she would say she had a late night

hed say he had an early morning

their late nightearly morning twined like snakes

he shagged

she shagged

they nearly turned each other inside out 

                                           he thought they looked might attractive insides out

she thoughtoccasionally he was nuts

Nuts for youbaby

You say the sweetest things.

before they went serpent she reminded him her parents were arriving in the morning and while not prudish they would be taken back by a man who she hadnt mentioned in her bed 

  he nodded 

              even they were AMAZED at how consumed they were with each other since meeting eight days earlier

he beat her to the punch 

                          Where ya been all my life

You’re stepping on my line.

I checked the script Its mine

Check again.  I rewrote it.

he pantomimedpicked it up off the café table in the coffee shop pulled at the knee of his slacks with his free hand crossed his leg opened it with both hands briskly snapping it read Hmmed leaned forward placing it on the table went to his pocket removed an imaginary pen  altered it

                                                       Ifya look now youll see its my line

she acted like she spun it to face her looked  placed her purse on her lap I’ll get a pen out. We can do this all day long.

he cleared his throathis fist to his mouth took it away If you donmind  Id rather do something else all day long 

                                                                                                                      winked

she smiledwinked back Let’s table it for now . . maybe we’ll wrestle for itbest of onehundredanone matches.

Why put a number on it

You’re right . . why?

  not to blow her parents minds 

                                  before the rising sun painted the room he silently got out of bed dressedenough kissed her templeshe didnt move and left

he walked the four miles to his placethey lived four miles from each other for seven years  waste and laid in bed without undressing two of his cats curled up against him one between his legs tucked up to his crotch the other in his armpit head on his chest over his heart no sooner they nestledLIGHTS OUT

 

the phone rangwoke him

it could go to hell

if it was someone they could go to hell

robocall

robobozos getting clever 

                         they dont engage if they havent a guppy on the line  eyeball on the rednwhite bobber

cats didnt move

he played dead

fell back to sleep

hed wake up when he woke up

unless robobozo called again 

     odds were good it would  they badgeredstrategy to get at least an irate human on the line

0944,  Thursday,  27  10. 22

1059,  Thursday

Godspeed You! Black Emperor  Monheim  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyeqT4KSKuw

they were bullshitting about a new friendacquaintance met him the night before at a pub theyd meant to go to forever then forever trippedfell on its face  they went last night

Fuckin guy

He’s a card.

Ya hear him last night as he was leaving

No, I was in the can.

Awthas unfortunate as he was parting Jocke said Gentlemen, thank you for the evening steeped in friendship and merriment. The fucker bows anhes gone  Steeped in friendship an merriment 

                                                                                   Id never put those words together

Mighty touched I heard them

Ah, but he’s from a different country.

Yes It was pleasant listening to his accent  His English is good

I had a hard time understanding him.

You have a hard time listeningwhich is why you had a hard time understanding him

I don’t.

You do ought to get a glimpse of yourself as people talk around ya waiting to pounce words working in your mouth on your tongue waiting on the thinnest of segues to pop inhave your say 

                                                                           Thas not listening

And you didn’t have a hard time?

I struggledbut I could keep up Yamight recall I interrupted several times  Again  Sorry Jocke I didnt catch tha He kindly repeated himself

You’d think all the years he’s been here he’d be better at English.

Hows your Swedish His English is as good as mine an its my only language

I’m just sayin . .

. . Yare sayin you had something to say an was impatient because ifya donsay youll forget wha it was 

                                                                                                            Oned think youd master tha by now or at least have a pad an pencil an scribble it down soya didnt forget

Where theres a will theres a way

You a fuckin’ sage?

Nah Usin common sense top shelf item  On my way outcomin into this world first born I grabbed up lotsa premium things Didnt know seven were following me they lack wha I have I feel bad  Had I known I woudnt have been greedy

What are you talking about?

