6.12.21

 

there are different ways of looking at things 

trying to remember that is hard
                                trying not accept them at first blush


Have you bought your gun yet

My gun? Why would I buy a gun?

To keep up with the Joneses
                               Our neighbours yoursmine swingright  they own weapons have stockpiled munitions keep dogs  Theyre fearful

No.  No, I’m not buying gun, are you?

No
   Im barbaric  I have handaxes knivesYou have knives

I do.

Got a kbar

Military knife?

Yes

No. I have pocket knives.

he did on a lousy Aussie accent Thats not a knife he acted as if he drew a knife . . Thats a knife

he batted his eyes clearly the hints missed their mark  

Crocodile Dundee

Ohyeah.

Ohyah Moving forward
                         I think the reason why guns are moving like hotcakes recordbreaking sales is because the left is buying up guns for selfprotection to keep up with the Joneses  against their better judgment

Self-protection.  Self-protection.
                                  I think you’re wrong.  I think it’s self-preservation.

he hadnt considered that
                           Well thank you very much Thats clarifying  I hadnt conceived of that                

Really. Typically that’d be in your wheelhouse.

Ill take that as a compliment                        

1420,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21
1212,  Monday,  6  12. 21

5.12.21

 

          Jacklyn can I call you a cab  Or canIgive  ya  a lift home hoped that wasnt too obvious

     You.  Can give me.   A lift home.                       

Okay very sweet
not a brainer
they were adults
elation  mortification   might follow
                                      bets on elation mortification wasnt inherentnot in his jeans

from here on out aint nothing but he said she said handsdown hed bet they were Vegas
                                                                                              whahappened between them would stay between them

I like your style babe

You ain’t seen nothing yet.

Im counting on that



You drive a stationwagon?

Damn straight Cutlass Cruiser The first car I ever bought was also a stationwagon

I didn’t see that coming; why?

Room Bench seating   An room
                                   he unlocked the door and opened it for her she leaned in from the hipshands down on the seat her skirt raisedup giving him a slick eyeful  the back of her thighs behind her knees calves tapering to Achilles tendons

Wow, this is roomy, no telling what trouble a girl could get into here.   

Nope no tellin

she backedup stoodup turned and faced him
                                                frankly You like the view?
I did it was nice to see another side of you

You’re funny.

Ya tickle me too
                  Let me help you in
 
That might be my line.

Might be weve been steppin on one anothers lines all evening
                                                                 he admired the loosebun the gathering of darkbrown hair at the back of her head  tremulous auburnhighlights
                                                        Who did you come with tonight
James.
          He’s definitely a Jamesyou know the kind?

Coudntsay

You came with someone too, didn’t you?

Woudntve made it through the door if I hadnt
                                               Candy obliged me afterwards I strolled
Candy?

Kandace if push came to shove though shes Candy throughanthrough

And you strolled?

Yes weve known each other for years
                                        Were not possessive  exceptional friends   Shes opened a lot of doors for me.

And look, now you’ve opened a door for me.

she slipped into the seat
                          All in  I am shutting the door
I’m all in.

Swell
      he closed it firmly then walked around behind the car she leaned across the seat and unlocked his door

opening it Thank you Jacklyn

You’re welcome; I’m not lazy.
                               her simple gesture meant a lot to himkicked the can down the road it had been his experience if a woman didnt things likely wouldnt progress well

Jacklyn gave him her address an approximate landmark he reeled off streets cross street  Yes. Yes. Yes. My, you’re wellversed about town.
                         he was backing the car up into the deserted street  they began down the quiet latenight avenue ivoryhoneycoloured moonlight bathed them washed in through the windows
                                                                                Yes construction moveddelivered furniture Ofcourse we go awry I also got maps in the glovebox

Joe, you sound like you could take me anywhere I wanna go.
                                                                       it was her deliverythe husk in her voice he queued on it this might be a radical departure

her hand walked on its fingertips across the bench to his thigh and caressed it I’m feeling like I wanna go crazy . .you can help me with that . yes? . . wont you?
                                    before he could reply her hand retreated she leaned forward gently and unbuttoned her blouse she shed it no bra as he knew from inside the party when she held his arm tightly
                                                                                                   she lifted her rump hikedup her skirt slipped off her panties sitting again she turned her back to the passenger door and spread her legs akimbo
        her fingertips played waltzed pirouetted up her muscled thigh to her trimmed pussy she stroked herself I want you to play with yourself too.

