30.10.20

 

flashlight tag

during Summertime Summer vacation

the game took on a whole new meaning one evening when playing with Sally Fortier

sure they knew they were going to piss off their parents for using their flashlight  whoevers

theyd get the speech You’re wasting batteries. A flashlight is meant to be played with, it’s not a toy. asif they just couldnt come out and say Don’t touch it, it’s not yours. 

JesusChrist 
              Wha a bug to have up your ass

it wasnt like they were bumming the heart Christiaan Barnard used to perform the first human heart transplant

it was a flashlight 
                    for cryinoutloud     a flashlight

 

that night Sally ran into her house not saying anything beforehand and took her parents

she explained that it was her fathers he worked downtown Chicago a financial advisor  she was one of twelve kids  he probably wouldnt think a flashlight was a hardship to be recompensed if need be 
                                                                                       wha the hell was recompensed
besides she said her folks were pretty generous 
                                                   OBrother were they on Halloween they gave out regular size candy bars not miniaturised ones

the six eldest Fortiers were girls every Summer that he could remember they put up a lemonade stand on their front walk kindalike Lucys from Charlie Brown comics without the psychiatrist ploy though they could have they were really smart girls  2cents a glass it was cold and delicious  they used real lemons they couldnt have made much money because they didnt always collect pennies for the glasses they poured 
                                                                           but maybe that was because they were Catholic they may have seen it as a way of doing the Lords work Don’t thank me Sally would say when she handed him a free glass Thank the Sweet Lord above. 
                                      hed thank Sally then hold up his cold lemonade to the blue sky and smiling really big he toasted  My Sweet Lord

 

that night Sally was fourteen  he was twelve

because it was her fathers flashlight she was It

she closed her eyes and began counting to fifty out loud

the neighbourhood kids scurried to hide 

some hid but some liked to stand behind things trees cars parked in drives so they could run to hide again as Sally passed 
         but Sally was really good  she had great ears she feigned asif she was passing  a suppressed giggle is still a giggle  and Sally could run like the wind

hustling she found all the kids afoot

the kids sat together on the street curb while Sally found the ones who hid

she found him last hit him with the flashlight beam he was wayhigh in a neighbours Dutch Elm on the parkway where he watched the game play out

because he was last found he became It

 

. . FORTYSEVEN  FORTYEIGHT  FORTYNINE   FIFTY    HERE I COME 
                                                                              he played the game aggressivelyacted like a monster he panted growled howled screamed he frightened a better part of the kids into revealing themselves and brusquely disregarded their shouted accusations that he was cheating because he scared them

he told them to shaddup and sit on the curb  Losers 


since Sally was fleet he knew shed remain afoot she moved like a ghost 

but this was different night

he heard her giggling

it wasnt like her to leave hints

following her giggling she lead him to the remaining hidden kids who cried CHEATER into the night at Sally  YOU’RE CHEATING, SALLY, CHEATER.  THAT’S NOT FAIR.

when they went out to the street curb to join the others he caught her giggle again 

he followed it up a gangway between neighbours houses their kids were too young to be out playing with them

lights burned in their windows

he could hear their voicetheir televisionssee its bluelight flicker on the ceiling

at the rear of the gangway both houses had stoops wood steps leading up to their back doors

a soft giggle

he paused  listening

where

 

another soft giggle

he leaned left to listen 
                                                  leaned right listening

soft breathing  excited

right he determined

under the stoop

he thought to scream as he did when he found the other kids

then he thought again 
                         if he screamed he might frighten the grownups inside

he crept into the backyard  came around the steps 
                                                      he saw a motion in the dark rather a break  something moved slightly a patch he saw looking through under the stoop changed shape 

he flipped on the flashlight 
                           Gotcha . .  oh  he had 

in the circular bands of whiteblued light 
on her knees 
on the dirt
Sally
         her blouse was open her bra pushed up over the top of her breasts her hands beneath holding them like fruit

he was transfixed  his cock wasnt

Golly he croaked 
                   then Sally  Youre breasts are really nice

she giggled 
             I thought I’d flash you; teach you a lesson.

