Where’s my fone? he turned violently leftright cast his eye Where the fuck’s my fone?

uhoh all hell was going to break loose this man without his fone was like baby without his binky 

                                                                                                    Ya leave it in the car

I didn’t thin . . 

               his voice trailedhe was suddenlyup walking to his car in the parking lot

uhoh forgot his keys on the table he wasnt going to get in the middle of this 

threequarters way to his car he recognised he didnt have his keys

                                                                     he pivoted like a welltrained marching soldier his step quick

JesusChrist, I forgot my keys, why didn’t you say something?

One thing at a time

                     Haste makes waste dig 

he didnt hear himhed already pivoted sharply again good thing he was too old to serve

he picked up Anti-Intellectualism in American Life Hofstadter off the café table refusing to witness the seething and upset that he could feel from where he sat he always had a book around to help him exercise his patience letem take all the time he needs

 

YOU DON’T HAVE IT?YOU’RE NOT FUCKIN WITH ME ARE YOU?

he looked up calmly

                      Why would I do that  Juvenile tempted to slide into senilespikes high

You don’t like fones.

However I know where mine is

At home at home at home I know; lot of good it’s doing you there.

That was a stupid comment

I gotta goif you had your fone you could have called me; you want a lift home.

No thanks Go sooner you find your fone your sanity will return

I can’t believe this.

Go Drive safe

               Youll find it

apparently on the ride home someone calledhe heard it ring  it was in the trunk beside his gymbag that he took out of the car because it was a ripe from repeated basketball outings and he hadnt laundered his gear

                                                                                                   he had to park in the sun it was a hot day

he didnt turn around return to the coffee shop

he called his cellphone to let him know he found it

                                                     left a voicemail

he heard the message the next day

1904,  Monday,  15  11. 21

1218.  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  11. 21

 

My God you’re a critical motherfucker.

Ya don think thats oddI think its odd

Apparently.

               But a dealbreaker?

Very possibly

                 But before Id break it Id ask if it was the norm

You’re serious, that could be a deal breaker?

I didnt hear a fan running inside

                                  Thatd be a legit excuse . .  or reason Whas the difference  Lemme think

You don’t know?

Yaknow

I’d . . I’d have to think abou . .

. . Oh excuse me all to hell

                               Reason he groped   not to justify but explain take accountabili . .

. . You’re certainly all about accountability.

I am

     An excuse is reasons opposite  exists to justify to blame or defend a fault  the intent to absolve oneself of accountability

                Id ask point blank what the reason was that the bathroom door was closed

                                                                                                 As a matter of fact thinking about it now  all her doors were shut

She might be a private person.

Or shes hiding something

                          None of your interior doors are closed

he paused probably running the floorplan of his house under his unblinking eyes  You’re right, all my doors are open.

Mine too

Hmmm.
        That could possibly be a dealbreaker. I’d expect any door you went through you’d have to close it immediately behind you.

Id suspect as much

She goodlooking?

That has nothing to do with it Looks arent everything

Man, you’re a queer duck.

Not so  just observant

                          An Im keen of things that run contrary to me

1807,  Monday,  15  11. 21

1116,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  11. 21

 

There were the little thingsthe hints

                                    Ohfuck you . . you’ve had enough to drinkya think setting your shotglass down on the counter and going to fill it from an empty coffee carafe isn’t a LITTLE FUCKIN hint

Ah but I caught myself

Caught yourself! ya caught yourself? I was horrified

                                                        from within I watched your machinationsthe whirling gearsgnashing teeth You were thinking whisky yet you set your glass under a coffee carafe

I was I  was   distracted

Distracted. Really? You went into the kitchen to pour yourself another whisky and you grabbed the coffee carafe  Go ahead tell me how distracted  what were you thinking to swing so wide and miss?

Comon We were watching the Christie interview it had just ended I was thinking of the horseshit hes trying to pedal to the MSNBC audience hes a sane Republican cut of Cheneys cloth Christie who coddled the former . pedaling a book . I was thinking hes a disgraced politicianhe lied about closing the lanes to George Washington Bridge in ‘16 in retribution of a perceived slight . for him to sell a book is tantamount to hawking snake oil  I don forget little things

                                                                                                           Canya forgive me

I can. Should be grateful that only we witnessed it; but you’re going to have to forgive me when I tease you about it.

Yes ofcourse  It was a little ridiculous

Little?  The little things, right? 

1647,  Twosday,  16  11. 21

1031,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  11. 21

https://www.nytimes.com/2016/09/20/nyregion/bridgegate-trial.html

 

Mack was always fingering his fonethumbing itfondling it like a rabbits foot a dismembered good luck charm

What is that irritated him to no end Dont leave home without it

                                                                     Like an American Express card huhMack

Mack was distracted up to something

                                          What? looks up doe-eyes I didn’t catch that, what? 

