in walked his straight man

had not expected to see him

Waste notwant not he was going to have a little fun Wha the hellya doin here Not your usual stomping grounds

a shot an beer joint

                     want wine all youd get was whine  Sorry, you’ll have to go elsewhere.

a tavern

          elbow to elbow along the long bar  a shelf off a brick wall stools beneath it  another shelf running beneath barredcasement windows looking out onto the street stools  five stout wellworked round tables four armed chairs per  the head was off the loading dock at the rearhad to go out of doors

You've mentioned it several times and while I knew where it was I hadn’t been in; you described it as colorful. I happened to be in the neighbourhood.

Welcome  Take a table Ill buy ya a drink

                                          he didnt wait to hear what he was drinkinghe had an inkling but since he was buying and didnt care for what he usually drank hed let him twist

Frank was behind the bar

he owned the place

Frank was frank

Hey Frank  two IPAs on tap two doubles of Jacks

he settled up 

               Thanks Frank

Yabetcha, polack.

he set the drinks down  There you go  held up his shotglass A toast  Welcome to the dark side

he eyeballed his shot You know I don’t drink brown liquor.

Aint toasting with beer Take a sip Ill finish it 

A sip.

Yes an insipid sip it wont kill ya

                                    To the dark side 

The dark side.

                he sipped set the shot on the table and pushed it over to him

I thank you

You know I don’t drink whisky.

Holding a seminar

                    Ill enjoy it nahsweat  an don make me say seminar again  could get us kicked outa here

he looked around furtively  Right.

Rights right

              Anyare in this neck of the woods because . . .

Google maps. It made an error. It told me left, probably meant right.

Well Im happy you can take orders from a machine I wasnt expecting to see you again for a while  anthen to run into you here

          he held his hands out and turned a circle  So whadaya think  Like wha I said

he looked around casually now

                                 Just like you described. 

Yahyes  an enjoys a certain   howyasay  Ah   a certain jeune se qua

                                                                             Helps me be at easespeak my mind  have a little fun

When don’t you do both? You're outspoken.

Yes yes  people ought to know where yare coming from  Don care for shrinking violets

Crazy, you also profess to be an introvert.

Well when Im in Im in  anwhen I have to suffer out Im out  Franks is one of the few places Ill suffer  By the bye speaking of suffering your suffering   Anus  or rectum I prefer anus

Why do you do that? You’re at it again.

Whas that

What you always do.

If I always do it you neednt say Yare at it again Shouldnt you I mean ya would expect I would

                                                                                                       Always 

So again

          Anus or rectum  ya know my preference

droll Yeah . . I do.

                     But I don’t know why.

You will after you say

holding his beer to his lips he looked sharply at him

he sipped his Jack  he liked to make him uncomfortable  he rarely asked him questions rather he implied

                                                                                                                 when he would finally say theyd get into it why doesnt he ask a deliberate questionwhy the implication  an hed tell him  again an implication is lenient  it gently nudges a door open as opposed to kicking it in like a cop rumbustious  jacked up on their righteous authority telling others what to do an their overt dislike of being questioned

I don’t know, I don’t think of stuff like this . . I’ll say, rectum; anus sounds faggy.

                                                                                     there was his dig  or so he thought so

A great title for a pensee  Two syllables

You prefer anus because it could be a pensee?

I didnt say that

                 I ruminated itd be a great title  he sipped his beer his Jack

What’s your point?

                       You said after I said you’d say.

Anus is poetic

                Rectum  Harsh  I hear wreckdem  wreckdem   like thats happening to the Charlottesvilles neo-nazi organisers

           Wreckdem

How you go from here to there . . .

