he could see his rails werent greasedthat he was tryin to manage each itemunderstand it not going with the riff  he tied it up nicely but while he was ending he saw in his face that he was still fumbling with the firstsecond premisepropositions

Yare not following me areya

No. he was pained or relieved that he saw No I’m not.

                                                         But you’ll, I think you will, you’ll love this: I don’t listen as quickly as I used to.

Wha?! That yours 

                   If yah take credit for it

I can’t, it isn’t mine.

Its sensationalabsolutely sensational spot on for ya yare struggling tryin to keep up  Whens a pearl gonna drop out of your mouth

Hell with the pearl, you’re relentless, your thoughts fall over each other, stumble, I don’t know how you do it or how to keep up.

No filter babe ya get it as it occurs to me Got me something inside my skull fed by a volcano or whipped by a cyclone It just goes  Cant help myself 

                                 Cant help you either

A sensational bit though  Whose

GOF

Goofy

he reacted as if he slapped himNO! Not Goofy, G-O-F.

Im stuffin it in my memory banks as Goofyno disrespect intended A memory trick mnemonics sonicBabBOOMs  Etched inside my bony cranium 

                           I might possibly use it some day

I don’t know, you got a snaptrap, seems to hold endlessly shit. Wished my thinker worked in kind.

Thinkertinker ceaselessly tinkeringthinking

You said that.

Goofy didnt 

he cringed again 

Whos GOF

the Ive-gotta-crap expression on his face relaxed

                                                     My dad.

Got it Know wha the initials stand for As I said no ill intended 

GOF junior held his father in high esteem he was his role model

on the other hand he didnt have a role model

whawould he do with one

hang on his every word

discover he was no better than him

thatd be a bitter pill to swallow

particularly if they took you around the wrong bend where you wouldnt have gone had been up to you

fact of the matter

it was up to you 

a role model is a waste of time

not a scintilla better than you   

1540,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  5. 21

1131,  Twosday,  1  6. 21

Chicago  I’m a Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvmeEyVd5w8

 

I thought you were going to make a note?

I did

Did?

     That was an elaborate conversation; when you said you needed to make a note and picked up your clipboard I thought you’d be at it five, ten minutes.

Nah All done  

How?

Had earlier notesyoull recall I punctuatedtied up parcelsbound them together  Gleaming my notes later Im fortunate Ill be able to refresh my memoryjump back in with both feet little sweat exertion or hubbub Ive captured the jist Later revisitingrevising itll roll onto me like a pleasant beach surf

But how so quickly?

Astricks or asterisks

Asterisks?

Actually no risk not for me

What are you talking about, I’m confused, you constantly confuse me.

An humour youya like my confusion 

                                       Not asterisks astricks  a-s-t-r-i-c-k-s   See

silently she mouthed the lettersspelling to herself 

                                                      I don’t see; that’s not how it's spelled.

How I spell it Youll remember me tellin ya I don misspell  if a words wrong Ive done it for a reason

You don’t misspell?

Was a proofreader worked two years for a paper Ya cant spell yaint keeping that job Therefore astricksmy little tricks

I bound earlier pieces with astricks

Let me see that, please. 

                       she spun the clipboard aggressively on the table so she could drop her eye on the script  it was scriptshe couldnt read his handwriting

Yasee  eyes go to astricks as easy as eyes go to nipples   Cant miss em

she put her hand to her blouse  it opened as she leaned forwardspinning the clipboard  

she halfsmiled mischieviously  

                               The way you think, man.

No thinkin  automatic 

1539,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  5. 21

0929,  Twosday,  1  6. 21

Pardon me he set his beer down  I hear you correctly

Did you hear me correctly? 

                            That’s a ridiculous question, you usually hear everything correctly, clearly, then you’re spooky, unrelenting, you reiterate, restate, reshape it; often makes me wonder why you didn’t go into Law.

