29.8.22


absently throwing a look over his shoulder to the clock asking himself  Wha time is it 
                                                                                              Jeez   Agin
One Two Three Four  12:34 
                             he couldnt begin to count the times he began something morningevening to find that time was one two three four whether revealed digitally – that small world on his cellphoneif he looked -- or by the hands on his many clocks 
                  Daylight Savings Time worked him like a dog when it rolled around he voted for the referendum to end it majority of the state did too yet for some reason the Legislature hasnt brought it to the floor for a vote ought to ought to also dismantle the metastasized Agro-corporations and redistribute farmland to small farmers if they can be found  eliminate megalodon hubs their belligerent inflexible distribution which runs for their benefit arm bars people he was reticent to call them consumers

he sees one two three four mighty frequently he really liked mightee freequaintly tickled him  As easy as do-re-mi shake it shake it baby shake it shake it baby Come on girl! Jackson Fives A B C  an acid flashback 
                                                                                         mightee freequaintly
                 though times easier to see during the daylight than nightlight
Whadaya mean? 
                  the one with the big mouth  always talking loud to stand out 

he tries hard not to be impatient with him theres a lot of competition but only so in the sense that they were so many they dont actually compete  there were just so many  wandering in an out gypsies his border was porous 
I meant nightlight as opposite daylight 

Well thas just darn stupid theres no light at night maybe moonlight ifnit aint overcast  otherwise zip nightlight  exceptexcept  a nightlight lit so ya don trip over a cat in the hallway and break your fool neck or one in a bathroom so ya don have to throw the lightswitch an blast your eyes 
                                                          Better you shoud have said . . .
Nightlight

his face was very plastic it twisted like a wet washcloth wrung out 
                                                                        Yes   Nightlight
  
humourous 
             hand him a toothpick to work the crow out from between his teeth

1306,  Twosday,  5  4. 22 
1435,  Sunday,  28  8. 22 

28.8.22


he was struggling  and that was saying something
                                                           Its hard to put into words 

I think that’s fair to say about dreams.

Yes  Though usually I have the words

Given the dreams you’ve shared with me I would agree, but hell, I can’t even remember if I dreamed let alone what I dreamed.

Commitment

You always say . . so commitgive me what you got, maybe, again as you also say, relating what you remember will fire . a neuron. 
            stupid grin crawled across his face 

No thats your terminology I don use it

Well be that as it may, that’s what you need to fire.

Ah sciences high priest pray for me while I dig in This aint got nothing to do with a rain of fire

Awright. I’ll listen.
                   slipping back into the plastic brightyellow Adirondack chair he crossed his arms over his chestcrossed his ankles 
          then suddensittingforward he grabbed his Corona and lime by its skinny neck then sat back 
                                                                                                           To keep my mind lubricated.

Quite the dramatics

Hellyah, once you take the floor I’ll not get a word in edgewise.

No because yare listening

haltingly  he nodded 
                      looked something like a Ken doll trying to blow himself an almost there realised he didnt have a cock dirty Mattel gods  but Barbie didnt have nipples or genitalia either
 
                                                                                That’s right, I’m listening, so let’s get this show on the road. Begin. 
                             the House lights dimmed


I entered a bedroom  It wasnt mine

Three women were in bed   

They were naked postured helter skelter  their limbs overlayingentwined

I admired them 

Then a vibration from all around me I mean all around top of my headbottoms of my feet  the women began to fade to disappear  an disappearing they seemed to become gelatinous amorphic 

Then rather they became distortedhomogeneous a vague silvering  occasional punctuatedsudden white pinpoints
aquiver   

I thought to I tried not to blink prolonged my stare in hopes that perhaps my tears would scrub the distortion help me see   

They slippedslithered around the bed rose midair then ascended like smoke an roiledspread over the ceiling 

Washing down the walls they surrounded me engulfed me like jellyfish he cleared his throat    Medusozoan
I had no defenses
                   An beyond me I realised that men had no defenses  Ive never felt so helpless in my life


So you woke up, because you can, you escaped, by your lucid dreaming.

  No I didnt 
              I believe I was ingested or felt  what must be the sensation of disintegrating  Darkness enveloped me
Fade Out 
          Then I was in another dream but my dreaming-me was fraughtinvested in the earlier one  Whaever presented then was pixelated  asif viewing a painting too close up  a slurry   visual white noise 
                                                                                              We were obsessedpuzzled by the prior dream

Eventually my cat leftie leapt into bed an woke me 


JesusChrist, better pinch me . . feels like I’m dreaming. 