A gift

      I can guarantee it wouldnt have happened if you hadnt walked in

                                                                            Of all the gin joints in all the towns in all the world  you walk into mine

 

2301,  Monday,  25  10. 21

1607,  Twosday,  26  10. 21

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/neo-nazi-organizers-of-charlottesville-being-financially-wrecked-by-lawsuit-124611653715?cid=eml_mra_20211026&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgUBjmL86_k 

 

things are not what they seem

theres film

            maybe haste dyslexia he grabbed it thinking Yes the little wooden boy  Pinocchio  it was Cioppino

a delightfullycoloured abstract absurdist yarn about a lively band of Dungeness crab clams shrimp scallops squid mussels an fish who in their glass tanks defied groping hands and scooping nets then turnedtables  served diners the chefs who prior had served them

squid read La Brigade de Cuisine

                                    their cioppino choppino were parts Chef de Cuisine Sous Chef Chef de Partie Saucier Boucher Poissonnier several Rotisseur Friturier Grillardin Garde Manger Pattisier Chef de Tournant Entremetier Potager Legumier an small bits kitchen porter

                                       he failed to say it was grisly

Cioppino was not Pinocchio

Snatch was not either

                        anperhaps neither was the beautiful young girl or boy who kissed him passionately  he would have to wait several years before returning to Chicago to invite them for a swim in Lake Michigan

guessing 0714,  Monday,  25  10. 21

1641 or 441,  Monday,  25  10. 21

https://www.highspeedtraining.co.uk/hub/kitchen-hierarchy-brigade-de-cuisine/

 

that old song

              Yare nobody till somebody loves you

somehowsubliminally it worked its way in an had become the standard he hummedhe sang those words didnt know the others as he feeds his indoor and outdoor ferals

                                                  he didnt known he was until an overnight sipping her coffee as he fed them exclaimed how cute he was humming singing to his cats

You didn’t sing to me.  she said poutingexaggerating the humour in her voice

he laughed Wha ya didnt hear me whawere you doin up there

                                                                       Ill have to try harder next time 

Oh you she grabbed him by the hairthe back of the head You’re bad. she gave him a deep coffeeish kiss

when they broke their kiss he said I think Ill take my coffee with tongue from here on out Nice treat

laughing they kissed again

                             he slipped the mug from her hand set it down and carried her back to the bedroom

maybe shed hear him this time

1040,  Saturday,  23  10. 21

1147,  Monday,  25  10. 21

Dean Martin  You’re Nobody ‘Til Somebody Loves You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LJwZcfREQiU

 

he loved the impossibility of his dreams

                                         their narratives personalities settings   never possible  but for the while he dreams they are everybit flesh blood as thiswhatever it is  that binds our conscious relationships an interactions where we wander  how we go

his utter mindfulness and long memory are enabled by them

they make a fine fettle

                       his dreaming  consciousness  unconsciousness it wrangling hypnagogic and hypnopompic states they vie for his attention they stamp their parcelsmail them in plain brown wrappers which bear no postmarks

no evidence of reality

                       yet they are  an are an is is

he doesnt distinguish between them

each has something to impart 

 

when he dreams of people he knewhe knows which is infrequent they at different ages twothree sometimes four can exist in the same moment they interact without batting an eye if these facets know they are the same personrecognise their similarities they havent said or revealed it to him

                                                          they get along well as they should he gets along well with them

it is wondrous joyous

sometimes other actors are confused

                                      however he can manipulate his dreams he plucks the confusion out like fruit off a branch

it is exquisite

 

he wakes quietly grateful for his extraordinary experiences

                                                            grateful his dreams reinforce his binds and his binds reinforce his dreams

he relishes his phantasmagoria

approximately 0716,  Monday,  25  10. 21

1431,  Monday,  25  10. 21

Pink Floyd  Echoes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBca3xf-j3o & Several Species of Small Furry Animals Gathered Together in a Cave and Grooving with a Pict  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpWJv7alqQE

 

he ran into her coming out of the bathroom

she opened the door lefthe was immediately at her rightsmall hallway an inyourface moment

                                                                                                JESUS they chorused she went soprano firstsurprising him startled he carried the bass 

the hostel preferred its doors remained shut had to rap on bathroom doors if it obviously wasnt in use

he took a step backnot too far she smelled like fresh bakery goods showered hair wrapped in a towel except for curly blonde tendrils that escaped it

                        My apologiesexcuse me  narrow halls

her big eyes gone bigger relaxed 

                                   No, my apology, it's that you were just . . RIGHT THERE.                                

