17.5.22

irreplaceable


  Replacement theory 
                        whitey unnerveddesperate  looking over their shoulder fearfully  hatefully  whos gaining on their Legacyperceived entitlement 

he was ill trying to understand which was worse
                                                    to be taught to fear  or taught hate  indoctrinated  decrepit  their free thought spirit humanity erodeddepleted  incandescent  believing they deserve an exclamation point
                                                                                              put a manhole cover on it

whitey who evangelise replacement theory their article of irreligious faith myth ought to rock back on their heels as they squat before their fire and realise they are without a doubt irreplaceable 
                                                                                   irreplaceable  in the sense that who
whowho would want to inhabit their sewer an stinkthat greasy cesspool  their grotesquelyinduced deformative brain cancer


they have submitted  surrendered

     they are not authentic   

2227,  Monday,  16  5. 22
0958,  Twosday,  17  5. 22
Rachel Maddow  replacement  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tgQtfw9aZo 


Bob Hobbs . .
. . Stop 
         Truly    Bob Hobbs

Yes. And unfortunately Bob had a bad le . .
. . Hobbled Bob Hobbs

Sonofabitch, took the words out of my mouth.  Yes.  Chubby too. 

  A blob

Chubby white guys tend towards blobbish . don’t they?
They do 
         So beginning anew Chubbyblobbish hobbled Bob Hobbs


Ooh, that sounds terribl . .
. . Creates a vivid image  
                               Bet a redhead to boot


            could hear boids tweet crickets chirp
 
Yes he was.

Stood to reason

Come on, there’s no possible reason . .
. . Misfortune
                Misfortune is reason enough to paint elaborate pictureswe can always whiteout correct errors   paint over it again accurately

I’ve seen, I’m not interested in seeing again.

Know wha happened Bobby


     I do not.
                 We weren’t buddies.

Too bad
          There was a story there Too bad you werent interested to learn Everyoneno matter who  has a story to tell

he sneered You’d want to listen to his story?


  he let it hang to make it embarrassingif that was possible he crossed his fingers
                                                                                                    Ive listened to yours
                                                      
1434,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1623,  Monday,  16  5. 22

16.5.22


You don’t need to wear that. 
                              she was obviously irritatedhad been eyeing him he was aware she hadshe wasnt aware he was 
        she may have thought because she was a woman he wouldnt think shed dare but big an beefy an white an entitled as she was don get big and beefy without a substantial feedbag he figured she couldnt resist 
                                                                                                            he guessed she was a horse or cattlewoman a small rural town it unfortunately crowded to the eyeballs with notoriously small minds
he dug vying with them
                         to egg her on he feigned not to hear her Excuse me 
                                                                               Were you speaking to me 
her face roileddidnt improve her looks one iota 
                                                 I said you don’t need to wear that.
brusquely According to you

bullishly  The government said you don’t have to wear a mask.

Oooh thats on mighty high authority
                                         Wha government said wasthe American government said was theyd leave it to ones discretion  However being yare indiscreet ya might not have understood that

outrage also didnt improve her looks

So fact of the matter is you don have to and I can So I choose to
                                                                    An taking a leap of faith lemme cite your Gadsden flag  Don tread on me  abruptly turning his back on her Fatty hung silently on his lips


going out of the marketremoving his mask he smiled really big
                                                                all teeth for anyone to see a friend had written him  "In the Animal Kingdom showing ones teeth is a sign of aggression, so smile at some rightwing nutjob today.”

444preferred,  Monday,  16  5. 22


How long has it been? 
                      he seemed awfully antsy

How long has wha been

Since you last noted your clipboard?I’ve been talking a streak . . not exactly coherently.

No sweat I cansee your turnssidesteps coming

     You can?
               Am I that obvious?

went without saying 
                     Lemmesee  Last noted    Awwhtwenty  bouttwenty minutes ago
Twentyminutes!Feels like an hour.
                                      I know I can be tedious went without saying; tempus fugit.
I don know wha that means

Latin . . Time flies.

Didnt know tha  Fuggit  hows it spelled

F-U-G-I-T

Awhnah F-U-G-G-I-T  Look at me rewrite a dead language Zombie  No reason I should let a corpse tempus fugit put me off 
    They shoudave buried it deeper  Still worthwhile soup bones

Soup bones?Jesus.

Wastenot wantnot man

Not me.