1432,  Thursday,  25  8. 22
1229,  Sunday,  28  8. 22


she cut him to the quick

he thought Bitch

she smiled asif she could hear him the points of her canine showed 
                                                                     he was just another malenot even a man in a long long line of males who detested her 


she was a wrestler in high schoolreceived an athletic scholarship for college

two-time state champion

two-time All-American 


freshman year college a girlfriend asked her what was the best thing about wrestling

Watching the boys cry after I beat them. 


when he was introduced to her he liked her right off

she liked Modelo Negra anchovies on her pizza she occasional smoked a cigar with him while they bullshit philosophised and joked  

she was nearly exceptional at everything she tackled

 

he was passing through town and telephoned to see if she might be free for coffee her time was valuablemore valuable than his 

So you cut him to the quick

she nodded I did. His eyeballs bugged.

Whad he say that provoked you

He said, I was wondering.

  No
       Anya said

Don’t. It’s above your pay grade.

1820,  Saturday,  27  8. 22
1043,  Sunday,  28  3. 22
hats off to Killing Eve for the dialogue


Look you got to see this Want to put some money down on it   Mines on the little black boy

A foot race? oh hell no.


the little black boy easily outran the little white boy 


thats the worry certain whites have
                                       of being left in their dust

hed lay odds that typically blacks are physically superior (imagine if they were properly educated)

nothing to see there

seems four hundred years of inhuman slavery genetically favoured blacks

however nearly four hundred years of sitting on ones ass didnt
                                                                      some folk cant accept that

one can see why certain white men feel inferior  or threatened

they wanttheyre entitled  to have relations with superior white women

but why would those women want to have relations with inferior men

so it stands to reason that White Nationalists would have a hard on for religion that vilifies or disavows black people

Now whos niggardly

1425,  Thursday,  25  8. 22
2326,  Saturday,  27  8. 22
Gale Storm  I Hear You Knocking  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0pqfjCmqCs


faint of heart bug up your ass  not playful DO NOT ENTER   he read that once tattooed on a womans pubic
                                                                                                                     how could he not 

James Joyce  bro
                       secred word Finnegans Wake
“This is bode to Belchum, bonnet to busby, breaking his secred word with a ball up his ear to the Willingdone.”
   secred  sacred secretedyahboth sacreed  sackrid
Sackrid?

Yes your sackrid word
                       defy your wordbreak it  for failingfor your lie youre rid your sack your scrotum 
                                                                                                           it scrolled roiled scorched best to keep your word
Willingdone 
             Thy will be done 

Thy Who Thy usually be God budd thy theetheyre archaic your you Who me In a figtree You Me  crucifix

      erigenating from next to nothing”

      originating

     engenearing

      generating 
                   “the jinnies is jillous”

“What clashes here of wills gen wonts, oystrygods gaggin fishygods!”
                                                                         Amen brother  Ahmen  Aahmouths wide open men

he liked hanging around Joyce  never a dull moment

after 1234,  Twosday,  5  4. 22
556preferred,  Saturday,  27  8. 22

27.8.22


she was passing through town she said  Your mother gave me your address.

he hadnt seen her since she was
                                   How old

Eleven, maybe twelve.

How old are you now

Twentythree.

Youve aged nicely

You think?you do remember me?

Of course You went down in front of the house on your bicycleconcrete scratched the hell out of your knee Looked like it woud scar

It did, see. 
            they were sitting at the bar waiting for a booth to clear to have food place made a sensational Mac and Cheese she was wearing a skirtbrought her knee up he caught her leg behind the kneepulled it up closer  See?

he was seeing and admiring 
                                Yes

It would have scarred worse if you hadnt helped.

Maybe maybe not Was no trouble

You picked me up and carried me into your house. she smiled looked like she was back then and here at the same time

he smiled You have great dimples 
                                      he slowly lower her leggave it back to her 
Thank you.
             Often I've felt I owe you a debt of gratitude.

You were a tough little kidtears were in your eyes  but you didnt cry

I cried after you drove me and my bicycle home.

Aw well ya sucked it up the whole while I was with you

You were very kind, attentive, you administered me well.

Had lotsa scratched to hell knees when I was a kid too

You’ll have to show me. she teasedsmiled again her dimples deeper yet

Girl you got great dimples                                    

the barmaid interrupted 
                          Excuse me, let me take your drinks, a booth’s ready, a nice booth, somewhat secluded, probably best as you’re catching up.

they stoodhe said Thank you he looked at her name stitched on her shirt above her breast Sam also lingered a moment to admire
Thawas very thoughtful

We aim to please if we can.