 

the rest of that Summer wasnt the same as Summers past 
                                                            Summer school
1241,  Reggae Friday,  23  10. 20
1134,  Reggae Friday,  30  10. 20

29.10.20

$230K -- Killed

". . and has quickly ended the virus" 

quickly  whas quicklywhas ended  he thought of their resolve  although that term seemed too muscular to apply to Trump & Co  

anso touts the Republican political apparatus  it has terminated the Trump virus
                                                                                      https://www.msnbc.com/morning-joe/watch/biden-slams-wh-statement-on-ending-coronavirus-pandemic-94926917880

https://www.msnbc.com/11th-hour/watch/trump-keeps-breakneck-rally-schedule-as-u-s-nears-9-000-000-covid-cases-94890053516

that while the Republicants have thrown their hands up in the air an dont grimace while telling lies

2203,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  10. 20


the Trump virus

a buddy of his had been calling it the Trump virus for a couple of months now and he couldnt agree more

why he thought of it just now as he took a leak  particularly of all the things he might otherwise think of with his dick in his hand 
           O dont tempt me evil one 

Ah  a couple more shakes than necessary  but they felt good 
                                                                its getting harder to feel good these days feel good for himself and for family and friends and for all people around the world who were struggling

he felt bad too for all creaturesall earthlings seemingly overlooked in this homo sapiens-centric malaise and distress  petty shortsighted politics en lieu determinative leadership


well  that dismantled what those few extra tugs on his cock had inspiredquickening his blood heartbeat and blush

he flushed the toilet and was grateful Trump went down with it 
                                                                 AH  he felt better 


he washed his hands and drying them he found himself humming  he hadnt been listening

crossing the hall into his studio he heard his humming was With a Little Help from My Friends  and it being overcome in his head by Joe Cockers voice trading off with Ringo Starrs 
                                                              which made him smilehumoured him

then his hum quelled the voices anlike a commercial break interruption his thoughtprocess bent as he sat down before his computer  he thought of Friendsof on-line porn sites  porn must be doing a bangup business 
                                                                                                      anas temptation rose his cock peeked up over the edge of the desk Whassup?  Sssh he quieted it  he hated it when his cock sought to dicktate his actions 
                     anthen the pair were shushed by John Lennons voice  Whatever Gets You Through the Night 
which was no fucking help at all

seemed his cards had been yanked out laid on the table  spreadwide   he supposed there was no sense in fighting them  they were stacked against him  he had been gamed

O well he conceded 
                     O dont tempt me evil one had oneupped him 


he was like butter slathered in his hands

when in Pompeii do as the Pompeiians do 
                                             Pass the lupa woudja
 
2119 or 919,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  10. 20
1220,  Thursday,  29  10. 20
Joe Cocker  With a Little Help from My Friends  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXV4WyQMHFM 
John Lennon  Whatever Gets You Through the Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qwq76p93U8 

lupa: prostitute 

 

he despite a lingering aversion to being pessimistic  wondered what it would be like when there arent days to the week or weeks or months or years

when there werent seconds minutes hours clocks  or time

 

optimistically he thought  bliss the obliteration annihilation wouldnt be the worst thing to happen

although 
          that thinking probably belonged to his devout introvert as close to religion as hed ever get   


his extroverted-self didnt pipe up


he was confrontational


hence that was odd

then meybe 
              whahappened 

his full-of-himself introvert gamed his extro invited him in for cold beer shots and pigsfeet poisoned an killed him

introverts have lotsa hidey-holes 
                                  of course they do a manifestation of wanton elegant privacy
denying that would be stupid

he wasnt stupidnot by half 

though more than half of he was interior

his introverted-self keeps him busy all-hands on deck
                                                        WAKEUP!
Muthafucker I was sleeping

NOW YAINT.

No  Not now

it wasnt that he was bitchy his interior working was more a perpetual motion machine selfwinding  selffulfiling and somewhere in that self was an insomniac with darning needles and sewing needles and no yarn embroidery floss or fabric to stitch
                just ideas what to do with them if it did if it Id if fit Ego  


itd be a waste of time asking him

he wouldnt know

he wasnt about knowing

he was about one step following the other until he had to negotiate a wall a cliff or collapsed


itd be intriguing 
                 no one would know what day it was or time    cuckoo  cuckoo
 
2026,  Saturday,  24  10. 20
1609,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  10. 20
Billy Idol  Shock to the System  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lx2fZU5USus
Chamber Brothers  Time Has Come Today  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIqwzQ7g-Cc                                                        

28.10.20


You’re funny.

