2.9.21

 

Homicide  Its pronounced ˈhäməˌsīd I wish youd say it correctly

I am . .
. . Youre not
I’m saying it correctly for me, and what’s with correctly, I wish you’d say it correctly, why not I wish you’d say it right. he chuckled at his little political joke

Yare not funny

Not funnyI’m a freakin’ riot . . Right . get it . .
. . Way ahead of you Ya telegraph your lines Im up the track an yare still bent over in the starting blocks lookin mighty attractive to homosin your vernacular  in your short track shorts  he meant to offend him

fury rose in his face

Yup lookin mighty plumripe for the pickin

You might want to shut your face.

No don threaten meweve danced before Ill knock ya down before you can get your cyclechain belt off  aint none of your buddies in earshot
                     Cool down man remember who started the exchange  Ya know I don back down


the bruisedredness began trickling out of his face like ice melts off a windshield
                                                                                       I was joshing you.

Bout something ya know I have no patience for
                                                  Queer how we grew up together next door hung around with the same kids played on school teams anyet ya got this bug up your ass My Dads the racistthe uptight crewcut heterosexual  anya act like the son he wished he had 
I donget it

You don’t get that homosexuals are wrong, lesbians are wrongthere’s something wrong with them; all them others too. It’s homocide, homocide, and I’m not changing my pronunciation because it offends you.

Im not surprised Abject ignorance long ago stopped offending meIve become inured  Yare debasing yourself  Go ahead open your mouth  I don have to participate

2238,  Sunday,  29  8. 21
121 or 1321,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  9. 21

1.9.21

 
Sirhan Sirhan
                any history buffs in the room the Board evidently fucking idiots recommended his parole

his fate now lies in the Governors hands

the Governor might want to recall a particular Sirhan quote
                                                               They can gas me, but I am famous. “I achieved in one day what it took Kennedy all his life to do.”
destruction is easier than creation 

Sirhan Sirhan ought to die in prison for the coldblooded murder of Robert Kennedy

let his fame console him

2157,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  9. 21

 
gotta have a pensee for today
                                 a terribly disgraceful day in America

Abort

Vile inaction

Rape Incest We could care less

Friendship is Texas’ motto

A real bitch aint it

2123,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  9. 21

 
abortions that should have happened
                                        Texas Governor Lieutenant Governor Greg Abbott and Dan Patrick
Texas Attorney General Ken Paxton and all lesser known state Republican Senators and Representatives
bitter
      bet your sweet ass
Uuu uuu
        yesyes also those United States Supreme Court Justices who bear responsibility for not providing the requested injunction
2056,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  9. 21

TIME TO PACK THE SUPREME COURT

political old white Texas farts and bittyold broads wanna get in womens panties 
                                                                                     deny them their rights (he thought to write inherent but figured laws are meant to manipulate what is inherent) to their bodies
                                                                                      snatch away their right to abort an unwanted pregnancyunwanted because they cant afford to raise child their birth control failed or they were raped by a family member or another
                           Texas incests a threat
6 weeks
          just about the same time these old cocks need to remember to see their physicians again to refill their Viagra Cialis prescriptions
                      Nope  aint gettin them up no mo without chemical help 

Corporate if they were moral ought to straighten their asses out and not sell on-line or in Texas to them

turnabout is fair play

1416,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  9. 21

pennyroyal  savin  black draught  tansy tea  oil of cedar  ergot of rye  mallow  motherwort 
or
The Women’s Health Protection Act  https://www.congress.gov/117/bills/s1975/BILLS-117s1975is.pdf

 

Racism is white hatred of blacks and Others

its the FEAR of being lynched of being enslaved

FEAR of retribution
                    which by all rights  would be due and should have coming
not that it would

desperate desperate craven White people

who dont want to be held accountable for 400 years of their ancestors horrific actions
                                                                                         actions which SCREAM an Cry an holler louder than words


AMERICA is not a white cuntry 
                                     Once upon a time . . .  but thats a fairy tale
             a fairy tale

                            got their hand caught in the cookie jar

1708,  Twosday,  31  8. 21

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/summer-1946-saw-black-wwii-vets-fight-freedom-home-180978538/?utm_source=smithsoniandaily&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=20210830-daily-responsive&spMailingID=45541229&spUserID=MTIyMTUxODU5OTExNgS2&spJobID=2067368472&spReportId=MjA2NzM2ODQ3MgS2  

https://www.nytimes.com/2016/06/26/books/review/white-rage-by-carol-anderson.html

https://www.them.us/story/hate-crimes-against-black-asian-and-lgbtq-people-hit-record-highs-in-2020?utm_source=nl&utm_brand=pol&utm_campaign=aud-dev&utm_mailing=thematic_ballot_090121&utm_medium=email&bxid=5bea162d3f92a40469717478&cndid=48665723&hasha=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e&hashb=39d29869c836d0019ebc80213a743d0dbe1d7328&hashc=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951&sourcecode=thematic_ballot&utm_content=B&utm_term=Thematic_Ballot_Subscribers


