11.9.20



things come in threes

everyone knows that

he couldnt say when he knew it but he knew it when he was young


the threes that usually went together were deaths

it took their breath when a family member died

now family friends and acquaintances were on the line
                                                           like being in an enormous well-lit bakery on a Sunday after church buying delectable sweet rolls for coffee and conversation discussions and disagreements at his Grandmothers house  quietly nervously holding a ticket the next number called pellmell family constantly corrected himhe couldnt get it through his thick skull it wasnt mellpell 
                                           waiting for the other shoe and the other shoe to drop
usually within twothree weeks

it was particularly difficult during Nam he had cousins serving


deaths coming in threes hadnt changed since then

this year take a breath he lost an aunt an uncle and his daughter inside nineteen days




he read to quiet his mind

mendicant

ischemic

gewgaw

the three words stuck out like sore thumbs


looking them upHA of course they were related

mendicant beggar

ischemic (attack) inadequate blood supply to an organ

gewgaw a showy thing


Huh?

Dont see the relationship

No.

Bear with me

No small order. he sniffed a bit put out but he tended to be whenever he chose to contend with him

Mendicant originally it referred to religious orders monks priests who relied solely on alms Beggars Hence a man with a profoundly large cock who suffers ischemia begging  is really left with nothing more than a swinging gewgaw

Jesus.
       The way your mind must work.

Plausible


Nothing  Nothing
                HEY

he had sniffed again turned his back and walked away

1144,  Saturday,  21  3. 20
1205,  Reggae Friday,  11  9. 20


her ashes sit within six feet of where he sleeps

what he would give if only she smoked


0154,  Reggae Friday,  20  3. 20

10.9.20


hmm  as he walked up the hillthe paved drive to his house what was it that he thought he would remember what was it that he thought that he would remember whawas it he thought hed remember . . 
                                                                                        an incantation abracadabra mantra but finding that saying it over and over again wasnt bringing him closer to Eureka! The Promised Land a land he promised himself he would rememberthought hed remember before he left the crowded grocerystore parking lot before burying his nose in a book as he walked home


he came out through the automatic sliding glass doorsautomatically stripping the quarantine mask from his face a breath of smokecrowded yelloworange air a graying man wearing a braided ponytail closing his pickups doorso many pickup trucks in the parking lot not work trucks big obscene gas-guzzlers that made some kind of statement he still hadnt heard it though he listened about the person who drove it 


maybe what it was that he thought he would remember occurred to him inside the store

the cashier
           cropped curlyblonde hair dyed it didnt match their complexion fine dark arched eyebrows wideset big eyes fine facial bones feminine he nearly said Hey, baby but on their flat chest their nametag read Justin

he didnt call Justin Baby

Hows it going man

I’m beat.

Have the Holiday yesterday

I didn’t.

Too bad If its any consolation its hundredaneight degrees outside

It is, isn’t it?  Justin sounded like a wicked female Red Queen Queen of Hearts Mirror mirror on the wall
                                                                                                             Justin was very fair an attractive young man who probably wouldnt have minded if he slipped up and called him Baby

It is  Air at home

I play like Im living in Death Valley. Run out to the car, Air. Run into the house, Air’s going. This flower melts in the heat.

he smiled broadly under his black mask was he flirting

Justin smiled under his babyblue mask

they rattled on about this and that and that and this and concluding their transaction Justin said  See you again, Honey did he ask a question

Be cool

a buxom chica in a spaghetti-strapped black top was kneeling in the aisle eyeballing canned goods  he couldnt-help-but-eyeball her themed tats flowers vines serpents that wound over her shoulders down into the chasm of her cleavage

she looked up at him over her mask
                                       bandito

he wasnt going to act like he wasnt looking not from his vantage point
                                                                          Just at the bank and I asked the teller if other customers had said out loud how uncomfortable it was entering a bank wearing a mask

her eyes squinted she hear him right she laughed boisterously  entertained

Yare tattoos insane  Whats admission to see the works

her laughter went boisterous-squared
                                        Honey, if you gotta ask, you cant afford it.
Touche Its fantastic 

Thank you.



Honey

Was that it

Nobody called him Honey

Was Honey what he thought that he would remember
                                                                  Fuck it Whynot

nearly 1500-ish,  Thursday,  10  9. 20
Black Sabbath  Fairies Wear Boots  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXqMkqeFQwA


he was stoned

he had to take a leak

he got up out of his chair on the patio excused himself  Be back  and walked to the coffee shops front door

a gal came up the steps to his left

he held the door open for her and followed her in

sometimes it pays to be a gentleman
                                        he hadnt seen short shorts on a girl since college who could pull them off as this gal was  she pulled them off exquisitely  call em cups apples  crescents JesusChrist    exquisite

he drafted in off her an didnt take his eyes off her ass for a moment one has to appreciaterelish rare perfection a sublime feat of Nature if someone saw him watchinggot a bug up their ass TOO FUCKIN BAD
                                                                                                        Man oh man
                                   
he veered right to the restroom and crossed himself that she might be a kind of girl who ordered chemical coffee  espresso shots steamed foam flavouring cold whipped cream  something obscene
                                                                                     cuz she fit Obscenes bill to a T   
now was truly no time to be handling his cock
                                                Yasee that?
Yah  I saw  you saw

I got hijacked, testosterone, your beating heart goad me. Oohbrother, I got ideas, turgid ideas.