I was  wasnt thinkingwasnt paying mind auto-pilot  distracted

Yes.

Yes a confused query

Yes. Heard you arrived yesterday morning to surprise your girlfriend.

                                                                                 She surprised you.

Ah succinct   Accurate

his words amused her 

                       Are you okay?

Okay he winked at her  Im okay 

                                   I expect honestyhad she been honest I wouldnt have come 

I suppose one might say, it is what it is.

I dislike that line  immensely Should have said Im a big boy Ive always said Yaneed an itch scratched Im not the one you want scratching it tell me

Tell you? That’s a big ask . .

. . No  Its honest

                   Three weeks ago this was a pipe dreamwe talked about it I pulled some stringsIve never been to Italy Queer how things can flip in three weeks he laughed drolly 

                                                                               Surprise

I’m sorry, it’s all around; news travels fast.

Not necessary but thank you

She said you haven’t seen each other for threefour months.

Four The semester  She said she had an opportunity to travel before beginning of next

How long had you been dating?

Seven months We were thrilledI was thrilled she got her grant

                                                                        Thrilled

Huh.

Huh  Wha

Four months.

Since seeing each other yes

 

You ah, horny? I am.

                     he would never forget the lascivious look in her green eyesher expression  a fox glaring at a rabbit she pinned

Nina made his Italy trip crazyworthwhile

                                             more times than he could count

0834,  Sunday,  24  10. 21

1533,  Sunday,  24  10. 21

Curtis Fuller – Red Garland  Stormy Weather https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcRfhuNdGAQ

   kibitz  kibitzer 

                   Jesus  sounds like disease a skin rash  anif it wasnt either he definitely didnt want it anywhere near his face

they met for coffee while the former was president

they called their meeting a putschdidnt get too nutsdidnt call it Kapp Putsch  which went kaput

                                                                                               didnt doff a cap to Nazi Germanys formation the overthrow of the fledgling Weimar Republic  rather they meant to describe their disgust angst with those Americans who voted for a clown to represent America in the world  their disgust with the clown himself

if ever a presidency and its associated clan needed to be overthrown they were living through it 

he was measured calling him former

                                       during the yokels big tent he called him cunt

his buddy swooned

                     Jesus, man, would you quit with that, someone might hear you.

Let em  they got a bone to pick with me let em  Theres nothing else to call him  A cunt is a cunt is a cunt  just wish cunt didnt relate to the opposite sex  that said Ive meet very few women who I would call a cunt  more men than women an this clown is pedigree cunt

the cunt was voted out of office

                                  couldnt call their coffees putsches any longer  they had a placeholder  klatch   a coffee klatchreminded him of kolaches  apricot cherry cheese blueberry  long time since he had one they only took coffee   

klatch was tame compared to withstanding five years of vehemence and vexation

Man we gotta do something I hate calling this a klatch 

What do you propose?

Im conversing havent a proposition to mention  You

Nothing.

Nothing as in nothing or yare fine with klatch

I think it’s fine.

But ya don like to think so most anything an everything is fine with youYa don like to work too hard by your own admission

You’re gonna beat me . .

. . Forever A Louisville Slugger  I hadnt heard anything quite as dismal in a longlong time

I was frustrated.

Anwho were you frustrated with

                                  Be honest  Ya sat with it in your lap for years  It was on you friend

Damn, you’re unforgiving.

I got nothing to forgive Im relentless

                                      But ya ought know that bout me or should  Any gaff or misstep Im on it  Comes with being confrontational  May be step one first premise

Whatever.

I expected thatcuz why

                          Cuz ya don like to work too hard 

JesusChrist

Looks like Im going it alonehuh

I’m fine with it.

 

not a week later he proposed kibitz

That’s Jewish, isn’t it?

Yiddish Colloquial German kiebitzen a lapwing peewit interfering onlooker Thought yad like it because yare a boider

I didnt know that.