31.8.21

 
           self anaesthetise
                                  he knew a bit about that knewterribly a bit about it
the knowing makes it tougher
                               but some pains are so deep only certain chemicals seepcan infiltrate those crevasses thinfissures  badlybroken chinks
he wished they were holes
                            holes were easier to plug


an old accurate saying  things come in threes
he wished
            his exceeded three
                                 they toppled himcame on like perfectly  spaced  shiny  black  whitedotted  dominoes  tipped 
       tripped fell breached a breath an infinitesimalwiggle its wont  over it goes fallingfailing to the next infinitesimalwiggle wont
                            sevenlucky seven  inside a year 
he was worked to the ropes to the corner
dazed
      couldnt keep his elbowscouldnt deflect the blows
breath was pounded out of him 
he gasped
            his head was an easy target 
to put him downanout  
put him away
                 It wasnt interested
It held him up 
It wanted every breath after he lost to cause him pain

It was an artist
                a mechanic     sadistic     

It certainly got Its rocks off beating him

then backing into Its corner It spit Its mouthpiece onto the canvaspounded Its gloves together chiding him  I can’t wait until tomorrow, can’t hardly wait.

2144,  Monday,  30  8. 21
1549,  Twosday,  31  8. 21
Brenda Lee  I’ll Be Seeing You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v6z6Hv9HAoM

a sitting target


Representative Madison Cawthorn (R-N.C.) 
                                              for a young man in a wheelchair hes got a mighty big mouth

he mused about busting January 6 “political hostages” out of judicial custody that hawk came out of his mouth when he responded to a question how he would “support those people who were ‘captured’ on January 6 . .”

none of the 600plus suspects were arrested on January 6
                                                             by comparison  a reported 480 people were arrested over the weekend in Minneapolis after George Floyd was murdered by a white police officer assisted by his tag team 


addressing white righties who apparently bruise easily 
                                                            Cry me a river

1523,  Twosday,  31  8. 21

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/madison-cawthorn-s-latest-election-rhetoric-described-insane-n1278120?cid=eml_mra_20210831&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

https://www.npr.org/2021/02/09/965472049/the-capitol-siege-the-arrested-and-their-stories

https://www.vanityfair.com/news/2021/08/madison-cawthorn-is-openly-talking-about-civil-war-at-this-point?utm_source=nl&utm_brand=pol&utm_campaign=aud-dev&utm_mailing=thematic_ballot_090121&utm_medium=email&bxid=5bea162d3f92a40469717478&cndid=48665723&hasha=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e&hashb=39d29869c836d0019ebc80213a743d0dbe1d7328&hashc=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951&sourcecode=thematic_ballot&utm_content=B&utm_term=Thematic_Ballot_Subscribers

https://www.thefocus.news/celebrity/madison-cawthorn-wheelchair/

https://minnesota.cbslocal.com/2020/06/01/george-floyd-more-than-350-arrested-over-the-weekend-amid-minnesotas-aggressive-response-to-protests-unrest/



   a pensee

                  he was fond of the artform 

Racist

Ashli Rabid

SURPRISE  Took one for the team

In the halls of the Capitol

Wont make that mistake twice

after 2142,  Saturday,  21  8. 21
1220,  Monday,  30  8. 21
a pensee

Title: Subject (2 syllables)
Line 1: Description (4 syllables)
Line 2: Action (7 syllables) 
Line 3: Setting (8 syllables)
Line 4: Final thought (6 syllables) 

 
   a sputtering cauldron of pensee

                                           a heaping second helping

CoVid

Eternal Life

Refusing vaccination

Ignorance in Mississippi

Heading into the Light

1240,  Monday,  30  8. 21

a pensee

Title: Subject (2 syllables)
Line 1: Description (4 syllables)
Line 2: Action (7 syllables)
Line 3: Setting (8 syllables)
Line 4: Final thought (6 syllables)

30.8.21

 

he dropped the ball

sixtysix years ago on August 28 Emmitt Till was murdered

he failed to tell his daughters about the torture murder sure theyd learn it in school 

then it occurred to him
                         he didnt
he learned it because he was a paper boy delivering the Chicago Tribune and Sun-Times for ten years throughout the Sixties to ‘73

he had a hard time discerning where he was better educated
                                                                  in a classroom or reading papers

he didnt learn of a pensee in school

he found it reading


Emmitt

Battered lynched boy

Murdered by muling racists

Touring Money Mississippi

Racism is white hatred

1327,  Monday,  30  8. 21

Title: Subject (2 syllables)
Line 1: Description (4 syllables)
Line 2: Action (7 syllables)
Line 3: Setting (8 syllables)
Line 4: Final thought (6 syllables)