Im funn . . 
. . The things you worry.  They’re ridiculous.

Things I worry

Yes. Inside your head your thoughts go off, amplified by a staticky PA system. Ought to do something about that, improve it.

Improve that questionassertion wasnt going anywhere without eyeball contact

he got up from his chair coffee and whisky and went into the bathroom glared into the mirror over the basin
                                                                                                                  Improve How   Tell me how bigmouth

I’m just saying.

Sosay

 

I don’t have any ide . . 
. . When you have an idea open your mouth Dont ever point at a problem if you dont have a solution loaded up  Otherwise yare wasting our time

 

Yahear me

Yes.

When I talk to you youll acknowledge me  got it

Yes.

Awright  Funny   How
                          Wha am I worrying that strikes you funny

You’ll understand not haha funny, I’m not referring to that type of funny, rather funny as a figure of speech.

Awright Carry on

Alright. That you think of wood you split from a tree you felled; think of it as your fire consumes it.

It warms me It cooks my mealroasts my meat I should respect it

Respect it? It’s wood, it’s fuel; it’s inanimate!

Careful  You can be inanimate 
                                        I could disregard ignore you 
True

begrudgingly  Yes.


Whaelse tickles youis funny about me funny  as a figure of speech

I don’t think I should say, you seem perturbed.

I am perturbed  Im also curious if word went out over the PA why you are the only one laboring me with funny

I have a right to my opinion. Maybe the others are frightened by you.

ATTENTION! 
              That go off over the PA so everyone heard


sheepishly Yes.

Good  Then everyones listening   Correct

Yes.

Theyre hearing your funny

Ye . . 
. . Yes  Yes  An theyre hearing my yeses  An they know if they have a bone to pick with me as yare picking  all they gotta do is open their mouthstheyll have my attention 

But its only been you on this funny Whaelse strikes ya funny One funny certainly couldnt have provoked ya

No. One funny didn’t.

Nice were on the same wavelength 
                                       And

And. That you think of the fowl and pork and beef, the animals, that you’re eating.

 

Why wouldnt I

 

Seriously?

Seriously 
           Theyve died to nourish us  Yadon think I should respect themthat I shouldnt respect them given the terror they suffered in meat factories

Meat factories

Those should never have been allowed to exist 

Corporate murder

Miserable as state murder

Murderers murderers of beings they considerNO they dont consider them they consider their paychecks  Corporate considers their bottomline

Evidently humane hasnt any standing

Evidently animals earthlings  dont deserve humane 

A product is a product

 

I think you’re over the top.

Over the top is me snapping you out of my headout of existence


Youll appreciate my top is high that Ive set my bar high an did so on purpose

You can appreciate that  yes

 

Put it that way . .
. . HA

Put it that way . . yes.

Good 
      Then we have an understanding  since you stood alone    Funny

2025,  Twosday,  27  10. 20
1452,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  10. 20

Trump virus

Americans infected and dying 
                                 Trump the wartime president surrenders       

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2020/10/27/928062773/u-s-cases-surpass-summer-peak-and-are-climbing-higher-fast

the Market watches the whole world is watching and knows health precedes wealth

https://www.npr.org/sections/coronavirus-live-updates/2020/10/28/928600886/stocks-sink-as-rising-coronavirus-cases-deepen-fears-about-economy?utm_source=npr_newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=20201028&utm_term=4926183&utm_campaign=breaking-news&utm_id=28916831&orgid=55

1323 or 123,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  10. 20

 
I’m really loaded. when they got there the maidenhead began to crumblesome parted  it was manna  it was a gateway utterance  
           I’m really loaded. he liked to hear it

Friday night they played aroundhad themselves a ball liquor smoke music dancing feelingup  stroking

when he touched up with them Saturday afternoon What did we do last night, I don’t remember.