Don like suits

             why would your marriage counselorcouples counselor say Yare not getting any younger  Thats a load of horseshit

It isn’t, it’s true, I’m not, you’re not getting any younger either; you’re one who says we’re dying after we’re born.

Yes on more than one occasion 

                                  However not getting any younger is a manipulationparticularly particularly out of the mouth of a psychologist  a blatant manipulation

No, she’s not the only person who has said it to me; my family, friends, they’ve all said likewise.

Why he took a sip of his beer  Have you given it any thought why

Why? Why?

             Because it’s true, I’m not getting any younger.

Anwha does that mean to youdon reiterate it again please Whadoes that mean to you

she hadnt picked up her beer since setting it down when he went after her words  I should let go of what’s happened, what’s behind me, move forward.

Lifes happened behind you itll happen ahead of you They mean more than life don they

What do you mean?

Awcome on baby donbe coy Wha do they mean

I suppo . .

. . Don suppose wha they meanya know wha they mean

You’re being curt.

I am Since Ive known you youve needed smellingsalts cold water dumped over your head to rouse you Answer the question 

          Wha do they mean 

Yare not going to say

What do they mean to you?

Please donthey don mean a damn thing to me 

Don’t be cruel. she fingered her sweating glass of beer

Im not Im cynicalparticularly regarding people who know they have your attentioncan influence youbelieve all they have to do is give you permission an youll follow their advise Because you have in the past

Doggedly 

Yadon need anyones permission let alone telling you your mind

They meananswering your question  Pursue another relationship yare divorced

Because they need a relationship you need one too Thats not necessarily true If a relationship presentsby all means but to hustle one upyou hustled one up it ended in divorce

Their advise is horseshit they cant make themselves happy You make yourself happy first an then hopefully youll meet someone whos happy an youll share happiness

still fingering her beer  That’s sounds sensible; but in the meantime I’m alone.

Where did ya get that

Alone?

Alone

I am alone.

Yare by yourself 

                  A different question  Are you lonely 

I am lonely.

So you believe being with someone will  solve   your loneliness It isnt a problem

You’re an exception.

I shouldnt be

                Your couples counselor irritates me teeing you up for return business If couples arent in distress she aint making money                                                                                          

midafternoon,  SunnyDay,  30  5. 21

1152,  Monday,  31  5. 21

Emancipator  Vines  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lncgd7kLiM 

 

Whoa, man, you’re the one who argues for people’s fidelity, for them to remain authentic, be exactly who they are.

Correct

I don’t think I can let you get away with that remark, it smacks of . . of disrespect.

Disrespect 

            How

Brusk, insensitive.

Insensitive in wha manner

Manner? You’ve disallowed them, their identity. You’re not being inclusive.

Inclusive I am 

                I don have to utter every letter of the alphabet to respect all the letters Yes I cut to the chase but I don believe Im neglecting or demeaning anyone because Ive not specifically enunciated every Tom Dick Harry Sally Sue Betty  Veronica  Jugheadever know a Veronica 

No, not Veronica. 

                    Perhaps because you’re rarely terse when regarding people’s rights and freedom.

 

Would you agree we are products of our upbringing 

I’m listening.

We are products We are excused We knew wha we knew according to the time we were raised in grewup binary boys and girls heterosexual homosexuallesbian I am a fervent heterosexual You are  Speaking for myself I do not see menwhy would I

Therefore wha I said should not bewas not meant to be offensive deemed exclusive deemed uncaring  unsympathetic

 

I am heterosexual

You are heterosexual

Therefore 

           You is or you aint isnt derogatory

 

preferring 333 to 1533,  SunnyDay,  30  5. 21

2239,  SunnyDay,  30  5. 21

gender  https://www.healthline.com/health/different-genders#takeaway

 

he couldnt sit stillhe was all over his chair seemed the chair was moving by itself an electric chair 

                                                                                                       She’s something else, twentyfive percent Irish, twentyfive percent Mexican, twentyfive Cheyenne . . an . sorry, twentyfive percent something else that I can’t remember just right now.

