they were hiking 

                  That’s about the size of an American robin . . called a Blackheaded Grosbeak.

Thaswha it was

Yes.

A really handsome bird  again its name

Blackheaded grosbeak. there was excitement in his voice

A blackheaded grosbeak

Yes.

A blackheaded grosbeak

                            Your cock move when yasee it an say its name

You saw it. really excited

I did did indeed a handsome bird  but I aint a boider

                                                           Cantya just admit it  saying Marilyn Monroe Inger Stevens Gina Lollobrigida Sophia Loren Jill Saint John  a silent Bo Derek shut my mouth   Im mooved

Suppose Im a boider in another sense

That’s you . .

. . Your cock moved Tha so hard to admit he winked

I’m not like you.

  No

       Im honest

Honest?

Yaheard me

             Ya cant admit to arousal whaelse wont ya admit to  Fuck aint like were in mixed company Though thasaid Id admit to mooving in mixed company poor bastards just threw in with the wrong company 

                                                                                                Or not  Betcha chicks eyebrows rise anwho knows maybe a kind heartkind soul will help a fella out 

                                                                                   he wiggled his eyebrows 

You’re ridiculous.

If it gets a headnod a dick shaken or stirred  no harmin being ridick culous curled in fingers a nest of phalanges if you will

Jesus man.

No harm no foul he smiled really big   Fowl

fucking guy was humourless when his Johnson was in question

A boid or cock in hand might be worth a cock in a bush 

                                                         Just saying  he would always say

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

1647,  Saturday,  4  6. 22

topsyturvy shit they discussed everything under the sun without guise or filters  if something occurred to either of them out it came

           he flung masturbation into the frayvibrators 

                                                           Good way to beat an egg oohshit sorry sorry I misspoke beat an egg  I was referring to a time I once beat eggs for a scramblecoudnt find a fork silverware didnt want to wake her we were upI was Up till early hours of the morn let her sleep in a bit longer we had tickets for a Dali exhibit noonish From my reading it was unlikely wed be out in three hours  Thasaid the vibrator really beat the eggs to a nice froth with settings above to spare 

                          Have to admit the whole day it damn near made me want to be a chick

A chick for a day?

Derogatory

No, not coming out of your mouth.

Good I didnt think so Men haved so many more pet names for women than you may have for us  Anthasaid not many women have taken exception to my  my terms of endearment

Because?   You know why?

Because my vernacular isnt meant offensivelyderogatory kinda rolls off my tongue

And you’re handsome.

                       Woman like the attention of a goodlooking man; you like the attention of an attractive woman.

I do

Tit for tat.

Dick for dat

Nah . . doesn’t quite fly.

Hell worth a shot  Flung it like I flung masturbation an vibrators

 

You really beat eggs with it?

I washed it off first

                     In between sets she kept her motor runningher words not mine  wha a freakin motor

AMish,  Saturday,  4  6. 22

1548,  Saturday

Can  Fizz   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRgRjvZM5Lg

he was made late to the game

                              YAH he was keen on black and white films revealed on black an white sets  there were coloured ones but his parents didnt own one until he left home  late night stoned beer in hand a coldcut sandwich watched foreign films on Channel 20 WYCC 26 WXXW PBS  some realfreakin eyeopeners

he was black and white 

                           no mixed drinks he wanted to taste the nuances of a particular spirit fuckNo wine  no salad dressings not sauces or nuts on ice cream fruit pies no cakes  seemed was recognised   most things he ingested he took straight  things as they were 

                                      as he was

straight save commingling for others

What’s wrong with you?

Nothing not a damn thing wrong with me

You do it to stand out.

hed smile a glint of cruelty  Arya doin it to fit in 

                                                  Im particularnot peculiar coudnt give two shits that I am 

                                                                                                               Might say water off a fucks back Woudnt give two shits

 

What’s it about?

his daughter took the reins

                             You don’t mind, Papa?

No knock it out of the park baby

she sallied forthelaborated on his subject matter writing style frankly surprised him 

So . . you were flattered.