When I hit a red light babe at a red Im at it Wearing buttonfly need both hands

she leaned her head against the glass she was enticing selfpossessed beautiful unexpected
                                                                                                 her eyes were hoodedshe was getting lost in herself a hand between her legs he caught shivers in her thighs her belly her other hand was at her breasts kneadingplaying with them teasing her nipples gasps trembled in her throat like soft rain running in eave gutters slowly snaking slowly momentum rising gliding
                                                          she glistened
gawddamn lights he wasnt catching a red
                                             she cooed Play with yourself, Joe, play with me
Im not catching a red
                       I’m not waiting, Joe. she was fingering herself the car smelled wonderful atasudden she tucked a knee rolled forward over it towards him hands at his fly yanking it the buttons were adamant she yanked hardershook his hips one button relented others followed course his cock rose from between the folds she grasped it he grabbed the loose bun at the back of her head guiding her mouth to him she didnt resist she lapped him nibbled took him deep in her mouth while her other hand busied between her legs

another greenlight 
                    her head came up Pull the fucking car over, Joe.

he did  braked  stopped  killed ityanked the parking brake on he flipped her over the back of the bench into the backseat
          he kicked off his shoes before going over lost his pants he landed on top of her her fingers were working madly he turned her head to his heels bodily lifted her slipped under her wantonly pulled her wet pussy to his mouth whiplashed her with his tongue she clenched himgreedily went at his cock he stuck his thumb in her ass so she couldnt get away from him they bucked he wondered if shed break his nose before he gagged her



birds were chirping day was dawning when he climbed over seat back into the front they held each other tightly after their fits and orgasms she fell asleep he listened to her deep rhythmic breathing
                                                                                      now hed take her home
he twisted the rearview mirror down so he could look at her

he didnt make one green light       
2239, ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21
2115,  Sunday,  5  12. 21
Amon Duul II  She Came Through the Chimney  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LyJuAnv9TvM

4.12.21

 

 Ohso clever
                    he was trying to piece together how his senses were assaulted he remembered an advertisementNo not in printhad to be elsewhere then looking harder at the scribblings on his clipboard he saw that he committed time an date to paper 1813hrs Sunday 28 November  he spent Sunday evenings watching the only complete pro football game hed see that week

it had to have been on television
                                 an advertisement for Google 6 cellphone touting its Magic Eraser the ability to take a picture then erase people things from the image  falsify reality
                                                                   it was bad enough years ago he was asked to leave a newspaper office and never return after arguing with its editor that if the paper published unreal computermanipulated images that they ought to be labeled photographic illustrations not credited photographs

but what the hell
                  theres Fake NewsFOX anything the Former didnt agree with  hed know he was a Fake  the ongoing utterance of their time now as post-truth
                                    HORSESHIT something is either true or false truth is not Schrodinger's Cat alive and dead at the same time

put a scoop of Magic Eraser on top a scoop of Deep Fake on top of a scoop of disinformation on top a scoop of misinformation on top a scoop of propaganda  the cones going to topple

1813,  Sunday,  28  11. 21
1214,  ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21

3.12.21

 

Man some people catch wind he doesnt watch television an theyre on him essentially to defend why they do
                                                                                                                What do you mean it’s dishonest? I know reality shows are produced, aren’t real, I don’t watch many, it’s like, like, you read a fiction book, a good book, it’s not real, but that doesn’t lessen your enjoyment of it.

I agree

You agree?

he cast his eyes about the room at all the beautiful people he came with someone he promptly lost
                                                                                                       There an echo in here

But you agree.

I agree television is dishonest

they were running out of steam
                                whenever people run out they become abrupt they dont intend to be shortcome up short just aint got the gas
                     Ohyeah, howso? almost poetic  

he spared themdidnt dress down their interrogation skills didnt tell them theyd never work a black site now that that was an American thing  America Bushwhacked his how was really quite simple
                                                                            but sparing them didnt mean he spared them his language his empathy ran only so deep his wasnt as deep as Saharas sand
                                                                                      Youve fucked  funny how fuck was always something of a haymaker in polite companythat was their assumption  a poor assumption

he waited  anwaiting he wondered if patience was empathetic or just pathetic  Christ 

some went deaf
went bugeyed
went DeNiro “You talkin to me . . you talkin’ to me . are you talkin’ to me?”
others squirmed
                 maybe they hadnt been fucked in a while and didnt want to rat out their partner

by this time echo would have went off and not-really-hung themselves autoeroticism It was a great moment, I just wanted to maintain it only another moment longer.
                                                      Youve fucked right Some time

I . . I . I don’t see how that has anything to do with . television . . . with . television being dishonest.