  You havent a clue 

                         Because you don LISTEN 

Dug Jockes evening steeped in friendship and merriment   

2257,  Sunday,  23  10. 22

1131,  Twosday,  25  10. 22

Godspeed You! Black Emperor  Government Came  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HR8jDwXjM04

Somebody breaks into my place a bodys coming back out 

                                                                Theirs or mine 

Man you’re fuckin’ ornery this morning . get out of the wrong side of the bed? 

  Not ever 

            As a matter of fact when my girlfriend spends the night I make her roll across the bed an get out on my side

Are you kidding me?you that superstitious?

When something works do you fix it

You think that works right?

I havent suffered your romantic headachesyour health ailmentsyour numerous other misfortunes

Because you haven’t gotten out on the wrong side of the bed?

Fuckin questionsquestions 

                             Howbout you emit a statement 

Awright. I can do that. 

                         Let’s talk about your attitude.

Attitude Evidently my turn to ask a question 

                                                 Wha attitude 

Theirs or your body coming back out.

Not your attitude

Somebody breaks into my place I got my phone I’m out the back door they can contend with the police.

Its your place 

               Its your place to defendsomebody offendscrosses your girlfriend yare out the back door phone in hand calling the police

That’s different.  She’s a person, your place is a thing.

Hes gonna knock the shit out of you if you defend herya havent a chance Thas your calculation Look for the bouncer  Ohshit this place hasnt a bouncer 

                                     Your girlfriends on her own

That’s not going to happen.

  No   No  Your girlfriends not tha hot 

You sonofabitch.

Hills to die on baby 

                      Youll pick an choose your hills  Every hill tha defines you is a hill to die on  In my case muthafucker came to the wrong house 

But maybe theyll stop at your place before getting to mine  Problem neutralised  But maybe they sack your place an run before the cops arrive

I will not have my home defiled    

AMish,  Monday,  24  10. 22

234preferred,  Twosday,  25  10. 22

Explosions in the Sky  Greet Death  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dkixXH94kfI 

 OH look!  corporate with its head up its ass like an ostrichs stuck in sand

 

SEES the light andoes whas right 

ADIDAS says NAH to Ye

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNMoXCnQKxc

https://www.politico.com/news/2022/10/25/adidas-ye-partnership-antisemitic-remarks-00063295

1614,  Twosday,  25  10. 22

Ann-Margret  Bye Bye Birdy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1t3cBTb3xPc

he shruggeda duck shaking water off its back Yahwell ya do you Ill do me  Ill never be a connoisseur

his use of absolute really got his goat there was no such thing absolute   they differed drastically at this measure it got the better of him

                      Would you quit with the absolute?

  No Not when it continually gets a rise out of youyaoughta be beyond tha Its like yare a little kid like ya don know Im pushing your buttons 

                        Never be a connoisseur

If you had the money?

Moneys no option its not about money I havent tha kind of fuckin patience

You’re patient.

Not tha patience   Patience comes in all kinds I can be patient with peoplethough not ignoranceblinded people as yaknow I havent patience for food for presentation for pairings for connoisseurs sniff my winesip  I don like winedon like goblets flutes silver an china linen not at all Sam I Am  Gimme a tablespoon fork sharp knife paper plate picnic tablesomething to wipe my greasy fingers on 

I could be a connoisseur.

Knock yourself out

Try it, I’ll pop . . I’ll take you to dinner.

No thank you

I’m serious.

I understand  No thank you

Come on try it . . you might like it.

I know wha I like  I know me   Which is another difference between us

I know me his indignation obvious butthurtguy always getting butthurt     

  No  You don

                 Which is why I call you outwhich is wha a friend does which unfortunately ya havent had the fortune of

I have.