No not flattered she knows better than to try an flatter me She embarrassed me  I had no idea she was paying attention

Why wouldn’t she?

You don

You’re right . . I don’t . .

. . Yes ya don  not your cup of tea

They’re hard for me to decipher . .

. . A good excuse

It’s not an excuse.

Yareally going to call it a reason

Yes yes . . I have a hard time following them, your misspellings . .

. . I misspell for a reason

You say . . so you say . . but even when you’ve read pieces to me, I’m watching over your shoulder, I’m stymied, I have a hard time following them.

You do labour

              Hell  even when I provide the context cadence timing  how I readhow I write them

Yes . . not up my alley.

                        However . again . . you weren’t flattered?

No

You must have been flattered.

No  as I said she knows better than go that route

                                                     I woudnt post them if they werent good I don need strokes if it were someones managerial style Id kick their legs out from under them  Save your breath  I know its good

I’m having a hard time believing you weren’t flat . .

. . No

You’re an odd duck, man.

World needs odd  Happy to help       

2321,  Thursday,  2  6. 22

1239,  Saturday,  4  6. 22

Can  Tony Wanna Go  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxK0kesGPi4

Grotto . . what is that?

Arya kiddin me were standing inside the mouth of one   Why ya asking

Because you read the dictionary, you’re a wordsmith . . tell me.

he oversimplified  A hole    

all she had to do was turn her head an look she didnt need his wordshad her own

A hole . .  really? 

Not satisfied  Awright

                          Geologically speaking a hole effaced eroded by wind or water

A hole . . . you’re something else her turn to exaggerate  like a hole in a floor?

Sure hole in a ceilingfor that matter a hole in a wall   Inside    Outside

she wasnt satisfied

                      I expected a thorough definit . .

. . I don do definitions I prefer descriptions

You’re funny, a funny funny guy.

Epizeuxis Funny

What?

Literature A form of repetition a word immediately repeated for emphasis

That’s funny . . you just did a definition.

   Hmm   I suppose I did

Grotto?

Yare killing me

 

after a long hike along the bluffs overlooking the Pacific they rolled into town to meet friends at a pub and no sooner coming through the doors hiyaing them ordering beers he went with a Halfnhalf she a pint of Smithwick’s he asked Whats a grotto

Thomas immediately palmed his smartphone  The definition . . of a grotto . is . . . a small picturesque cave, especially an artificial one in a park or garden.

Coudnt try a definition without going online

I couldn’t . .

. . If I may excuse me before she goes off on me lemme toss in cenote not a C-note hunreddollar bill no a natural deep-water well a sinkhole fed by the filtration of rain by currents of underground rivers born in the heart of the earth  Sounds fuckinrefreshin yah

It does, yes . . as I was saying, a grotto . . like porn . while I can’t personally define it, I know it when I see it.

Ohgreat Thomas Sara piped in compare a grotto to porn . . . I think the obvious is being missed. she looked directly at Joe   And particularly by you.

Me

Yes you. Grotto . . the grotto at the Playboy mansion in LA. 

his head Thomass bobbed emphatically 

                                          Awyah Right on

Right?

Yah From here on out if Im asked to define a grotto thats my answer Thanks so much Sara

I don’t know what you three are talking about . . I’ve never heard of it.

  No Whellshit  Ive let you down

                                   Ive failed as a father

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

1210,  Reggaefriday,  3  6. 22

Sergio Mendes & Brasil ‘66  Look Around  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n-4utYZ7hE

Can  Vitamin C  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9a1NhRbNJ_Y

drink your milk

AahMoby yare so full of shit

looking up from his beerhed been studying the bubblesits head

                                                                    What I do now?

Nothing

Nothing? and you’re telling me I’m full of shit?

Yah  I am

If I did nothing, how can I be full of it?

I asked you a question

You as . .

. . Are we a dog chasing its tail  Christyes

Then I didn’t hear you.