Which yaknow wha that means right

Means?

Yes

I don’t know what you mean by what that means.

The Irish will fuck anything

Jesus!

Him too 

           Ive gotta push back

Push back?

Her grandparents thoroughbreds

What are you talking about?

For her to be quarteredparsed her grandparents had to be purebreds Yaknow the maththe statistics as well as me  Yare in over your headwerent thinkin her words through

                                                             Big titshuh

What?

Quit Answer the questions posed 

                                     Thoroughbreds   Big tits

I obviously didn’t think the genet . .

. . Because of her big tits 

Possibly.

Horseshit I could run the probability her big tits fogged your thinking onehunred percent man Your hated anyadohate  absolute  Jesus 

                  A flatchested Jesus

Anyway . .

. . Dismissive

Anyway . . 

. . Cowardly

Anyway. 

Nothing?

Im listenin now 

                 Said my bit

Anyway, she said that when she filled out employment forms over the years she couldn’t in good conscience submit Hispanic, or White, or Native . .

. . Or something else

Not getting off that are you?

No-pah

        She leans to Other Checks that box

She didn’t say.

I think if shes going to be an Other she ought to be specific

There’s not a box for that.

Make one 

           Take the initiative be a groundbreaker

It’s a form.

Reformat it Colour outside the lines 

It’s a form for a reason.

Yah because people let a piece of paper cajoledictate terms I cant tell you all the forms I happily violated

You get the jobs?

Sometimes sometimes not I accept employment on my terms an those are hardlined terms I rarely budge If they want something else out on me they can renegotiate For a price cash  money makes the world go round 

                                                                                                         If the shoe were on the other foot yaknow thered be concessions 

I don’t know.

No Maybe yadon

1505,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  5. 21

1513,  Monday,  31  5. 21

Black Keys  Have Love Will Travel  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqGJyffCyow

 

the 1921 Tulsa Race Massacre 

                                  hats off to President Biden acknowledging the horrific massacre

https://www.pbs.org/newshour/politics/watch-live-biden-honors-victims-of-tulsa-race-massacre

441,  Twosday,  1  6. 21

https://www.whitehouse.gov/briefing-room/speeches-remarks/2021/06/02/remarks-by-president-biden-commemorating-the-100th-anniversary-of-the-tulsa-race-massacre/

 

sweet cotton candy faireblonde cloud tiptoed up to him as he laid in a hot bubble bath she drew for him

not since he was a babe had anyone drawn a bath for him 

he didnt knowdidnt care why she chose to pamper him 

                                                         she wouldnt take No anhe tried several times to dissuade her 

it was a raw Fall day 

                       the trees refused to let their leaves fall they were warmer dressed   trees arent stupid

what did that say about him

what it said was that he said hed stop on the weekend and split wood for her

he was stopped at a STOP sign and looking over into her backyard  he watched a comedy – he thought it was comic she was frustrated – he watched her try to wield an axe split wood

proceeding through the STOP he pulled his stationwagon over to the curb parked it and walked back to her 

                                                                                                                 Excuse me he said after she suffered another glancing blow

Excuse me

she turned letting the axehead downlaying it on the grass its handle leaning against her crotch she wore a workskirt

she was latheredher complexion flushed

she was breathless

he filled the in-between of her breaths 

                                         I believe that axe is getting the best of you

panting Yes,   I was just   getting started.   I thought it’d    be easier than   this.    More romantic,   too.

Heats romantic chopping wood warms ya twice its said I donknow who its is though it makes sense

Yes.   I’ve heard that   too.

If your needs not immediate I could stop this Sunday an chop up wha wood yaneed  Just give me an idea wha yaneed

No, thank you,   that’s not    necessary.

Im not takin No wont cost ya a penny Havent had an axe in my hands in a while an it would let me play out some awfully nice memories 

                          Please

A man stops,   unsolicited,   asks if he could   please,   please chop wood   for me.   I see   the humor in your   face.   Thank you   for not laughing at    me.