Lying to yourself  Don do tha

I have. like a small child

Awright  Not going there   One last thingso we can quit this nonsensemove along 

                                                                                       Don try to con a sewer

1017,  Sunday,  23  10. 22

1012,  Twosday,  25  10. 22

he asked  When

she didnt say 

Cat got your tongue

mums the word

he opted to be more provocative she brought up the two women  Pussy got your tongue

she blushed rose

Color suits you it looked like talcum on her skin

still mute toeing the linoleum with her right foot

Pussy not home

her blush spread like wildfire to her widowspeak ears  throat

Too bad All the things I could do for you

at least she didnt stammer

he offered his business cardholding it casually between two fingers

still aflameher eyes on his she gently took itslipping it from between his fingers

  Thank you 

                he turned to leave as he didhe said  I hope you call an tell me when

 

2324,  Monday,  24  10. 22

0855,  Twosday,  25  10. 22

Whale Fall  Holarctica  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=49IIhHsfwy4

label:  Hispanic  published OCT 14                                                            

fuckin Germanslike Jews have a name for everything 

                                                         took him long enough to learn it

unheimlich

nicely it is described as the unfamiliar familiar which is very nice had he known when he was younger he wouldnt have shared the bedtime story with his girls that his parents told him hed have to ask them if they knew or if the story was told to them by their parents

Freud coined it

he studiedhe wasnt keen on Freud preferred Jung Freud hungup on sex seemed infantile

Freuds unheimlichhis paradign was the example of E T A Hoffmans tale The Sandman the tale he was told to encourage him to go to sleep at night

                           he had to be asleep for the Sandman to put sand in his eyes the crust in the corner of his eyes when he woke anif he was not asleep the Sandman would take out his eyesOHJOY

GermanOFCOURSE philosopher F W J wha with three initials preceding a German surname described uncannyunheimlich as a term for everything that should remain mysterious hidden latent an has come to light

                                                                                              maybe we turn off the lights

if we cannot see it it may not be able to see usBET

eerie sinister lurid uncanny weird take a pick 

                                            “Why do German Jewish words always seem to have awesome subtleties and gradations of meaning?” couldnt find who said it or where he saw itOHWELL

   no matter he was pretty sure his reasons were the same as his parentstheir parents  they wanted the kids to fall asleep so they could have sex

 

0030,  Saturday,  17  9. 22

1244,  Monday,  24  10. 22

https://www.freud.org.uk/2019/09/18/the-uncanny/  https://courses.washington.edu/freudlit/Uncanny.Notes.html   https://theconversation.com/why-the-german-language-has-so-many-great-words-55554

  Kanye  Ye 

                yaint no Prince  when he was a symbol

1843,  Monday,  24  10. 22

https://www.axios.com/2022/10/24/kanye-west-anti-semitic-comments-business   https://www.bbc.com/news/magazine-36107590 

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/prince-warns-young-artists-record-contracts-are-slavery-32645/

Oh Lindsay 

Oh Clarence

               theyve closedsnapped-shut the definition of an eyerollin tonguelollin circle jerk

Enjoy boysenjoy while you can youre both too old an too spent for this horseshit

1651,  Monday,  24  10. 22

https://www.politico.com/news/2022/10/24/clarence-thomas-graham-subpoena-grand-jury-00063161

OH Former Former phat Former 

                                  hes playing games because he thinks hes so stilettosharp everso clever   brilliant

but he thought otherwise 

                           the Former thinks hes playing with a full deckplaying a loaded WHEEL OF FORTUNE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-bquGDodSM

  No way  

           he saw little to no opportunities for fortune Former had pissed those away

he was assuredconfident the game the imbecilic Former was playing was called WHEEL OF MISFORTUNE

he tilted his headsmiling to the future sound of Former squealing not for success rather for a Bedouin tentsized orange jumpsuit an for Formers new Phederal Playmates nix any thought they are from Playboy

1516,  Monday,  24 10. 22 

but the first of many  https://www.reuters.com/legal/jury-selection-set-begin-trump-companys-criminal-tax-trial-2022-10-24/

it wasnt until later in life that she understood what her parents did for her and her sister had a name