How can you not Are you full of shit have to remember he didnt solicit this moment
                                                                                            he was having a whiskey with Jacklyn mentally undressing her she kept leaning in earnestly on their conversation he kept looking down her blouse an still was unable to assess if she was braless or not anif she was were her tits artificial or was she fortunatelyformed endowed he was determined its little games he played that by nights end hed find out even if push came to shove anhe had to be blatant and ask
                            although he rather not  he was a sentient sensual being

it was hard not to sigh so he sighed Aaaah
                                                         Youve fucked which meant echo was found hung girlie mags spread out across the Berber carpet before him it was a him thing gobs of cum spattering glossypages an an  one impossiblylong thinned yet intact gob stretching almost to the floor from his still erect cock

Yes.
When you got up in the morninggot out of bed you were nakedI fuck naked you were naked right

Yes.

On television few and veryvery far between does either partner get up an out of bed naked
                                                                                                Horseshit its dishonest anif theyre lying about that then ya can bet yer sweet ass theyre lying otherwise

I don lie I aint watchinlistenin to lies

enthusiastically Jacklyn cried I’m with you. an hugged his arm tightly
                                                                           No bra 
2233,  ReggaeFriday,  26  11. 21
1444,  ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21

$808K -- killed

speaking at the White House 27 February 2020 Former said  “It’s going to disappear. One day, it’s like a miracle, it will disappear (like magic?).”

Trump virus

Delta variant

Omicron variant

807,926 Americans killed  We dey top o’ da heap!

1555,  ReggaeFriday, 3  12. 21

jawdropping
              supposedly an intelligent woman  Justice Amy Coney Barret believes that a woman could carry a fetus – they didnt want – to term and then put the child up for adoption 
                                                                       because shes adopted two children
Isnt she special

reporters havent asked her why shes only adopted two or asked how many children have been adopted by her extended family and friends and associates

Such a line of crap
                    Have your rapists baby your fathers baby your brothers baby your uncles baby then after the babys leeched and distorted your body aint like dropping deuce give it awayyaknow  like to Goodwill
                                                                                                  Somebodys gonna stop by and pick it up OH, I need one of these!

2215,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21
1314,  ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21

 

he tried relentlessly to get Mack out ahead of himself  despite Mack
                                                                       not onenot a sheep to follow the leader hop barbed wire fences strung by advertisers he recognised he might be Macks best shot                                        

he had a penchant to stir things up


given his product Mack putting lipstick on a pig it occurred to him hed have to deploy slight of hand seek interest or advantage subliminally
                        while Mack was dull he was most women werent
                                                                         hed sell Ohmy, what big eyes you have, Granny. All the better to see you with. Granny, what big teeth you have. All the better to eat you with. which he desperately invoked time an again trying to convince Mack that was reality  an necessary – to get a head romantically    
hed try to lure women
                       anif they rose to the bait bit   well that was on themhe wouldnt have pity


Mack used words like adiabatic usually incorrectly he preferred IQ to EQ preferred explaining himselfhis logic by sketching graphs Bell curves eliciting whathebelieved was the unimpeachable Dunning-Kruger effect
one might see the Sisyphean challenge he struggled with

how now how to stir the pot


                                  tshirts   have Mack tout a style  a fashion
                                                                               that way without a word hed be out ahead of himselfhe didnt have to open his mouth all he had to do as he instructed him was take credit doff his cap  be what he wore  then minimally relate his perception

first T was Down Canyon Spill
                                      get down in the canyon lap up the spill
second was  Heavy Air

             Going Down
                            selfexplanatory
   

Mack dug the tshirts
                      It’s cool you pay attention when I speak.         

Ohman woudya stop you don speak ya lecture gotta lose that Converse Listen Run with the wolves You fancy yourself speaking Spanish La Loba
                                       Nope  Mack had no idea he swung an missedhe doubted Mack knew he had feminine side  squat yin yang

 

he put on Down Canyon Spill and checked his look in the mirror
                                                                    I look good. 
A fine figure of a man
                        Now listen up best foot forward go with the flow 

I always go with the flow.

You do not That said In ya go
                               meant innuendo  maybe itd stick   who knew
before 1530,  Saturday,  27  11. 21
1027,  ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21
Àbáse (feat. Jesuton)  Ela  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6ihAI4TEkM