Ill wait until I get in the car he cracked a smile 

                                                   After lunch Sunday

Okay.   Yes, thank you.   That would work out   well for me.   Thank   you.

Ill assume youll have caught your breath by then 

                                                    he smiled larger

You said you’d   wait   until you got into    the car.

I said Id laugh in the car 

                          Names Joe

Joe.   I’m Penelope.

Pleasure to meet ya Penelope Sunday past noon Seeya then

 

an unexpected Alberta clipper stomped in overnight Saturday

good thing chopping wood would heat him

he spread his fingerspounded them between each other so the gloves fix tight to his hands

he heard the wind whip his car the radio antenna jiggling madly

through his sideview mirror he saw hedges at the back of her property they would provide some windbreak

Lets get this party started he said out loud

from the tailend he grabbed two freshhoned axes hand axe hickoryhandled maul that was his grandfathers a five-pound steel wedge

going through the whitepicket fencegate he saw her standing at the back door  she was shaking her head No

he nodded Yes and smiled large

by the backdoor he saw she built a rack to stack wood 

                                                          he pointed to it and gave her a thumbs up

he went at the wood

 

twoplus hours later he filled the rack and placed wood in the garage near the door between some orphan eight-eight-sixteen concrete blocks 

                         he thought thatd keep her for a couple months

A whisky with your bath?

I wouldnt say No 

                        seems they were making a relationship based on Nos 

        

early morningstill dark dream,  SunnyDay,  30  5. 21

1216,  SunnyDay,  30  5. 21

 

Where ya at

he could hear his daughter knocking around inside the house from outsideoutside the sliding screendoor on the porch

I’m here!

Wheres here

The kitchen, you want to help me?

he said Right in as he slid the door out of his way and snugged it behind him so his cats couldnt get outparticularly the eldest female october or momma who beat him on a dead run when he opened the screen years ago then conferred upon him months later three kittens just when he thought she was finally putting on weightputting on her womanly body she birthed between his legs as he was sleeping 

                                                           queer thing to wake to

Whaya doin in the kitchen 

                             they had dinner plans out she was visiting

he entered

she was at the sink 

                      Your faucet got a sweet spot? she played at the lever he disliked levers preferred knobs one Hot one Cold 

Everythings got a sweet spot Here he moved in beside hershe leaned back out of the way he hit it  Ya got a sweet spot  In the vernacular its called a Gspot   

Jesus, Dad.

I don think Jesus had a Gspot I think only women have a Gspot An the damn things a moving target Even ifya got it under your thumb its off again like the Gingerbread man Catch me catch me catch me ifya can my alias is the Gingerbread man Now if only it had the scent of gingerbreadwhich I love it wouldnt be able to allude me  a win-win situation Lil Red My wha a big nose you have All the better to smell you wit . .

. . You, ah, think we could we pull this ride over to the side of the road. I want to get off.

Get off

Don't.

Really

Yes, Dad, really. I haven’t seen you in a bit – Trump virus et alia – I’m slow on the uptake, out of practise, cut me some slack.

Nope 

      I treat everyone alike give no quarter

Your perpetual Life’s a comedy club, can’t take a joke don’t come in?

Right on If I leave you one thingtaught you one thing its that Too bad yacant bounce them from the club without killin em

Jesus, Dad.

Two Jesuses Im on a roll

When aren’t you?

Doin wha comes natural baby 

                                Wanna talk more sweet spot all things animate inanimate have onepossibly more

I do not.

Would be an innarestin conversation

An absurd conversation.

Probably why you don pay attention to todays politics

Ohplease no, no politickles.

Such a sweet grrl ya remembered

Like I could forget. I got your elephant memory. No one piques it like you do. But you got to cut me some slack, please.

Cut rate family discount frequent flyer perk

Whatever, just let this little deer step out of the headlights and away.