Tempest in a teapot babe

Tempest in a teapot?

   Yah don think yad know anything about that yare not prone to exaggeration or hyperbole                                                                                                                              Not a lying storyteller dumping sugar onspicing things up Its reality once upon a time or in the future Nothing we thinkup has not or will not happen  Fictions eventually nonfiction

No. Two separate realms.

They aint
         Ya only think so  Im tellinya   Listenup
 
1430,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1406,  Monday,  16  5. 22


Replacement Theory (pat unrelenting wrong FOX and Tucker Carlson on the back for lighting peoples hair on fire – if one cant read at a 6th grade level  54% of American adults from 16 to 74 cannot – they only repeat wha theyre told) 
                          Replacement Theory wasnt gestated or came out of the mouths of down-to-earth code Republican workers 
                       Really  Theory    Ohplease

but thats the white supremacist insurrectionistby Christ line
                                                               Democrats the only governing party in Washington are the champions of privileged elites code  so runs the Republican messaging regarding student debt and loan forgiveness

they fail to sayacknowledge their existential purpose is to obstruct  they havent a plank a platform  they havent solutions
         their hands obsession are full pursuing raw power  obstructing the right to vote  obstructing justice  obstructing women minorities and religious rights  obstructing gun laws  deifying a fake a crackpot former
                                                                                                            Creeps 
 
0953, Monday,  16  5. 22

15.5.22


What was was, before was was was? 
Is 
  For Christssake that irritates me Has to be why you go to it as often as you doNot clever The first timeyah but not since

I don’t go to it ofte . .
. . Ya do With uncomfortable regularity

I disagree . .
. . Yare welcome to disagree but I gotta hear it When ya repeated it the second time I berated ya but you prefer not to recollect or remember Makes me worried for you  Mygawd whaya do remember 
                                                                                    Swear the next time ya drop that on me Im replying Fuzzy Wuzzy was a bear Fuzzy Wuzzy had no hair Fuzzy Wuzzy wasnt fuzzy No by gosh he wasnt was he  Only four was to your five  I concede


Lets see ifya remember that

1428,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
432preferred,  Sunday,  15  5. 22


OH . . you’re so metaphysical.

Thank you Nice of you to say 
I didn’t mean it as a compliment.

Butya cant stop me from taking it as oneyour secret is safe with me Yare too imbuedindoctrinated to muddlebout yet think outside the box  hence I distract you withas you say  nonsense
                                                                         Or metaphysical
                                                                                           Greek after the nature of things refers to ideas doctrine reality posited outside of human sense perception Metaphysics studies of what cannot be reached through objective studies of material reality
                                                        The nature of reality first principles of being identity an change time an space causality necessity possibility  SPOOKSBOO 
                                                                 Ifya aint seen one yacant believe in them  
I don’t.

No ya don
            But ya also lack of imagination creativity  need rules format  not unruly cautious   not out front

Trying to hurt my feelings?

Stop  stop
            Your feelings are blunted disconnected  which keeps you safe an sound Ya disassociate Diss-associate 
D-I-S-S see how clever I am  Ya don associate  It saves you sorrowI get it who wants to spend time missing others grieving 
         Feel depressed     
Times too short.

  Rather  there will never be enough time
                                            Im terribly aware of that even while Im in the moment Its the reflection off the sky in the crown of trees a field of flowers grass corn wheat  a million million things if one looks


Ill take your metaphysical  Thank you

1416,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1546,  Sunday,  15  5. 22
Esbjorn Svensson Trio  Leucocyte  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9kNecyymJo


He who laughs last laughs the loudest.

shook his head
                 I don follow that sayin . .
. . It’s an idiom, idiot.

kinda surprised him thennot  Moby had been missing ripe opportunities the whole afternoon over the hike around the laketoo busy trying to make eye contact with women walking around it in the opposite direction Woudya stop They think were gay which upset Moby however tickled him and over coffee and over beer
                                                                                           Idiot  Really  he faked injury
Must be if you don’t understand it.

Antha explains absolutely nothing
                                     Moby couldnt stand things in absolutist terms which is why he said it he was a provocateur Moby made it easy though constantlyconsistently teeing up balls

It mea . .
. . Im listening
               he wanted to exasperate him a wee bit tuneup his confusion which tickedup his ire he wasnt patientwanted everything yesterday but unfortunately because he could afford most things he wanted nothing forced him to be patient

I figured you were.