                                                                                                            they were ruggedised 

she wasnt like other girls 

she thought they were sissies

                                 they didnt mix

she got along better with boys she wasnt concerned with traditional girlie things or notions she was athletic by fifth grade bigger than most the boys at school even had a few fistfights with them   Why did you fight?   What did he say?   I asked you why you were fighting?   He can tell you . . and if he lies Im going to beat him again.

thats what the administrator reiterated to her father  

he agreed with his daughter

she tried to go around him to his wife 

                                       Shes out of town on business  Ive told her  Shes with me   Wha did the boy say

That’s . .

. . I dare you to tell me thas none of my concern 

                                                   Theyre old enough knowing enough to settle matters how they choose  at least my daughter is thahe got his ass handed to him changes nothing  He might have been wiserconsidered possible outcomes before agitating

                                        But he is a boy  Theyre immature at this age

His parents . .

. . Yare welcome to tell them where we live Youll excuse me if I rather not contend with a middleperson a middlewoman School policy is clear three-day suspension for fightingdespite despite my daughter standingup for herself Weve taught her to do exactly tha whenever necessary  This is where you excuse yourselfinterrupt me  confirm hell be home for three days too 

I know the boy When I drop my other daughter for school I know his classroom

                                                                                     Ill be watchin

                                                                                                        Three days

Mister . .

. . Please answer the question Three day suspensions for both children My daughters brought her books home garnered her assignments 

Ill be watchin  Thank you for your time 

Have anything more to say for yourself

Dad? 

Yes

I’m honestlyyou want me to be honest . .

. . Thas the currency of our household

I’m happy I made him cry. Everybody saweverybody heard what he said. I stoodup for myself.

Anunfortunately unfair as it may seem sometimesmost the time it comes at a price

Mom agreed?

Mom backed us

That’s not agreeing.

Actions speak louder than words 

                                   When she returns youll talkIll not speak for her 

She backed us.

Particularly Mom backed you 

                               We have one anothers backs  Yet another currency in our family

the girls were ruggedisedtied tightly together in a knot  perhaps she more than her sister but her sister wasnt slouch she played bigger than she was

sometime Thursday,  15  9. 22

1101,  Monday,  24  10. 22

Whale Fall  Kodiak  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6kk4-ubujI8

    Its funny when I sit down to eat I eat without pleasure  I ingest 

                                                                       I ingest my sustenance don smack my lips don say Damn thawas tasty its not important its tasty  whas important is that its fuel 

                                                                                    I need nothing more than tha

Occasionally Im fed something more than fuel an Im grateful for the treat 

                                                                             like when a dog gets a meaty bone an doesnt have to dig up one hes buried

Yes grateful 

              not tha it was important its appreciated 

I am grateful 

                Then grateful gets to the end of the line anis recalled when it happens again

Not tha I look for it or forward to it 

   Grateful

             momentarily happy genuinely happy it was offered 

 

939/2139,  Sunday,  23  10. 22

he was slackjawedhad not heard anything like that ever come out of her mouth 

   What?

          rolling her eyes inquisitively  What’s with the face?

he pulled himself together 

                            Im  wondering  if I heard you correctly

You heard me correctly . you listen to me when I speak . . unlike others . they’re too busy in their heads to properly engage in conversation and why I dowhy I bother I don’t know . . it’s all about them them them them them . . . they’ll be the death of me.

Seems to be a lot of them . . 

. . There areno exaggeration . it’s pitifulI’m pitiful . to think otherwiseto think they’ll be different. 

                                                                                                    I’m fuckin’ insufferable. 

No

     Don be harsh on yourself

I’m not . I’m piling on like they pile onthey have their reasons . . not agreeing would be unreasonab . . 

. . Anyare reasonable

I am. Yes.  You know it. 