I dislike whatever

I know you do; I’m piquing you, second definition.

Good for you

Yes. 

     she began laughing to herself obviously something amusing

Wha

she held up an index fingerexplicit Wait 

                                            her laugh grew deepershe was really entertained 

he took a deep sonorous breath 

                                 he wasnt bored he was impatient for the punchline that was playing in a loop inside her skulltickling the hell out of her like there was a slick pliable feather running between her legs desperate to find her Gspot 

finally the finger fell

she took a breath

he exaggerated her performancehanded her a clean handkerchief from his back pocket to wipe her eyes

off she went again laughing 

                              she did like her grandmotherhis mother did running peals of laughter beyond the initial haha when he thought she couldnt possibly have anything leftlaughed out  tapped

should never have handed her the handkerchief gasoline on a fire

 

subsiding 

             now she truly needed to wipe the tears from her eyes You’re a pip, Dad.

Thank you an 

Ah . .  she took a deep breathwiped her eyes some more tapped down a chuckle so it wouldnt explode into another heehaw burn more of his candle let more white sand slip in his hourglass Ah . . talking to herself So funny, so funny . .

she exhaled deeply

composed herself 

                   took her sweet time about it 

she smiled beatifically at him 

                                Dad she cleared her throat Oh, it is what it is.

didnt like that eithershe knew that 

                                      Is it

Oh it is. 

         she started laughing againhad her Grams feather between her legs

turning to leave the kitchen 

                             Ill see ya outside when yare done

the howl only grew louder 

morningish,  Reggae Friday,  14  5. 21

1214,  Saturday,  29  5. 21

Iron Butterfly  Most Everything You Want https://www.youtube.com/watchv=5QZdITJX6I0

 

Clang clang clang went the trolley

                                    hats off  to the destabilising tendency of evangelism   were crawlin in it

in the early 19th century Thomas Green Fessendem satirised it

A stupid wretch, who cannot read,

(A very likely thing indeed)

Receives from Heaven a calling;

He leaves his plough, he drops his hoe,

Gets on his meeting clothes, and lo,

Sets up the trade of bawling.

likewise Tocqueville observed

                               preachers seem equally concerned with “eternal felicity in the next world” and “prosperity in this.”

  that spinning  trying to throw America off its modern axis is the Founding Fathers in their graves the rationalist secularism they imagined has rotted blowflies are laying eggs  maggots are emerging 

                                                                                           might be an astute observation 

he didnt know a soul who ever laid eyes on a maggot that wasnt white

1314,  Reggae Friday,  28  5. 21

Judy Garland  The Trolley Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwP6kNIDg30

might have misheard it (3:09 minute-mark): So you love him so you couldnt even pee

Soah    youah  still have that babyblue hooded fleece robe

she giggledher eyes grew big 

                               Yes, I do.  I knew you were fond of it.

Fond An understatement 

                           Though you must have been fond of it too yawore it frequently as I recall

I did.  You liked it. 

Youah  picked up on that

You werent as cool or subtle as you thought.

Shesh 

       Yashould have blown my cover  I could have been more direct unflinching

No. I liked your furtiveness, you paid attention to me, I liked your attention. I like it now.

he went to GULP but she continued 

                                     I mean really, think about it, how many guys do you think would sit down and listen patiently to me conjugate German verbs.

There are six tenses past and present conjugated four compound tenses two categories of verbs  weak and strong

You were actually listening.

I was

Hmm, huh, all that time I thought you were just taking peeks down my robe.

I was 

       I was admiring 

If I wasn’t your daughter’s roommate, would you have done something other than admire?

Yes The reason why I accepted your invitation an followed you home after running into you at the coffee shop  So we might get caught up

We're getting caught up?

Yes 

       Would yamind putting babyblue on  nothing else

0007,  Thursday,  28  5. 21

1449,  Reggae Friday,  28  5. 21

Hugo Kant  One More Step  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhglrx4AnhM