Yadid You looked up from your beer directly at me and said gimme a sec

                                                                              Ive been waiting sincebeen waitin a couple minutes I didnt think there was much to digest but I didnt want to pushwanted ya to take the time ya needed to mull it over never wise Moby wasnt an absolutist  never would aggravate him anif he had a lot in life it was his duty to perform  aggravate Moby  never wise to shoot from the hipanswering a question

I don’t think I heard you.

he sighed Thas my story an Im sticking to it eh

I really don’t think I heard you . .

. . Should have asked then donya think asked me to repeat myself

I’m ston . .

. . Like Im not

Yeah well, your nut works better than mine.

Your nut don work at all

                            I asked whawoud you do if someone pushed ya back down into your chair an told you to be quiet and drink your milk

Woudya stand

Ya hear me

I heard you.

Ifya did  then Im confident ifya opted to be buried your corpse wont twitch

What’s that supposed to mean?

Wha I said 

               Be quiet and drink your milk  whacha got

What’s drink your milk mean?

I prefaced the question Yare in a bar having a drink   Milk Drink Got it       

I don’t know what I’d do.

                             He has the advantage, I’m sitting he’s standing over me.

Immediately a foot to his knee toss your drink in his face standslam him in the kisser with the glass

                                                                                                          Never mind never mind nevers again provocation I see it was a stupid question

Stupid?because you asked me?

                                    What would you do?

Likely all I suggested

Drink your milk?

Yah a wiseguys Forties wisecrack

                                       Ya live under a rock 

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

1152,  Thursday,  2  6. 22

 

  Whellshit 

             he was finallyat longlast comfortably numb  which hed sought

                                                                                 plying himself with an edible whisky brew he was a hero propelled on fumes suspended on ropes of sarcastic humour  which were nothing more than a belief in himself 

         he wasnt a betting man

though hed bet on himself why wouldnt he

 

to his disappointment he learned that many wouldnt

                                                            were where rubber meets the road   were reality

russianroulette wasnt a gamble

                                   sensing a chambered round he could make it move disappear  or misfire sitting tight nonplussed in a headyhaze  tangyresidue

he didnt cheatNo he didnt believe he wouldnt say BuhbyeExit on a whim of chance

                                                                                             his dispossessionTHE END would have to come Declared  fight tooth an nail 

                                                      an for that hed extract a pound of flesh  a lbanahalf

a lb an a half judiciously juicily  Wipe your chin ya got a little something hanging off it

it wasnt a little something rather a lot of something composing him which hed stake his life on

Whawoudya stake your life on?

                                  thats a good thing to know  in advance

2157,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

PinkFloyd  Comfortably Numb  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FrOQC-zEog

Bowie  Heroes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXgkuM2NhYI 

Phil Collins  In the Air Tonight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_Xs8nzrrkM

You know the seven deadly sins, of course?

Howd we get here  Something I say sound like a sin 

I thought for change of pace you often come off the wall out of nowhere . . . my turn.

Dig the segue cool

                      I know of them    Theres seven

Seven.  I meant them individually. her eyes openedwidened eversoslightly which struck him not as a statement but rather another question

Arya interrogating me

No. eyes went wider 

                          Well . . maybe.

I don think mebbe  he went oneeighty on her cinching his eyes a mite  I thinkyah yare

What are you doing with your eyes?

Whas with your eyes

Am I . .

. . You are

             A tell

Dammit . . thought I was getting better at that.

Naw notsomuch

                 So admit it so I don have to shut my eyes

My intent wasn’t to . . I don’t think, not really . to interrogate you . . 

. . Ya got religion on me you were a child churchgoer 

                                                         One comes to mind because its so prevalent I read of it witness it every day Greed were greedy muthafuckers I only include myself were  because while I am not greedy I am human a faulty human a man which also means at some level a wallowing pig   I have my moments

                                                                                                   Greed

That’s one . .

. . Yare up yare on

Pride.

Ditto Every day

Your turn . .

. . Got nothing

Envy.

Yes

Lust.

Yare doin better than I thought

Wrath.

Ohshityes  Got to have wrath  got milk got wrath  Goes wellcompliments when one is denied pride envy lust

Oh . . yes . I can imagine that’s true.

Wrath is pissed off though I can understand pissed off wouldnt make the cut too vulgar not religious enough 

                                                                                                                    And 

Let me think . .