Thank you I appreciate tha Well follow you 
                                              he stepped aside to let Sam lead Candy gave him a looksmirked whispered Aim to please and followed Sam he lingered to take in both their fannies as they walked ahead  hed have to remember to thank his mom 


the booth was as secluded as Sam said

as they sat he said You wont forget us

plying them with menus I’ll forget you . . just enough. Back in, say, five, ten minutes?

Candy said Ten. Thank you, Sam.

after she left Ten I thought we knew wha we wanted

We do, I just want to take advantage of our booth, she wasn’t kidding when she said secluded. No telling what could transpire heremight see your knees.

  My knees you crack me up
                                I had no idea the day woud bring you this is too much fun Who knewwhoever knows  I love the unexpectedness of it

I’m terribly happy you were willing to meet me, your Mom told me you hadn’t changed, same guy, not one iota, a real charmer she said. 
                    Thank you. It’s been a long time. We scarcely know each other.

he raised his glass Then heres to getting to know each other

Candy smiled Getting to know each other better. 


who knew they were going to have that much fun

they had the Mac and Cheese Candy built her own

Sam made herself scarce but was attentive

they had several more drinks

became more friendly

Candy excused herself to use the restroomcame storming back I forgot my phone. 
                                                                                      Another drink?
Yes please Id love another Nice benefit to living nearby  Can walk home

Yes. off she went 

he mused 
            she was a neighbourhood kid he knew her parents delivered their newpapers hustled them to raked leaves shovel snow cut lawn there was a younger sister Candy took after her mother looks builddefinitely build college double major Communications Politics Art History minor was driving crosscountry new job Seattle went out of her way to stop to meet him

they were hitting it off famously 

Whas famously

he had an idea

hed ask her hers when she got back 


Sam didnt bring their drinks

too bad she was providing him at least an ample view when she bent to serve she wasnt marriedwasnt wearing a ring had to have a boyfriend he might have to test those waters would be foolish not to

 

Candy hustled in with their drinks set them down Hmm she provided him an ample viewing too 
                                                                                                  Sorry. Bars backed up. Sam’s making drinksmade ours, said they ought to straighten our hair
                                                                          she stumbled over his legs before he could stand to let her in  smiling Excuse me while I crawl over your lap 

Have your way with it hand on the tablehand then knee between his legs he admired the round of her rump as it went by

There. she giggled I need to straighten my clothing out. she shimmied pulled here there pulled on her skirt her blouse shifted plucked sighed  finished 
                                    There. How do I look? 
You look like a million bucks
                                Do you have your phone

she giggled Thank you. I wouldn’t she giggled again a little percolation no I wouldn’t percolated beautiful laughter smiles coming out of her face were arresting  Ohno, I wouldn’t lose my phone, it’s right here in my pocket.

Oh good Good  I thought you were just happy to see me 
                                                             he caught her with that she belted out an enormous laughdidnt bother to cover her mouth 
                                       he really dug thatdug that a lot in women if someoneshe asked hed say that was a dealbreaker a woman ought to be uninhibited hand over heranyones mouth  inhibited 
                                                                                               however over the afternoon evening he was learning that about her                               

You’re too funny. 

Thank you It was your prompt though

You’re blaming me? she pointed at herselfsmackdab between her tits he had to look

I am Ya teed up a ball Im gonna drive it

almost musically Drive it. 
                          that tickled  Ive no choice he raised his glass  she grasped hers  Heres to having no choice  Just gotta do it

No choice, gotta do what you gotta do.

they sipped  Sam didnt lie

Thas a drink

A specialty of hers she said.

She name it

She didnt say.

Well have to ask when we leave this evening 
                                                 Whawoud you name it

Candy took another sip she touch her tonguetapped her tongue to her upper lip where the cleft down from her nose met took yet a smaller sip then ran her tongue at her top lip again slowly side to side scarcely an inch terribly erotic 
I don’t know. Why don’t you try.

I can try Take another sip please an do tha tonguething

she puckered her lips
                        Okay.

she sippedtonguedput her lips together he leaned forwardsuddenly kissed her delicately

then he leaned backlooking in her eyes the whole time 
                                                          I don know either But we have time to drink an figure it out
Make a better educated guess

she smiled warmly her dimples hinting  terribly erotic 


  Say? something in her eyes  something mischievous

Yes

she wiggledreaching into her pocket Would you like to see a couple of pictures?

Yes sure Id be happy to see anything you wanted to share with me

she blushed slightly

he noticed

she made a thing of itfinding the pictures 
                                                 Ah.  Yes.     Here.   Look.  she handed him the phone an slipped a bit away from him

he noticed

Swipe left, there’s three pictures.