Yadon remember

No. I suppose we had a good time, you and I always have a good time . . even if I can’t remember.


that was very Catholic of them

whas a guy to do 

he lied
      he lied to protect the innocent

he didnt kiss an tell 

beside 
        those guys tended to lie

they thought their lies would precede themtout them as smooth operators Casanovas
                                                                                          O horseshit what they spouted was what they imagined about a girl as they stroked their cocks  beat off

Call em a beat off those were fightin words had to defend their honortheyd defend theirs before they would defend the honor of the girl they said took their fingerstheir fist or gobbled cock like chicken at cracked corn

he loved beat off fistfights

won plenty more than he lost

he couldnt help but get more punches in than were necessary at the end maybe the excessive punishment would teach em a lesson 
             NOT  usually the case thick skulls  hard to penetrate thick skulls  but he supposed everyone had a right to their lies

 

I was really loaded. What did we do last night.

he only went out with Catholic girls

he liked their school uniformsliked their black patent leather shoes spitpolished that when he looked at hard enough he could see their white cotton panties reflected in

he only went out with girls who confessed and sought absolution on Sunnydays

 

fuckin Catholics were geniuses
 
0138,  Twosday,  27  10. 20
1534,  Twosday,  27  10. 20
The White Stripes  Ball and Biscuit  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urEeUMqRhA4

27.10.20

 

The whole world is watching, the whole world is watching, the whole world is watching . .

he remembered that chantthat mantra out the mouths of civilian and student demonstrators on the streets of Chicago reverberate from his familys black and white television set during the ‘68 Democratic National Convention

he saw police violence

he heard Mayor Daley violently subvert the peoples right to peaceably assembly and he knew in their midst there were men whose jobagent provocateurs was to incite the police  a wink and a nod  because authority knows it can  nothing points its finger better than a well-exercised and -practise authority

he was a kid and he knew

elementary school had bullies 
                                 bullies dont changedont go away they grow up

thats what he remembered seeingwhat he remembered saying and his father said . . those hippies, those worthless pieces of shit . .

Someday he replied they may be leading the country

Unlikely, son, more likely they’ll be dead.

he was shockedhe was so shocked that he couldnt think to stop him to explain his brutal comment before he left the kitchen heading out to the car to leave for his part-time evening job he didnt know if his dad meant that they would in order to beat prison terms submit to go to Nam and die or if he meant theyd be murdered

Black Panthers were either murdered or imprisoned they were and are political prisoners yet right here in the United States the Land of the Free and Home of the Brave

"Since 1968" Americans have neither been free or brave then they went wide and overdosed on September 11 and lost their minds            

 

the whole world is watching 
                               2020  a year that will live in infamy   a year with a sociopath pathetic cocksucker daily at the helm 

2354,  Moanday,  26  10. 20
1317,  Twosday,  27  10. 20
60 Minutes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FdAh2HJ98WE

 

the president whineswants to make his election about a heresy  a harrisy   a Harrisy                                                                                                                                https://www.msnbc.com/11th-hour/watch/biden-and-obama-blast-con-man-trump-for-covid-19-response-94811717832

prick 
1032,  Twosday,  27  10. 20

$227K -- Killed

the Sun King in the shade of Covid 

1616,  Twosday,  27  10. 20


 

anthems  allegiances  pledges  vows

                                                                                

he couldnt wrap his head around them or the necessity why theyre asked 
                                                                               asked?
no theyre not
                       theyre dictates                  theyre required to keep one in line


he was watching a Stanley Cup play-off game in a small local beer bar they brewed a doubleIPA he was over the moon for

he came for the beer and the game

he called ahead to be sure they were going to be showing it  it wasnt a sports bar and if customers werent interested he didnt want to impose himself 
                               he didnt own a television or had watched TV in a long long time

he did however keep his eyeballs peeled ear to the ground for intriguing matchups

the announcer queued up that the Star-Spangled Banner Americas national anthem would be followed by the Canadian national anthem  O Canada 

a double dip he foolishly hadnt anticipated

he could have arrived ten minutes later and not missed the puck dropped to start the game 
                                                                                                not the kind of foreplay hed be interested in

he looked around the bar  no one seemed to be paying attention as the Star-Spangled Banner began

he motioned the bartender over and asked him if he wouldnt mind muting the screen  that way he wouldnt disrupt the other customers who were enjoying their conversations

That’s mighty thoughtful of ya, bub, we don’t usually watch much sports on it.

I know you dont  the reason why I called ahead to see if you were even going to run it  Id have gone elsewhere if it would have been an inconvenience

No, no, no inconvenience. These folk are the usuals. They enjoy their chats and arguments, bitch about grain and futures, talk horses, cattle, swine, small town politics; you’re a fresh face.

