

  Ofcourse not

2033,  high Thursday,  10  11. 22

1428,  Monday,  14  11. 22

she was forwardmaybe thought she had to be 

happily she took him by complete surprise 

few and far between were women who after spending time with Wowed him  

they had undeniable magnetismreplete with sexual tension  though he was olderthought he was outside her alley 

first time he saw her she was fast asleep on her mothers livingroom couch  Quiet please, my poor dear, she was too tired to drive home. 

                     shapelytending towards exquisite  long lovely  blonde pursing her lips like a baby perhaps talking in her dreams

a friend of her mothers a mutual friend recommended him to trim trees prune fruit trees he was appreciated because he didnt use power tools 

behind the house he realised how ample her lot wasmore trees than were casually mentioned catching his expression she said  You must really let me pay you something more for your help.   No no thank you Bonnie As agreed a homecooked meal   You’re too kind.   I am not Im helping trees be happy

Happy trees? she was upshe saw in his eyes he thought her ravishing he couldnt duck the punch  she laughed gayly 

You said happy trees.  Do you think they are sensate? 

I do

she smiled I do too. 

                      My name’s Eve. she thrusted her hand to him knew how to shake had a firm handshake   Joe Joe. I understand you’re having dinner here this evening.   I am   I’m looking forward to it, to dinner conversation. You’ll excuse me but I have things to do, and you . you . . have trees to enlightenmake happy.  she turned and left

 

   he watched her go until she was gone

dinner

   then several dinners elsewhere threefour movies  occasionally met for a drink

 

Joe.  I’d like to sleep with you.

   Why but he checked himself thought betterdidnt ask  didnt didnt didnt   didnt want to gum up the works with words

Your body surprised me.

                          the afternoon before they had coffee across from the ocean and returning to the carwalking along the beach he inexorably her told her that  inexorably had to swim to the buoy 

                                                                                             Ill be right back kicked off his sandals shed his shirt pants dashed into the surf  brisk particle sand tickle sound   embrace

she didnt join him it wasnt his intent he didnt know she didnt know how to swim hed teach her

Eve You always surprise me 

                                 Yes

hypnopompic -- early Sunday morning,  13  11. 22

1119,  Monday,  14  11. 22

Nadja  Affective Fields  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25nHmLpe7_E 

Ossification  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pp-nOwhGDnk

American Cancer Society stepping it up

                                           now recommends colon testing begin at 45

because either young adults have ingested toxins migresives think adhesives used for packaging SAY frozen microwaveable foodstuff  or or theres gold in dem thar arses 

did he have to be sarcastic

he did

          anhe was because they provided a springboard for corporations to intervene which notoriouslypredatory  are more concerned with their bottomlinepun than peoples                               

                                                        COLOGUARD not COLONGUARD might have been imperiling COLO provides plausible deniability

                               a non-invasive-at-home test why does their advertising mascot look like SpongeBob SquarePants

their hyphenated phrase sounding like masturbating – convenience – reminded him of those once-a-month subscriptions tits-an-ass magazines that came through the mail in a plain brown paper sleeves                           

   the fine print   false-positives 14% 8% false negatives  COLOGUARDs efficacywhich some may incorrectly equate to at-home pregnancy tests snapped his fingers  Hotdamn  mighty convenient 

                                                                                 Cologuard only detects large precancerous polyps 42% of the time better odds with a coin toss  Heads I do Tails I don 

Young adults most food packages and food contact materials (FCMs – of course theres an acronym) are manufactured using adhesives – migresives 

                               FCMs are regulated as their constituents may contaminate food and endanger consumers health

       In contrary to plastics – regulated by positive lists of authorised ingredients – migresives have not yet a specific regulation despite employed an deployed  hundreds of raw materials would be out of scope as they lack the standard information required by risk assessment agencies which would pose high-cost burdens for toxicity tests to adhesives industry which is dominated by SMEs (another acronym  small or medium enterprises) AHEM  more business bottomlines

0103,  ReggaeFriday,  4  11. 22

1257,  Sunday,  13  11. 22

https://adhesives.specialchem.com/tech-library/article/migresives-in-flexible-food-packaging-solventless-polyurethane-adhesives

   Inlicked the door revisitedreduxdo-over tuxedo which wasnt because Inlicked was unsuccessful or an unsatisfactory factory first attempt 

                   she decidedher decision to trip the light fantastic again

after he left she wanted more

                             she wanted leftovers

problem was

she couldnt call or text him to return

he forgot his phone at her place and knowing him he wouldnt be disturbed

                                                                            not disturbed that he didnt have it which would toss her over the moon in panicshe had to be connectedwas addicted  Addickted hed saycalling her an anyone a dick who had to have their phones in hand like devout Catholics who had to have and count and pray with their rosary beads   she had to be in the loophe could care less 

she wondered if he would want leftovers

orif there were . . . Oh go ahead an say it offered an inner  You thought itare thinking it she cleared her throat 

                                                                                                              Orif there were orifices other than hers he was filling she said aloud

Feels better yes      

Yes

Now thats behind youno pun intended what would you share to entice him to return

James Joyce.

Joyce interestingnot to be ambivalent  Could you explain

You don’t have an inkling?you should have an inkling.

Yes an inner shouldI should  but our memories at times can be like glossy Polaroid coloured snaps and what we rode shotgun on here the past threefour hours  without saying    you can imagine

Imagine.  Damn it was hot. 