No yadidnt

I’m busy.

We met to have coffee a kibitz

                                Cant keep your nose out of it  Turn the damn thing off

No

   I like being accessible; that you don’t is your business.

It didnt make a sound No one reached out to you

No, but something occurred to me, I want to be accurate; around you if I’m wrong you hang me out to dry.

Ya afraid of making a mistake

When I do you you’re all over me.

I knock you in good fun Theres always the possibility I also don know an Im the first to say

                                                                                                  If its worthwhile well learn it from home doesnt have to be in the moment

Why should we wait? I have the information at my fingertips.

We werent discussing anything when your Siren beckoned

No no, but if I know for a fact we don’t have to go back and forth.

Id make you state your source

You would, you don’t trust anyone, take them at their word.

Your source

I like using Wikipedia.

Why

Why wouldn’t you?

I wouldnt I prefer learned sources Thats the point of the internet Im not a fan of crowdsourcing

                                                                                                      Wikipedia is that It is comprised of citationscorrect

Yes, I suppose you might construe it as crowdsourcing, but what’s not to like about that? Ask one hundred people, they can probably provide you the answer you seek, certainly more informed than asking a few.

Gotta disagree Seems today people dont want to determine things for themselvesnot expedient A slippery slope

I now ask when someone asks me something Do you intend to ask others If they say yes I say Well ask them please

I aint saying

Why wouldn’t you say?

I don participate in opinion polls

                                  Its a dilution I don dilute things I ingest I prefer them straight If I want an opinion I ask someone I trust  It goes no furthur

Well, to each his own.

I agree

        Can you put away the fone talk to me like people did before the asinine things were created We were better off before them

             Anif you think Im being nostalgic its the second reflective not the first restorative

Damn, knew I was gonna ask?

Yup

Reflective is?

Allows us to accept and enjoy our memories for exactly what they were

And restorative, inspires us to go back, try to change, recreate our past.

Yup

     OH one last thing regarding Wikipedia I understand it posts citation needed  lackscitation lactation had to get that off my chest

after 1438,  Thursday,  11  11. 21

1105,  Twosday,  16  11. 21

nostalgia  https://romancesphere.fas.harvard.edu/news/future-nostalgia

he learned a new wordhe was tickled when he did

                                                         hereditarians  read it immediatelyknew what it was

what they would understand was implacable  impossible to alter

Jeremy Bentham wasnt a fan of all things from his mouth but he was applicable in the face of hereditarians kinda like space aliens 

       “The plea of impossibility offers itself in every step, in justification of injustice in all its forms.”

hereditarians

              read of their species in Harriet Washingtons A Terrible Thing to Waste: Environmental Racism and Its Assault on the American Mind

“They claim that intelligence is innate and immutable and insist that nothing – not better health, not education, not reducing poverty, and presumably not removing the assortments of poisons assailing the bodies and brains of children – can be done to raise the IQs of ethnic groups.”

                                                 hed bet hard money majority hereditarians were whitecoloured  affluent and likely werent raised next door or in a neighbourhood with a factory or chemical plant

they would insist an individuals tabula rasa was scribbled onFIXED that new experiences could not transfigure their chalkboards erase errors  inform them anew

Ignorance

           forms without the blue oxygen of curiosity

“Nearly all (hereditarians) specifically argue that investing in solutions to the IQ gap is a waste of money and resources, ignoring the successes like complete lead abatement . . or pre-K enrichment programs . .”

                                                                                              he would assume he preferred not assuming that they served kneeledbefore kowtowed certain political agendas  not many politicians are leaders  anif they were they mightNO they would prefer to lead constituents who would not pause and question them

IQ  defined as Intelligence quotient

he defined it as I question

hereditarians  a new word describing old tacticians

1438,  Thursday,  11  11. 21

1400,  Monday,  15  11. 21

 

. . . the perfectability of human beings.

Whahavya been smoking

You do not believe in the project?

The project everything sought to define itself as a project now of perfection No  How do you think that can be achieved

Without secrets from one another, without the orient of knowledge infiltrating, dictatin . .

. . Lemme guess

Guess?

Soitenly he felt very Three Stoogeish yes soitenly  Then we can realise our full potential

Yes, exactly.

              If we were fully transparen . .

. . NO Ya kiddin me

If we interacted with each other hones . .

. . Honestly

            Wed hurt each others feelings I hurt others feelingsdon pull punches for that I am avoided

                                                                                                            Which it is kinda perfect for me  but I don imagine thats the perfectability yare referring to

No, no, I’m not; begin with secrets as I mentioned . . secrets are lies. that was breathtaking  The orient of knowledge steps between us, separates us.