   I am
             I apologise for interruptingplease

It means the one who has the final, decisive move or victory in no matter, a fight, game, they are the one who is truly successful.

Okay So they can laugh at the loser their competitor

Yes.

To spite them

I think the idea is that during, let’s say a game, the person or team who lost may have been gleeful, laughing, earlier during the game.

   Seems cruel
                   I prefer it aint over till the fat lady sings an the while purposefully keeping fat women at bay outside the room or arena

I like he who laughs last laughs the loudest.

   Interesting
                Yadig interesting is ambivalent
I do.

Good  Ya also understand today most things you alluded to spoke of were tangential to the meat of our conversation  ya didnt keep on topic even ifya proposed it Whawid that

I . .
. . Excuse me for interrupting I wanna to beat you to the punch Yawerent clever  You were really stretchingreaching

an eyeroll  But you think you’re clever.

Exponentially
                By orders of imaginatude

That’s not a word.

Is nowjust coined it by magnitude of imagination  Definition of the noun 
                                                                             But excuse me yawere sayin


I forgot what I was going to say; if you hadn’t interrupted me and let me say . .
. . Wed both know now 
                          Clever   Hint

Maybe . . I don’t know.
                          If you didn’t interrupt me.

 

   tangential  who does that when it consumes the conversation diverts it   he wondered if Moby had undiagnosed ADD attention deficient disorder  if his daughters heard him theyd correct him ADHD, Dad, it’s called attention deficient hyperactive disorder, Dad.  Epizeuxis hed say straighten their fannies out  repetition in which a word is repeated immediately for emphasis  DAD 
                                           Christ he hoped that wasnt an acronym for a disorder


FUCK  it was  DAD effect  “when someone struggles with depression, followed by substance abuse (addiction), then denial (DAD).” 
        he laughed    last 

1410,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1328,  Sunday,  15  5. 22

14.5.22


long long time agoFebruary 18  
                                 he had vied back and forth with Moby about deviancy and pruriencytheir Venn overlap
Quit your yakking awready show me draw the damn diagram you believe is appropriate Illofcourse follow suit

Why do I have to draw first?

Ya cringedya cringed at the getgo when I called myself a deviant
                                                                    Im dyed in the woolunlike you  ya step back as soon as lines are laid I recognised I departed as a boy from the status quothe usual accepted standards social or sexual behavior ameliorated by religious or conservative cows eunuchs dey wanna conduct themselvesfuck like missionaries dey can knock themselves out but stay the hell out of my affairsaway from my rights to pursue happiness an pleasure

Moby fingered the pen


Waitin on inspiration
I’m thinking.

Yare thinking wha my Venns gonna look like arentya

he wouldve preferred anger flushed his face  embarrassment

Take your time your everlovin sweet time

Don’t rush me.

Aint


Moby finally drew it the circles for each were commiseratethey overlapped bumpedup against the others centerdiameter

Quite a gashquite the cunt I wouldnt want to fuck it like takin my dick out in a warm room

You asked I did.

Thank you
           he took the pen out of his handdidnt bother turning the clipboard to face him drew one circle Voila  I cant distinguish between deviant or prurient Lustful erotic shameful Go Eunuchs Go morbid interest in sexual contact Morbid fuck sexually explicit nuditydonbe catchin ganders of yourself fuckin in mirrors sadomasochistic abuse between consenting adults in the privacy of their bedroom lewd exhibition of genitals I wanna see wha Im eatin fuckinLIGHTS ON BABY 
       Curiously though pornographypornographic is not cited

Gotta admit the execution of your circles are nicer than mine
 
1223,  Friday,  18  2. 22
1513,  Saturday, 14  5. 22
Long, long time ago . .   Don McLean  American Pie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7yHTpGog0IY
Beatles  Do It In the Road  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4E6KtQg_z0  
Everybody's Got Something To Hide Except Me And My Monkey  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyV3zCq1OHM


Hardwood forest 
                   On the heels of deviancy an pruriency hardwood forest takes on a whole other meaningyah Don play Mommies little thumbsucker wid me Moby ya tout yer honesty
                                                                 Don make me callya out callya a liar Im eager Ill pinya in a heartbeat Antha tally woudbe all your makin


he waited

thumbsucker fidgeted


Whell

Wellwhat?