2.12.21

 

he looked up the brickwall alleyway towards the nearer street
                                                                  he expected her to come from there not up behind him

the alleyway hadnt changed since he left the cityout of state  bangedup trash cans sullen abused trash containers bits of paper refuse dribbling on the current that swept in an through crumbling or peeling advertisements on the walls he couldnt fathom why things were advertised in the alley  some were obliterated by highreaching graffiti
                                                                                                             traffic it saw was garbage an delivery trucks occasional cars sneaking shortcuts little foot traffic hed been there fifteentwenty minutes  no one passed

she wanted to meet him there

it just up the block was the movie theatre
                                           they had their first date there a twin bill he didnt remember the movies he gave her the ticket stubs he remembered her sitting beside her sharing popcorn her eyes brightened by the light off the screen 

when the movie let out he walked her home
                                              they walked past this alleyway on an impulse he pulled her into itaway from the citys eyes an kissed her their first kiss he leaned against the chilled bricks holding her
                                                                                                      she kissed him

at her front door coachman lanterns shining they made her curfew they kissed again passionately going in she turned smiledasked if hed call againYES  she said that the alley was the oddest place shed ever been kissed
                                                                                                           he laughedwinked he told her he intended to kiss her in odder places if she was willing
                                                                         she gaspedlaughed  he walked home five miles hearing her in a loopseeing her bemused glee


Summers end he was drafted


the horror of Nam changed him its futility  stupidity
                                                        too many never returned home  anif they did they were changed some didnt recognise themselves in a mirror an sometimes in a mirror more than a reflection was returned
 

 

they hadnt seen each other in thirtyodd years

he happened in the city
                         ran into a mutual friend they remembered he hadnt encouraged him what an item everyone thought he and she were  that when he came back not if he came back odds-on they were a good bet to marry
Mare still lives here.

I didnt know

You ought to look her up.

he said that that was unlikely

Are you staying long? We could have a drink this eveningtomorrow.

Im free tomorrow evening

Where you staying?

Loughrans joint just down from the bus stop

You couldn’t do better than that?

Memories man
                You remember Loughrans

Hey, between us.

It is

Good good, after dinner, say Eight, Ill pick you up.

Sounds like a plan

 

that evening the telephone rang in his room

it was the Desk
                 they asked if he wanted to take a call Loughrans maintained a switchboardhad always been a thoughtful establishment  protected their clients privacy
                                                Who
A woman, she said you’d know.

Fucking guy he thought he outgrew being a busybody
                                                    Yes I know  Please put her through Thank you
You’re welcome.

Hello

Hello, Joe.






Hello, Joe.
           she stood framed between the brick walls on pitted asphalt behind her the storefronts cars casually passing he didnt have an angle on the sky it was blue maybe it had fallen overcast he wasnt paying attentionwas dabbing memories

Hello Mare

she walked towards him 

she wore a brimmed hat a camelcoloured kneelength coat

her steps were smart
                     she looked like she wasnt therelike a reflection in a mirror approaching him it broke she disintegrated in shards next step she reintegrated  next disintegrated in finesparkling dust reintegrated
between many disintegrationsreintegrations he watched her saw the teenager he kissed
                                                                                              then a woman he didnt know

wouldnt know

     still
               something inside him was contented
0836,  Sunday,  28  11. 21
1222,  Thursday,  2  12. 21 or 12-02-2021

 It is

very nice,

isn’t it?

he was almost stricken
                       he watched the letters appearprinted one by one on a queer fog mask on the glass over the painting  it captured his attention  like warm breath exhaled on a cold pane  their daughters had painted it for their mother

the handwriting was unmistakably hers   

when she finished he whispered  Yes  very nice they did a good job

it was a watercolour
                      at the lower left they painted their lips their favourite colour and kissed the paper beside the kisses they wrote I love you very much, Mom an printed their pet names Angel Shorty

she had him hang it over her dresser so she could see it first thing every morning after rising

                                                                                                  he didnt recognise his voice


he heard the girls run up the hall to use the bathroom 

before they could close the door he yelled after them
                                                     Finish quick girls then get dressed were going out for breakfast
he needed fresh air

he dressed quickly brushed his hair

he heard them come back down the hall
                                         Quick girls nothing fancy Jeans an a top

he stepped to the threshold of their bedroom and through the open door watched them dressleaving their drawers open  they saw him We’re hurrying, Dad, this is really nice, such a nice surprise. they would take the girls for surprise breakfasts

he hadnt since she died

they rushed into the hallway and crashed into his thighs   Good morning, Dad!   he hugged them against his legshis hands widespread at their backs   Good morning my loves   This is so wonderful.   Unexpected is the best kind   Like Mom would say.   Yes like Mom would say

they began down the flight of steps to the landing
                                                   Angel noticed first It snowing, Dad. looking out the window at the landing he didnt see snow Shorty followed It is, it’s snowing inside.

it wasnt snow

Isnt that something Lets keep walking girls Careful on the steps
                                                                   It’s snowing inside, Daddy!   Careful on the steps girls


a soft talcum of ash
0333,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21
prefer 112 or 1312,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21