Now you do Were agreed

                              Well call it kibitz

Good with me.

Then kibitz  until something strikes you to offer

I’m good.

 

cat was always good 

Saturday morning,  23  10. 21

1259,  Sunday,  24  10. 21

The Walker Brothers  Make It Easy on Yourself  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZTS9H-l5qQ 

 

he stubbed his toes on shit day-in an day-out

                                                his daughters laughed at himwhy were they laughing they were fullblown women with families of their own  hed have thought this would have occurred to them but it just occurred to him they laughed when he told them Every day I learn how little I know

todays trip on an invisible crack in the pavement regarded garum a fermented fish-base condiment ubiquitous thats a dandy word in Roman Empire thats a lot of places  

quickly garum led to umami  English words   he knew one language  apparently he was lousy at it

he dropped them on his mother-in-law 

                                       who was Japanese  who once owned a deli 

in her broken English she said she knewquickly asserting that umami was Japanese  she learned of it in Japan as a girl before learning English

stubbed his toes

                 he may have broken them 

garum fish sauce  stinky he really liked it but only knew it as fish sauce someone could have enlightened him

                                                                                                                             he wouldnt suffer a foolhed correct them if they wanted to remain a fool then that was up to them

umami meant savoriness

                             one of five basic tastes 

basic tastes

             he had to stop to think that through  DUH he never bothered to list them just enjoyed them without a thought

        kinda like when in an orgy you didnt learn the participants namesthe links of the daisychain  you were savoring themHMM   they were umami 

basic tastes

he had to think

sweet

sour

salty

bitter

umami  savoriness

when he delved into umami kinda like the punk kid who moves into the neighbourhood anyer trying to decide whether to pick on em or defend em

                  since he was the eldest of seven hed defend em but he liked thinking he had a choice delving in he discovered it had six subtexts

tongue-coating sensation

balanced taste

salivation

          the salvation of salivation

mouth fulness

long-lasting complexity

all this might have mattered when he was younger

his taste buds were blasted now

                                  they functioned like the lousy rabbiteared antenna on top his grandmothers blackanwhite television set   No.   No.  Oopsalmost.   There.  No. Almost.  ThereNo. ThereDon’t move. Don't move, hold it right there. Don’t move.

                                 Grandma I wont be able to watch the program

That's alright, it’s Lawrence Welk, music, just listen.

that Halloween he went out trickantreating dressed in school clothes holding rabbitears in his hands his candy bag hanging from his wrist   What are you supposed to be?

Im an idiot

his taste buds were blasted now

canned dogfood was delicious

                               lipsmacking good   just wear reallydark sunglass

Hell

      Umami sounds like wet dogfood

1009,  Saturday,  23  10. 21

1544,  Saturday,  23  10. 21

 

he didnt have any idea who the hell he was talking to

                                                        dreams are marvelous they say less and mean more if youre willing to dig in

hed been digging since he woke this morning an archeologic dig  he hadnt unearthed anything although he remained optimistichow could he not  he was rooting in his substrate he was confident hed find something something would find him

     the only downside finding something is that it might not be what cajoled him to swing a pick and dig with a spade

he was a dirtysweaty hot mess

emptyhanded

he   felt  he was talking to a male character

                                              the presence felt masculinehe could be wrong

he based his assumption on the edge and tone in his voice

men irritated him more than women didhe could be patience with them

although it wasnt inexhaustible

what they said peeved him

he replied

           If I wasnt here an I wasnt there   wharseywaseyden

wharseywaseyden meant he was out of sorts

                                               a short fuse 

which he normally wasnt

it meant he was provoked

he understood that much

which wasnt much

                   certainly excruciatingly little to go on

    still

           he was waistdeep in a hole of fertile jetblack loam that smelled of promise and happy hints

 

maybe wharseywaseyden would reveal itself tomorrow

                                                         his masculine sidekick was worthless

0904,  Saturday,  23  10. 21

1430,  Saturday,  23  10. 21

Red Garland  ‘Tain’t Nobody’s Busy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TyOcSXisZbo

 

he was a little latefour minutes but his datehe laughed he could see the sneer twist his face Don’t call me that.   Relax man  ya say ya got no issues with homosexuality but when I allude or suggest it your feathers get ruffled

his date DON’T CALL ME THAT.