Time to saddleup confess  spew your guts light votives cross yer Ts dot yer Is recite dozen of prayers My Father Who Art in Heaven Virgin Mary Immaculate Mother of Jesus
                                                           Not shabbyeh for a recovering Catholic broomhandle indoctrination Kinda like the corporal punishmentsindoctrinations in Chicagoland grade schools Those were the days man Who doesnt like a little pain with their education not that it was a choice 
                                                                                   Follow
What do you want from me?

Ridiculous Admission 
                        Acknowledge the hardwood forests a clever play if I may say
I’m confused.
Yare not confused Pitiful perhaps 
                                    HARDwood Ifya make me labour thafact yare never getting laid again in your life Perpetually tuggin your cock man 
                                    I cant imagine noshin Viagra or that twin tubs crap so it enables ya to play with yourself
  
939preferred to 2139,  Saturday,  14  5. 22
1225,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22


Jesus  thawas absurd
                        woke himnot really woke say awash on a hypnopompic tide  he woke himself upjust enough to check the ridiculousness Awman  how he thought   how he dreamed

somewhat awakeable to walk without falling on his face he went down the hall to the head an took a leak 
                                                                                                                washed his hands  
        returned to bed
leftie leapt up behind him Hey sweet girl gonna put me back to sleep

he looked at the alarm clock hands talking to the deaf told him 6:02FUCK
                                                                           he went to bed round 3went to bed as witching hour began bitches couldnt badger those who were awake majority of their kick was jabbing either end of their brooms into sleeping pusses as they cackled

as he laid backleftie tightup to his crotchpurring he may have caught distant cackles waking poor slobs but nothing stereoquadraphonic 
                      when they did come on him there were always two or moremade him smile safety in numbers   it applied to tagteaming hags


while flirting with consciousness he mused he was making a club sandwich on untoasted whitewheat bread he unwrapped slices of orange American cheeseforwent planed Velveeta cheesewhich he preferred  slices of olive loaf lettuce no Mayo 
                 he built it for high school lunch the Eagle Scoutheroic boy inside him smiled they advised him if a girl was stricken by her periodwas caught without a pad or tampon he could offer her a slice of two of his bread and save the day 
          whitewheat is mighty absorbent

Saturday,  14  5. 22
1051,  Saturday


looking through the drivers sideview mirror from the passenger seat he caught the reflection of a man passing behind him
Super Fat
           curiously  Curtis Mayfields Super Fly broke out in his head “. . . the man of the hour . . . the only game you know is do or die” 

he was heading for Sees Candies
                                  Christ he hoped his situation was glandular

If my parents wanted me to have will power they would have named me Willem.

  Maybe
                  if he had to guess hed say Sheldon

Why would you guess Sheldon asked one of his interior magpies

You saw him  Whawoud you guess

I . . I don often inhabit or pay much attention to whaya see

Yasee wha I see

I do
     Coudnt miss him . .
. . Not ifya tried nah  coudnt 
                              Comon  hazard a guess

  Really   Sheldon

I think  I think he rivals an Agatha you

We woudnt date an Agatha

We woudnt
                Whayagot

If its okay Id second Sheldon

Please Confirmation concurring  thadbe nice

I second Sheldon

Fine 
      he looked roundwithin  Ya other mugs concur

they noddedtheir eyes were closed

Yadid see

they nodded  then in chorus they said they saw more than they wanted

Yahwhell lets hope its a glandular condition 
                                             Everyone cross their fingers

one at the back muttered Ill say a prayer

Fine
     he didnt mind he was a recovering Catholic  hiccups remained

he watched Sheldon enter Sees

 

Sheldon exited Sees

tomorrow was Mothers Day

he carried a huge whiteplastic Sees bag

through the drivers side window he could see boxes hard edges crease distend the sides of the bag

several boxes 

many pounds

Sheldon swayedsidestepped a blind man coming up the sidewalk towards him who tapped a folding redanwhite cane before him
the mans head came up slightly
                                could have been he heard Sheldons jointshis wheeze or perhaps smelled the chocolates

he said to his crew Yawanna know wha that blind man has on us

their shook their heads no

their eyes were still closed

He didnt have to see Sheldon Super Fat 
                                         offagain in his head went Super Fly 
his crew busted moves

it was eminently danceable

if ones spine or feet didnt move  they were dead

1652,  Saturday,  7  5. 22
2344,  ReggaeFriday the 13th,  May 2022