Awright 
         selfies Hmm same clothing  first picture she held her bra backstraps dangled against her shoulder cups in hand her blouse open left things to his imagination   krazy  tasteful

second her skirt was pulled up to one side he saw her hip hipflexor  the slender sensuous tease of her coloured panties

the third picture her panties and bra in hand

while he was looking mesmerised she stealthily had taken them from her other pocket 
                                                                                         when he finally looked up from the phone they were in her hand as it rested on top the table she smiled she set them beside her pinched her panties held them out to him 
                 For you, my gratitude.
he took them 

they were warm

she dropped her hand lazily to her thigh her fingers worked her skirt up she shifted her hips forward reaching down she touched her scarred knee then slowly slowly she ran her fingers back up her leg between her legs  she touched herself shivered   gathered a small breath 
                                                    I was thinking . . . 

leaning forward he gently pushed her downhis hand at her chest at her breast down into the booth brought her scarred knee up over his headhis shoulder against his arm 
                                                            I like how you think

still dark AMish,  Saturday,  27  8. 22 
1417,  Saturday

the cleft under ones nose is called a philtrum – he liked cleft – in Key Largo Humphrey Bogart explains its origin – a newborn comes into this world with all the grace and wisdom of heaven and earth – but an angel soon arrives and presses the childs lips together so that he or she cannot impart the knowledge to anyone 


an aged live oak decrepit crumblingdecaying  alone in a vast brown turned field stickled with weeds

in its day it had probably stood better than ten metres tall

though unrestrainedabiding winds had sweptback pulled its limbs south

its long scattered ruins like a trail impressed him he imaginedhe couldnt help himself  under the cover of night it crawled incrementally 


its stark sunbleached trunkone remaining branchits bow  its end shattered  lead north  was breathtaking   marvelous 
              they abided
                                                                 
after he passed he admired them in his side mirrorhis rearview mirror until they disappeared behind a hill as the road curved east 
             he smiled   until they submitted  fell   were scavenged by earthbugs birds preying on them
until they disintegrated
                         they were reminders stark memory of what they witnessed 
                                                                                     before the winding roadthe fencesthe almondsthe grapevines
                       before the insults

1212,  Twosday,  5  4. 22
1002,  Saturday,  27  8. 22
Burial  The Shell of Light  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-JyMK5sg40

26.8.22


BINGO! it occurred to him  why was he so thick  White Christian Nationalists  he got itunderstood they have to influence local school boards they have to stick their fingers in curriculum they have to ban books 
                                                                                                       Gods illiterate
cant have children knowing more than God and their elders

otherwise they wont be pliant   

they wont take orders

they must be docile

subservient

1430,  ReggaeFiday,  26  8. 22

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he quickly turned from the others as they were leaving to him and said  And you, I expect you early for the appointed time and place.
                 rather urgent  terse

he smiled stepped backedaway and as he did he made a thing of looking to his left looking to his right  around allaround   quite ridiculously 
                                 finally  Are you talkin to me he said it over his managers rising Big Bad Wolfs huffin and puffin 
            My wha a big mouth you have Maybe save your breath an instruction for somebody else

You have a loose sense of time. I do not appreciate it.

Loose 
       A minute beforeminute later Guarantee ifya held your breath yawoudnt turn blue

Irregardless, you ought to be therearrive ten, fifteen minutes early.

To wait You mean to wait 
                             Ya out of your freakin mind thall be a cold day in Hell

So youd rather everyone wait on you?

Tellinya you coud all hold your breath an no one woud turn blue 
                                                                      Ill also tellya Ill upturn pinpointplace on the practised handyclock Om thas fourhunredthirtytwo Hertz I understand it helps release serotonin endorphins which in turn keeps your blood pressure and heartbeat stable OM  Omy  if anyone needs it ya do

manager looked like stammer 
                                actually  he looked epileptic Incoming Convulsion 
Please don he slapped his breast pockets I havent a sportsguard a No. 2 pencil to put in your mouth to keep ya from biting your tongue 

little dog syndrome snarl  You should take me seriously.
I cant
         Ive been here longer than anyone left standing  You coud go off an try to impress them  I know you like a book Anya know me
I understand my obligations

I meet them in my time analways with plenty of time to spare 

looking spastic How is it you werent fired a long time ago? You’re impudent. Ive seen your jacket . .
. . Id love to see my jacket . .
. . Ive seen it . .
. . An it woud help if you read it
                                   Possibly ya missed the slew of commendationslikely in the appendix which acts like a big fat . . exclamation point he was being civil  he wanted to say . which looks like a big fat cock  

Isnt it your lunchtime 
                        Time to imbibe take a load off

1148,  Twosday,  5  4. 22
1240,  ReggaeFriday,  26  8. 22