I come in on occasion  A game seven is hard to pass up

I wouldn’t know.

Wouldnt know
               Well I appreciate your help  My names Joe  You

Clarence.

A bell I might ring when Id like another beer

Ha. dismissively  No. Clarence will do.

Clarence backed off to mute the anthems and he wondered if anyone ever tried to shorten his name or what nickname he might go by  he was a big man  Johnny Cashs A Boy Named Sue immediately sent off in his head


ah  silence  
                except for the murmur behind him as he sat at the bar

hed be entertained  he didnt have a dog in the fight 
                                                        and as fans struck respectful erect poses en masse the broadcast the Jumbotron inside the arena cut to military jet aircraft streaking over it

did they buy into what they were being sold  a nationalistic pageantry

he didnt get the militarisation of Sports anymore than the Police  why this small borough had an armoured troop carrier was beyond him 

he supposed they werent peace officers  that they werent there To Protect and Serve 

 


anthems   allegiances   pledges   vows 
                                              they werent anything more than devious social constructs addressing supposedly intimate relations between people and their nation or government or community  and also to effect scrutiny of those who didnt kneeldidnt bow to nationalistic furor incitement  propaganda   disinformation

when he got married at the County Courthouse they didnt exchanges vows  they didnt put their hands on a Bible  they didnt swear

that they married attested to their devotion and intimacy 

words and poses would belittle their awesome love

thats how they felthow they definitely felt 

which was all that was needed

1510,  Friday,  19  5. 17
1224,  Monday,  26  10. 20
Johnny Cash  A Boy Named Sue  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnqWOI5MoXo 

26.10.20

 

Gudgud comrade he said to the interrogator then neither of us fears death Too bad I wasnt bound before they brought me to you 
           that was their hubristheir cock-assuredness 

he hurled himself over the steelcase desk at the interrogators throat as he fumbled for the 9mm in the holster at his hip

a head smashed repeated on a concrete floor doesnt make much noiseat least not enough to betray someone 
                                                                                                                  betray him
he beat the back of the his head to a soppy pulp

turned him over

then beat his face so he was unrecognisable

nothing remained supported on bone 


the steel door was locked

there was no window

it was a basement cell 


it might be a dead draw

but armed now he may get more than one 
 
2240,  Sunday,  25  10. 20
1040,  Monday,  26  10. 20
Radik Tyulush  Oskus Urug “bring the beards”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jEBM-OkpLI

$226K -- Killed

We’re not going to control the pandemic. White House chief of staff Mark Meadows (who chaired the House Freedumb Caucus) conceded

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/white-house-we-re-not-going-get-control-pandemic-n1244740?cid=eml_mra_20201026

when he was pressed Meadows added Because it is a contagious virus.

Trump Virus has always been contagious

the Administrations failure was not immediately enforcing health protocols to help minimise it rather they threw up their hands and cried UNCLE cried herd mentality (yes he did) 

Like magic, it will go away.

1429,  Moanday,  26  10. 20

 

she was long and tall and leaned back against him as he held her in his arms as he leaned against the kitchen counter after they had prepared dinner together yapping  then placing it in the oven

he did the prepwork washed and sliced or diced or grated vegetables as she asked 

her bit was the witchy partthe melding and folding the subtle herbs or punch-ya-in-the-mouth spices  eye of newt  knee of worm  feather of phoenix

he didnt have or ever acquired her finesse 
                                             though the butchering hewing and knifework was right up his alley coarse but serving a necessary basic purpose

he then her 
              as fire is to smoke and scent


holding her against himthe warmth and weight of her body he nuzzled smelled her hair smelled the nape of her neck 
he inhaled deeply
                   My gawd

What?

Love you smell like a freshbathed newborn An aint a damn thing that smells better in the world

Stop.

No yado  Ya smell wonderful anya feel so good in my arms

I smell like a baby?

Yado

I think that’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.

Shame on them  People dont know what they have until its gone an then they cant say  so their thoughts are utterly meaningless

Yamean so much to me

Thank you for being alive at the same time I am

You’re gonna make me cry.

Then cry
 
2055,  Monday,  5  10. 20
1519,  Sunday,  25  10. 20
Bobby Darin  The More I See You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wo68uzYwb3c