Between us we have five

now her eyes narrowed

                         Wanna give me a break . .

. . Meant it as a compliment  My greeds to the seventh power

Ah . . sloth.

SLOTH not every day ya hear people speak of sloth Commendable   Right on 

                                                                                       An the cherry topper

The cherry . . . the cherry . the cherry . .

. . Gimme the cherryIve no idea Ill be no help

It’s . . .

Yare killin me . .

. . I’m killing me . .

THERE.  That's it . gluttony.

Never would have got it

                            Amazing  Committed to memory

More like drummed into memory.

Religious memory

Yes . . you could say.

I just did 

           he smiled Your eyes have returned to normal  I like your eyes normal

1817,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

1225,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

a uniformed woman wandered absently into the lobby from outback and asked loudly if the cashiercounter gal knew where they kept the SPERMICIDES 

                                       thall get ones attentiongrope and manhandle it if they were unfocused for some reason his appointment was delayed they apologisedbegged his understanding  he had time crazy he forgot to bring a book he wasnt keen on the tabled magazines and tipping towards boredtrying hard to be patient without something to distract him 

             he almost wished he knew how to meditate  almost 

the counter gal embarrassed spunshushing her glared  even took a couple steps towards her asif she was going to muffle her mouth with her hands 

                                        there was a story there

                                                                  but the absent woman already had pivoted oneeighty neatly and was heading back to the rear of the business where cubicles were for clients to be treated

                                                                                                   if anyone could call some of their particular torture a treat

in fairness Betty name was stitched on the breast of her palegreen almostmedical tunic gave him something to entertain

    spermicide

                      whawas the descending order of –cides

likely followed how one felt about sperm  or their sperm

purposeful sperm or gobs randyexpressed 

                                           Christ the way he thought he was there for a facial there was another kind of facial on occasion he participatedplayed willingly applied willfully

spermicide

     howbout deicide for those who thought a lot of themselves  

definitely patricide quickly following

                                      matricide dabbling ably next

fratricide sororicide keeping it in the family

parricide not to forget or diminish extended family

infanticide

homicide

homocide   

genocide

     hmm couldnt decide if he hit all the –cides

                                                   so he continued musing as he waited his turn with his esthetician she preferred aesthetician defensively she said What I do is a talent.   It wasnt my intention to belittle you believe me, I was only citing my understanding a difference is recognised between them. I’m sorry.

it wasnt a unwarranted apology

                                   he didnt want her spitting in his soup sotospeak

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

1404,  ReggaeFriday,  27  5. 22

egg cream echt cream ekht cream

                                   deybe English German Yiddish  real authentic true cream 

an egg cream tastes like a thinned milkshake thin because its made with soda theres neither egg or cream in an egg cream

        theres an equation in there somewhere

calling something that it isnt

    Huey however  briefly a New York summer boy friend helped provide an equivalent equation

                                                                                                        the only other Huey he knew was Baby Huey a cartoon character a gigantic naïve duckling

when he told Huey he was flattered he was unassuming not that he knew what unassuming meant

Yaever see the cartoon

No.

I saw it once shook his head I didnt like it

                                            Can I ask is your name a nickname

Ohno. a bemused smile drifted onto his face I think my parents shot high, tried to avoid the obviouswhat must have been obvious when I was born, it is German we are German, Huey means bright in mind and spirit . . you get the joke . right?

I do

You did not hesitate.

No

I like you did not hesitate.

Theres no reason to hestitate When ya tell me about yourself who am I to argue

   Makes . sense. I think because . . people try to be nice . try not hurt my feelings . . be thoughtful, you know?

he nodded

              But yare not fishing

No . . I am not.

Right don strike me that yawoud

Huey smiled real big pleased 

                             Say, we are not far from Betsy’s luncheonette, she is my friend, I think she is working today, my parents gave me some money, she makes really good egg creams, could I buy you one?

Sure that would be cool Ive never had one

2250,  Twosday,  24  5. 22

1147,  ReggaeFriday,  27  5. 22