As it should

No, if we were more transparent . .

. . Thats a mindfuck

                     he sighed did he sigh Not everyone is as capable nothing can change thatwe can ofcourse strive to improve our societal circumstances help make a more level playing field however transparency implies an invasion of privacy we could not be anonymous in your perception I believe anonymity is a right I cannot invoke it if I accuse someonethey have a right to know who I am  but otherwise no

So you would throw your hands up and call the project impossible?

Perfection is impossible

                         Human perfection please  We struggle with right an wrong truth an lies fact an fiction

1929,  Day-between-TwoTs,  10  11. 21

1134,  Monday,  15  11. 21

he was grateful when he went into his mouth and pulled things out that didnt belong there

how they got there was beyond him

he didnt recognise them

some were hard

some were soft

              and hardened on paper to his left that he scribbled on to remember things he thought were worth remembering worth recording to fashion into something that he had no idea they would become like a thump of wet clay to turn on a wheel molten glass blown  like a boy facing a beating or running off

                                                                                            maybe he hadnt sense to run

he looked inside himself like he looked at what came out his mouth and not recognising it it made no sense to run off he also saw that that unnerved others he didnt make sense to them

it was then that he realised he was perverse

                                              his sympathetic nervous system fight or flight didnt hold sway with him

seemed there was fight and fight 

what might come out on the other side could be gruesome if someone cared

he didnt

he didnt press or pursue issues

however when laid at his feetwhen provoked

he stood

he wasnt going nowhere 

make a bed

sleep in it

                       this was one of those things that began on paper left of his hand

0007,  Monday,  15  11. 21

1037,  Monday,  15  11. 21

  

he missed Gore Vidal and was grateful to have been alive and reading while Vidal was

he found him scintillating accurate  and prescient

                                                      take for example this beaut from Myra Breckinridge pg40 1963  2nd printing Little Brown and Company edition

“Time and time again (writes Myra) have I heard the students speak wistfully of fighting and torturing the Vietcong, or rather of other young men fighting and torturing the Vietcong on their behalf. Not only are the male students drawn to violence (at second hand), they are also quite totalitarian-minded, even for Americans, and I am convinced that any attractive television personality who wanted to become our dictator would have their full support.”

such a succinct description of craven aholes currently grazingwandering the country

2016,  Sunday,  14  11. 21

The BeeGees  Lonely Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wa2_CL-2ZI4

she invoked Godliness  Omm

Awshucks

Godliness  Omm  where were her finger cymbals singing bowl  her wood striker

Jesus

she smiled beatifically at him

Don smile ya misunderstand Jesus I said Jeezus  Save that gorgeous smile of yours for someone desperate

she pouted beautifully

                      she was working ithad probably seducedmindfucked more than a handful of men women who thought they could ply herindulge her  possibly come away with tantric couplings that played in their minds  formed by youtube videos

Jeezus

Come, you shouldn’t be that way, let me help guide you.

To gawdliness I don think so

                               I have allergic reactions to holy guacamole so on so forth

she set him in her big beautiful brown eyes and whispered Let go.

                                                                     If you could let go, let love flow through yousweep you up . . you might find the happiness of His embrace.

   Pretty handcuffs 

                        Im afraid love flows out the end of my cock Eve  aint the love yare speaking of  Eve  How inspired Let me leave you to the lambs who are ripe for slaughter

That is terrible; why should you talk of such violence.

                                                        Listen . . do not be deafened by your tongue.

Aww can you cite passage and verse

                                         I belief you mean Listen  do not let thy tongue make thee deaf  Thys and thees got plenty of legs in the Bible perhaps the Koran possibly whatever text you might choose to enunciate

                                                                                                            From where Im from that proverb belongs to the Cree

a queer tremble worked the corners of her eyes

                                                not quite a flinch  maybe her assuredness being shed

Lets say buhbye  you can go forth an try to encourage silent obedience consent You are a sweetlooking piece of ass if I were a pike I might rise hungrily to your allure however Im an old piker capable of backpedaling when I smell a trap

2147, Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  10. 21

1602,  Sunday,  14  11. 21

                                                                   inveterate inveterape

he was an inveterate fan of his eyes fooling him 

the book is called Pity the Beast 

his eyes tattled Pith the Beast 

Liz Cheney

Lynchening 

dimensionality

dementiaality 

CRT (critical race theory – he disliked acronyms – acrimoniousnimrods – thanks eyeballs)

CReTins  droll  white CReTins

                                  CRTs reductive definition – bogus – racial discrimination is nothing more than an explicit invocation of skin colour  a ripe Orwellian rewrite of HistoryHerstory