 

every time he crossed the bridge he opted the west side

a creek ran beneath it

on the west side he could look down on the old bridge footings which was razed to erect the new one seminal concrete obviously sand cement quarried rock poured in the 1920s

some times on the smashed footings turtles sunned themselves
                                                                  they were stunning perfectly still   like sculptures
he admired them

when they were therewhen one was there he was transfixedtransported Age of Reptiles the Jurassic
hominids hadnt occurred to Eveolution
                                          as is Eveolution might be reevaluating her decision  thinking of wipin the slate clean  I can do better than this; what the fuck was I thinking.

wily religious devotees prostrate inert   unyielding the swallowedhooklineansinkers dispute Her
which tickles hermakes her snicker
                                     She liked nothing better than shooting crapsplaying ridiculous odds She loses more than wins She hasnt a stake in the game  though She truly adored her Cambrian Age loved its hiccups its surprises
the decimation of its remarkable phyla


every time he crossed the bridge it seemed more shabby clothing paper bags refuse fastfood wrappers another grocery cart was thrown into it the water was still stagnant no rain this year fingers crossed for next 

he apologised to the turtles for the human filthfilthy humans
                                                               Im sorry mates Thats not a creek its stew  a rancid greasy slumgullion



every time

1 PMish,  Sunday,  29  8. 21
1116,  Monday,  30  8. 21


Ohoh  oh  when Stephen Miller says thing said about himdescribing him  are execrable lies
                                                                                                   lies like hes “too busy actually trying to do positive things for my country” to file a defamation lawsuit against Jean Guerrero against her book called Hatemongers  she refers to him as a White nationalist 
                                                                 or when he indulges himself  “There is not a single, solitary quote anywhere . . . because (they) don’t exist . .” he ignores his actions – actions speak louder than words – Miller was the leading proponent in the Formers White House to separate migrant children and babies from their parents at the U.S. – Mexico border  leaked emails reveal him promoting anti-immigrant rhetoric and pro-White nationalist websites 
                      he called for the complete shutdown of legal and illegal immigration and recently has suggested the U.S. shouldnt welcome Afghan refugees fleeing the Taliban into America

Miller conveniently ignores that if his grandparents hadnt immigrated to the United States from Antopol in what is now Belarus to escape violent anti-Jewish pogroms  conscription in the Czars army
                                                                                  that if they hadnt
Stephen Miller might have been zilch  nada

rather he believes himself a know-it-all


hes an ugly man
                    within  without 
he gives excrement a run for its money

1404, Monday,  30  8. 21

https://www.politico.com/magazine/story/2018/08/13/stephen-miller-is-an-immigration-hypocrite-i-know-because-im-his-uncle-219351/

https://www.democracynow.org/2021/8/27/afghan_refugees_olivia_troye 

29.8.21

 
Hemingway The Sun Also Rises
                                    “It is awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night it is another thing.”

he met a string of people this was new to him who slept in installments for lack of a better word when they woke they used the bathroom got a sip of water laid back down if sleep wasnt quick to return they didnt wait for it they got up out of bed went into another room read  did crossword puzzles

onetwo hours latertired they returned to bed for a second installment  or not


it didnt often happen to himThank gawd

when his sleep was breached he relieved himselfthough more often it was for a sip of water allayed his dry mouthhe was a mouthbreather
                       You shouldn’t breathe through your mouth. heard it once heard it a hunred times

Break your nose four times then talk to me about ithuh
                                                         didnt take kindly to solicitationsPious  Pissants   Wittgenstein  Seventh proposition Body of Christ Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent.  they hadnt walked in his shoesPiss off he wasnt one to waste his breathe or time
                                                            he always kept a few drams in his bladder to moisten the toes of their fine handsome leathered shoes or bare toes
he hadnt invite them to get in his face
some people believe its their right
wherein actions have consequences
he wasHA consequential


when people admitted to installments he didnt ask what woke themwhat they thought
                                                                                            he listened
if they wanted to say
                       he listened

he couldnt alleviate their waking
                                    ball was in their court

unable to relate he did not say

No, really man, what do you think?