I do 

     Which is all the more reason you shouldnt give a shit what they thinkwhoever they are   Disassociate

Disassociate? quietly she shook her headtears working into her eyes

 Disassociate 

               Theyll be the death of you

 

impossible big tears rolled down her cheeks

she looked absolutely dejectedforlorn

he took a handkerchief out of his backpockethanded it to her 

                                                                Swear its cleanhavent used it I have two

she choked on a chuckle 

                           Thank you  she wiped her eyesher cheeks  chin 

Yare welcome  I apologise 

                               Thawas harsh 

But true, very true.

Yes true 

he cleared his throat loudly 

                               So you said Why waste a minute being timid

That’s what I said.

Thas strong for you

she chuckledhe was relieved I wasn’t saying it for menot for me . no . . it’s what I understandhave learned from you.

suddenly she smiled large under her shining eyes

looked pitiful

she was breaking his heart 

                              Have learned  But wont practise 

Precisely. As you know because you listen to me. 

                                                     she chuckled again  I live vicariously through youthrough your stories . . don’t ever stop.

1834,  Saturday,  22  10. 22

1126,  Sunday,  23  10. 22

Distant Whale  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X7YzyImFAUo 

pensee

Deepressed

losing my mind

sucking on Latuda tabs

take it at night to help me sleep

Latuda latitude

2324,  Twosday,  18  10. 22

1526,  Saturday,  22  10. 22

he really disliked the contrived artworkthe portraitures evoked 

a homeless man under the viaduct yelled Wha’s that smell, wha’s that smell? as he walked below him on the birdshitspattered sidewalk 

homeless had situated himself on a concrete shelf highup near the steel palegreen painted undergirding

he heard a reply but didnt see who spoke Insecticide bugs up here.

That’s insecticide?

Huhhah.

It smells amazing.

Do have a pleasant smell.

Mind sharing?

You got bugs?

Not yet . . but we’re slumming in close proximity.

You insinuating something? a slight violence in his voice

No not at all, nothing personal . . crawly bugs.

They do yah they do.  he heard him moveshift then saw some part of him  he was cocooned in a crummy soiled sleeping bag  Ya give it back?

I will.

You got bugs?

No . . but smells so goodthought I’d use as an insecticide and an underarm deodorant.

Underarm deodorant?

Yeah.

Aw man that is fuckin brilliant.

he wagged his headkept walking 

                                   Wow he thought wont ever whine again about my circumstances

1627,  Twosday,  18  10. 22

1446,  Saturday,  22  10. 22

  on occasionrare occasion his mind skipswandersreturns to 2017 he has a long memory infamous Charlottesville the tiki torchesthe braying White Nationalists Neo-Nazis racists he recalls the imbecilic frosting on the cake Former “. . . you also had people that were very fine people, on both sides . . .” 

                                                                 Former had nothing on Beavis and Butthead Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XchwE9zVdnw

his mind wanders 

                    at the time he thought someone there should have had his thought  toss pretty coloured gasoline-filled balloons on the tiki goons 

                                  made him chuckle sardonically as it went off in his eyesreminding him of the Scarecrow from The Wizard of Oz  Here Scarecrow, you wanna play ball?  The Wicked Witch tosses a fireball at himScarecrows frenetic stationary horsegallop as the Tinman falls on the ground to smother the flames 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6NyuNnAURSg

                                                        he could imaginecould see all those Gittyup! hoppintrottingallopin white supremacists Jews will not replace us! while they do a fabulous impersonation of replacing them

   You know thas a little sick doncha whispered an inner Mariachi  

Guillermo ya don have to whisper I like to think it a kind of parity a little dose of Sick for the Sick

1627,  Twosday,  18  10. 22

1135,  Saturday,  22  10. 22

tiki torches  https://www.vox.com/identities/2017/8/12/16138244/charlottesville-protests-photos 

https://www.politifact.com/article/2019/apr/26/context-trumps-very-fine-people-both-sides-remarks/