                                 he should call him his klatcher his putschster  fuck no matter   hed call him Late

he rolled up fifteen minutes later

                                   I’m sorry, I didn’t mean for you to wait for me.

I don wait I can occupyentertain myself I always have a book or pen and paper theres always something roaming around in my head always a gurgling inside it worthwhile to listen to

I tried to call you.

That was stupid

Not stupid.

No that was stupid  When do you know me to have a phone when Im out an around

You should have your phone

Have my phone for your convenience

                                           That makes sense

Dammit, man, why you got to be that way?

Way Be that way

                    Ya shouldnt be surprised    Id say if I was a broad ya wouldnt have been late

A broad?

Broads attract you

                     Women intimidate ya asis I gotta correct ya when you call em girls

Like you kno . .

. . I do   I do  I pay attention to what you sayI listen to ya Better than ya listen to yourself 

                                                                                                          Ya want a little play thing not a relationship

It’s baggage I don’t want.

Man hit twenty ya got baggage

1404,  Thursday,  21  10. 21

1646,  ReggaeFriday,  22  10. 21

Red Garland Trio  Hey Now  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwHL_1XW4XM

 

You’re a godsend.

Im not

No no, you are . . if it hadn’t been for you I don’t know what I would have done.

You would have figured it out

I don’t think so.

                    I really don’t think so.

Ya ought to give yourself some credi . .

. . You ought to acknowledge that if it hadn’t been for you I’d have been screwed.

I didnt do anything you wouldnt have done for me

If we swapped places you’d have been screwed; I wouldn’t have been any help.  You’re a godsend.

he didnt like itdidnt like it one bit

godsend sent from God

                         he didnt believe in Gawdin anyones God

calling him such

                Please Id rather you drop the code and call me a sucker Yare a sucker

Id be better with that

when things unsettled himdidnt feel right  raised his angst

                                                              his angst raised his ire  then he had to be very careful for he became righteous righteouslyindignant  threw gas on the fire

it was exhausting

he was a researcher

                     hed bone up on both sides of the story pro and con  argued them on paper  willowed themdistilled them honed them like a boning knife

fashioned bullet points

                       hollowpoints they entered small exited HUGE

then he presented his argument  

he hoped his adversary had preparedthat the give and take would be redeeming  informative

it rarely happened

people afterall  arent interested in debate

                                            they become classic Shintos not that they knew Mizaru sees no evil  Kikazaru hears no evil  Iwazaru speaks no evil there is no such thing as evil  three wise monkeys striking classic poses

they didnt have the time they cut their losses somehow what they caused was water under the bridge

                                                                                                           Nothing personal.

Its personal

I got nothing.

Then you should have kept nothing to yourself

apparently theres no accountability when someone decides it was nothing

2044,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20  10. 21

1202,  Thursday,  21  10. 21

202 House Republicans do not believe in their chambers constitutional rights and obligations 

Bannons a piece of shit  by association the 202 are too

nine Republicans understood their duty as a State representative they agreed with the January 6 Select Committee and all the Democrats

                     the vote was 228 – 202

they are:

Brian Fitzpatrick  PA

Peter Neuer  NJ

Adam Kinzinger  IL

Liz Cheney  WY

Anthony Gonzales  OH

Fred Upton  MI

John Katko  NV

Nancy Mace  SC

Jaime Herrera-Beutler  WA

it should have been unanimous 

January 6 was an insurrection

those who entered the Capitol are not patriots

it is time to learn who plottedwho enabled it  they ought to go to prison for attempting to overthrow Americas democracy

1733,  Thursday,  21  10. 21

0900,  ReggaeFriday,  22  10. 21

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/impetus-for-january-6-insurrection-still-motivating-gop-select-committee-is-key-bulwark-124330053621?cid=eml_mra_20211022&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951