Please Im of no matter Its what you think

if they insisted
                Father Son Holy Ghost Hemingway Awfully easy to be hard-boiled in the daytime nights another thing Yare contending with something that casts a long shadowshadows
                                                                       Not likely a coin toss

he backpedaled 

none of his business

1823,  Saturday,  28  8. 21
2318,  Saturday,  28  8. 21
Lennon  Whatever Gets You Through the Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNNxeovdN5U


Black Panthers  Chicago  '69
                                      Revolution is the only solution  Revolution is the only solution

he thanked his lucky stars he wasnt born black
                                                   he wouldnt pray
         had he been
                         he would have been dead long ago

2002, Sunday,  29  8. 21

Judas and the Black Messiah

 
allott looked an awful lot like alloff like the command of a train conductor End of the line. Everyone all off! who in their right mind would refuse a staidstarched and pressed nononsense buttoneddown uniformed train conductor  they must not have seen Borgnines sadistic performance Emperor of the North bouncing Lee Marvin off the train an nobody bounces Lee Marvin
had to be a typo
                  or pure ignorance or they ignored WORDs reprimandits evitable underlined correction  or it was predictive text runamok just asking for it
                                               technology does that
its excused if it did

who fingered itYOU fingered it

its your fault isnt it  you didnt read whaya wrote before you sent it

technology has inbred plausible deniability

its artificial intelligence

youre notyoure the real McCoy real intelligence  arent you

buck stops with youought to stop with you
                                            NOOoo    The machine made me do it
whos whose bitch 


he looked aroundWheres his riding crop  he didnt ride but he liked its tautnessthe sharp smell of its worked pliable leatherWhere were his spurs he liked their keenclang as he struttedthey made him strutthe brightsparks off cleanconcrete like flint and steel

Walshit he was the bitch
when had that happenwhen did he go ass over teakettle
                                                                apparently he didnt mind
         allott
                       alloff         thats how his mind worked
it was all he could do to keep ahead of it
                                             obviously that wasnt working out for him

some time Sunday,  30  5. 10
2322,  Reggae Friday,  27  8. 21
McCartney and Wings  Let’em In  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXdIyS85emM

28.8.21

 

Walker Percy
               “The novelist or poet (painter  creator) in the future might be able to go (furthur), to discover how it is with man himself (if hes not a liar), who he is (if hes not a liar), and how it is between him and other men.” 
philosopher  semioticist better than semiotician

Percy please   Men
at a time when the male gender was considered the appropriate proper pronoun how gouache an ache in his balls

he didnt grasp the unremitting deference to men they get to have their cake and eat it too anit didnt matter if majority was women  THAT HAD to drive them apeshit 

old men were still little boys who had to have their noses wiped clothes cleaned food prepared for
                                                                                                        a whiny lot

thats why he didnt fit inhis mother wouldnt let him fit in

she best expressed it when he was a young teen and protested that he didnt want to do womens workSHE SLAPPED HIS FACE shocked himbrought him smackdab into the moment                                                                                                                                           If you think you’re leaving this house, my house, and being a bum some woman has to take care of, you’re out of your mind, you have another thing coming, buster. 
hurt his feelings she called him a bum


Walker Percy was a man of his timehis protagonists alienated upper-middle-class men  write what you know  he died in 1990

its now Percys Future

thirty years after his death man is no more familiar with himself than while Percy was alive
                                                                                                 in fact hes in retrograde  degenerating   degenerates  particularly those akin to Percy protagonists

when he tells family friends that he does not SEE men  its not hyperbolehe does not   women appeal to him  here in the Future if men could be more like women he may be able to SEE those marled vapours that could coalesce  condense begin to form the fog of menthough  he didnt have high hopes 
Time is running out
Step aside gents 
Let the women through
                                possibly the Future

some time Sunday,  30  5. 10
1124,  Saturday,  28  8. 21


he blamed Tolstoy

Hadji Murat
             the fleeting corruptible nature of national and religious identity

The Prisoner of the Caucasus
                               “The night were short. He saw light through a chink.”
mined alien words  aoul  saklya  beshmet he hadnt a cluethey could be whatever he wanted 
attempts to bridge the crevasse of otherness
                                                 Otherness  a tactic  a conscious prejudice divider

he blamed Dostoevsky

Notes from the Underground

The Brothers Karamazov

he blamed his daughters for making him read them again  they were books they had been assigned for their high school Advanced English  backing them up they had scintillating discussions of passages and chapters
                                                                                                      they wouldnt have been able to get through them if it hadnt been for himBOSH
                                                              an also if it hadnt been for him they said  they wouldnt have gotten through Shakespeare either he was a sucker for Shakespeare 


it seems people  we  have learned to distrust stories with messageswe disdain writers who bear ideas or ideologues which is what writers do
                            we do not like moralisers we do not want to be preached at we do not believe in answers or in endings
          our Faith is in ambiguity complexity irresolution doubt
                                                                       ambiguity   complexity   irresolution   doubt 

Life isnt that simple


Kikazaru

Mizaru

Iwazaru

monkeys

Hear No Evil

See No Evil

Speak No Evil
               he disagreed with evil  evil presumes religiosity  he didnt believe in religion  therefore nothing was evil though some things were bad or really really bad
                                              not evil

very likely written – ink looked the same – some time Sunnyday  13  6. 10
1300,  Thursday,  26  8. 21