HOT 

       But we digress

We have.

Joyce

Yes.

Inlicked  Which is what gave rise to Joyce that you want to communicate with him  Dare I say . . bait him

Yes.

Please

Yes. 

      I don’t think he could resist.

Resist  Very Freudian

AhFreud obsessed with sex anwhy he and I prefer Jung.

What might he not resist

she cleared her throat again

                              then recited He addled liddle phifie Annie ugged the little craythur. Wither hayre in honds tuck up your part inher.

Inher  Nice bait 

                  I believe he fonseed 

   Yes.

Suppose well have to dissemenate it mentally telepathically hopefully not tele-pathetically 

Lemme guess.

                D I S S E M E N A T E.

My turn Yes              

1234,  Twosday,  5  4. 22

1056,  Sunday,  13  11. 22

  :  :  Inlicked the door  rsome real possibilities 

                                                                  she meant to text Unlocked the door

in her haste she sent it without reading what she typed 

                                                           what she misstroke

she wouldnt dare text him misstroke 

                                       thatd be a gun hed immediately hold to her headMISSTROKE 

Arya kiddin me

                 Come to meIll come to you well get the kinks worked out of tha 

he wasnt one to make a misstake to 

he hadnt replied yet

maybe was outside his placeon a walk he didnt take his phone with him he was adverse to immediacyadverse to compulsions or impulsethoughtless purchases bullshit tabloids ENQUIRER Examiner Eenemas

                                                                                                  People are ridiculous

Conspiracy theorists can suck my cock

she knew him to say so 

                         but she knew he wouldnt let a cretin near his cock 

she also knew hed appreciate her phrase a cretin near his cock

  :  :  INLICKed 

Ohshit he saw it  Games on

                                what was she going to say  something lame  like the truth   

Id go with the truth said an inner she had Mariachis too

Im with you

Im with you

Of course we are

  :  :  I meant Unlocked the door.

  :  :  Thas not whaya wrote

  :  :  No I didn’t, I made a mistake.

  :  :  A misstake there he goes  she saw that a mile off

                                                         I don think so I believe not  Ill lick it

  :  :  I made a mistake 

  :  :  I wont I can set you straightrehang your door pull on your curtains   oil your hinges

she was temptedthough hadnt meant to lead him on  theyd been friends a long time  she could hear him say All good relationships grow from friendships 

                                        maybe it was time to find out                                  

  :  :  The door’s unlocked.  Why don’t you come over?

  :  :  Come

  :  :  Over.  Come over.

  :  :  Happy to oblige you 

                                  surprised hershe felt a happy tug a twinge in her clit

  :  :  See you soon 

                      she knew he wouldnt replyknew he was on his way  thought should I shower  made her laugh 

from their conversations she knew it was part of his foreplay

Is this really going to happen she wondered

Is this really going to happen

she knew it was only going to happen if she agreed

                                                        if she said No he would respect her No 

she knew that from their conversations 

they talked an awful lot 

were intimate  in that regard 

she wondered 

                Is this really going to happen

  she was conflicted

                       I suppose Ill see

    

1156,  Saturday,  12   11. 22

1554,  Saturday

Whale Fall  Tahquitz  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=se95jlt7-sM is a spirit found in the legends of the Cahuilla, Kumeyaay and Luiseno First People of Southern California 

Chief Crowfoot  he died April 25 1890

                                         What is life? It is a flash of a firefly in the night, it is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset. 

   shehe heshe reminded him 

                                who was he to ignore their spontaneous invocation 

Thank you

Yare welcome

1138,  Saturday,  12  11. 22

   4:24  that afternoon he preferred it to his usual 24hr mindset 1624hrs   

1 – 2 – 3:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rGIH_LzjJ80 

           no it wasnt that easy 

                               he glimpsed the timestood at the electric range counting seconds in his head60 two things at once taxed himhe could admit it  he preferred doing one thing at a time with the exception of the three ménages à trois he partook  before taking the boiling sugarwater from the burner it was his fortune to maintain 17 to 22 hummingbirdsanimals in extremis  winged miracles

   unfortunately a third thing occurred to him

between glimpsing and counting it flittedspasmed before him at once visualauditoryfelt

   thought he had it

                     but like a dribble of mercuryquicksilver it slipped from his grasp leaving him in its wake dumbfounded 

that afternoon was three days earlier

he continued to ponderSEE againHEAR againFEEL again what it was 

                                                                          it eluding him

an inner a Mariachi recommendedcounseled he let it go 

Cant

I saw you playing it out again yesterday when you made sugarwater You understand that time has passed

   No Timewithout time we do not exist I will learn it  It will occur to me   Ive not lost it

Wishful thinking

   Wishful thinking  I woud apply that to thingsexperiences which have not happened I experienced it Its inside me albeit a sliver  I understand from when I was a carpenter that slivers eventually emergeya remember  don ya

You remember bodilyphysical sensations more than we consciousnesses arent encumbered housedfixed in the manner you are

    No Youall of you  are not   I am disposing of your wishful thinking I am determined to recall it

4:24 branded

A brand better than a tattoo

So you say so you say

424,  ReggaeFriday,  11  11. 22

1102,  Saturday,  12  11. 22

Earth  Omens and Portents I: The Driver  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDLaPKpym3o  found it provocativestimulating to play it then a minute later to play it over itself