                                                   bogart the joint It’s mine, all mine! I don’t have to share with Them. hawks phlegm and spits

blowhards

          white Right in Britain and the US politically silencing CRT  the French espouse decolonial  ignore that decolonialisation decolonisation is a term a politics a field of study prior to CRT 

                                                                                 theyll connivedo anythingsay anything to disregard a deepdive into history to examine the truth  the South fought the Civil War to keep their slaves

                                                                                                               unfortunately Confederate military and political leaders traitors werent executed  the risk the Founding Fathers faced if they lost their war

he couldnt wait for the next visual obfuscation

earlier Day-between-Two-Ts,  10 11. 21

1121, Sunday,  14  11. 21

https://bostonreview.net/race-politics/david-theo-goldberg-war-critical-race-theory

Fraternity (Eternity) of Man  Don’t Bogart that Joint  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J-ifjIAoleI 

 

Mack said I really like Rovellis discussion on dimensionality . .

. . Dementia-ality he was cool to being lectured

Dementia-ality. Hmm, I like that.

Me too Wonder how its spelled if its hyphenated hypen (spelling the letters) ality or perhaps (spelling the letters) dementiality  then slipped off his tongue special specialty speciality British then (spelling the letters) dementialty dementiality he stopped Mack was staring at him apparently he may have an inside track  he had manic leaps and bounds

it also occurred to him while he was positing dimensionality dementiaality   dimenschionality mensch person of integrity and honour surprisingly its opposite is unmensch an utterly cruel or evil person he expected an entirely different wordhadnt expect mensch to be uned

What’s up, man?

he heard his voice

                  Mack actually disintegrated like a sugarcube in hot tea before his eyes  he reintegrated

Interior dialogue

                  A rude little habit I have but its too entertaining to avoid I placate it by listeningIve always placated it created lotsa crap for me in school turned off teachers slingshot off a parcel an insight they may or may not have muttered

Teachers muttered

                   So diligently I tried to obfuscateheel my inclinations by demanding I pleaseplease be allowed to sit front and center They couldnt possibly miss me going offfollowing paths that occurred to me

                                                                                                 Im sure you witnessedhave witnessed me do it  audibly ramble to you incoherent because I don leave breadcrumbs when I go

You were saying Dimensionality

Yes. I was speaking.

                      You interrupted.

You muttered

Excuse me?

Nothing

Do you understand dimensionality?

I do We can skip it and proceed Maybe youll say something I don know

his eyebrowMacks right eyebrow when peeved it arched  it actually pulled his facemade it lopsided

                                                                                                          You understand dimensionality? 

Yes

Let me hear it.

You understand it I understand it like discussing that a coin has two sides heads and tails common knowledge Please  Lets move on

Macks face grew more lopsided looked like it hurt

                                                    Awright Dimensionality Measure of spatial extent extent magnitude scope width height length perceived dimensions Dimension actual three-dimensional measurements a line one dimension a square two dimensions a cube three-dimensions

                                                                   Can we move on Have I made your point for you

the lopsidedness fell away

Plancks time the shortest time measurement possible is ten to the negative fortyfour power

                                                                                               Can we move on please 

1709,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  11. 21

1144,  Saturday,  13  11. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6rWqJhDv7M

 

I’ve never heard of him, what did he write? He nonfiction, fiction, I don’t read much fiction.

Why wouldnt you read fiction

It’s not real, I prefer to learn something when I read.

Ya don think fiction scifi fantasy mysteries are based in realityagainst backdrops based in legitimate interactions  hard facts

Hard facts. No.

he tried to restrain himselfhe wasnt any good at that Yare an ass

Why would you say tha . .

. . Lifes as real as it getsthat someone is improvising does not minimise or negate emotions that are drawn from the same well                                                                                                                              Yaknow Emotions  Right   Your well isnt deep

And what’s with that remark?

Nothing Tellinya like it is

Then you don . .

. . Knowya inside and out ya fail to understand how obvious you are Besides  emotion is not your strong suit Hence your doting concern over IQ why you minimise EQ

I wouldn’t say that.

No you wouldnt That why I do

                                But not to belabour our conversation He wrote a book had it bound on the right side so when read one began from the back front It disturbed a lot of people  A backwardsbound book 

                                                                                                      he thought it a riot laughed at American culture whose vanity is second to none The Japanese Middle East read their text in that manner  That an hes lefthanded  Writing was problematic reading was backwards The righthand world was a pain in the ass He just wanted to share his discomfort with the more than ninety percent of readers 

 

1956, Thursday – Veterans Day,  11  11. 21

1547,  ReggaeFriday,  12  11. 21

Christina Vantzou & JAB  Pungent Lake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Wp_pUTlx5o