Feel ya man

Ya be gentle with me. No extra shakes or tugs when you finish up, I could be distracting; squeezing one off in a coffee shop restroom ain’t cool even if no one would know. I’ll leak in your shorts, be a sticky mess.

Ill be gentle I wanna get the hell outa here in a heartbeat Hopefully I dont miss her

Gentle. Gentle. Damn, she heated us up.

as he buttoned up his Levi 501s he laughed gutturallychin tucked down into his chest Well bust my buttons No  Not really
       he couldnt begin to say how grateful his was for his 501s

he had buddies come out of the John and forget to zip their flies 

never never happens to a cat who wears button flies 
                                                      although this afternoon in his haste he had to open them again twice because first two buttons came undonedone feebly the second time one came undone

he scolded his pants Ya kiddin me Stay closed he was burning valuable time there had been only one customer ahead of her

hands washed hot water papertoweled EXIT

                                                     Ohmy! his cock said That girl got an ass or that girl got an ass?
chemical coffee

We ought to pickup her tab. She’s still messin with her purse. Be a gent.

Be a creep

Sometimes a creep. Sometimes a gent. Coin toss.
                                                   She might recognise you're stoned. Or you could say your stoned, but stoned she’s still the best thing you’ve walked up behind in years.

Honestys the best policy

Honesty’s your best play.
                           You’d be flattering, an how many women aren’t pleased by straight-laced Just-the-facts-Ma’am honesty.
                   Besides . . .

You really going there

Damn right; I could use a little action, rather than us jacking off to her later tonight.  Look at that ass, man, that sweet slice, that’d fit nicely our hands.

Our hands
            Becoming a little possessive arent ya

Fuckno. Gimme some action, A-C-T-I-O-N, A-C-T-I-O-N, A-C-T-I-O-N; what’s that spell?

You fuckin kiddin mewe back in high school high school cheers

I ain’t kiddin’.
               How many cheerleaders did we go round with? Pleated skirts up. Coloured uniform panties. Apples, baby, they were the apples of our eyes.


he was gent
             If I may please Id like to buy your drink I maybe stoned but I aint so stoned that I cant appreciate how goodlookin you were coming in an now face-to-face before leaving

You’re sweet.

If you knew me youd know I aint

Hmm. That’s actually . . kind of enticing.

Aim to please

1600-ish,  Day-between-Two-Ts.  9  9. 20
J.Geils Band  Centerfold  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqDjMZKf-wg

9.9.20


she was youngwe were all young once enjoyed youthful indiscretion might roll miles on it effortlessly or it could come to a screeching halt
                   it often depended upon ones cohorts who they went with who they trusted or if they went balls to the wall threw bones threw caution to the wind

she was a redhead
                      a fucking redhead
                                         he wasnt partial 
                                                             shed either confirm or overthrow the reasons why he didnt date redheadswhy they didnt stir his ashes whet his appetite

turns out she was born in Peru of Spaniard Black Indian Irish blood  a dark-complexioned redhead 


Soah the bar was closing  they metwere introduced by friends youah callin it a night

Don’t know, got any ideas?

Im not far from here Im wired anya made it an evening more interesting than I dared to expect Thought maybe ya might like to stop for a pizza then head over to my place Ive got a craving to watch The Hustler Its a classic Or we can get better acquainted Got lotsa music too

Hustler?

Yah

You don’t think that’s a litttle risqué; we’ve only just met?

Risqué Coming over to my place Okayokay See your point Tell ya wha Tell me wha youd like on the pizza and you can head over to my place IIl give ya my key Let yourself in Dont let the cats out youre not keen leave the key under the doormat maybe your telephone number too an its cool we could pickup where we left off this evening

You’d be cool letting me into your place while you are out?

Yah Freshen up Take a load off  Just head north take a right pass the cop shop on Rosario second left is a stop sign Santa Cruz Take it 5554 on the right Steep driveway Should meet you in twentyfive minuteshalfhour

You’re cool.

As a cucumber Beers in the fridge if youd like

Alright.
         This is iffy, you like anchovies?

You shittin me

You do?

Bet yer sweet ass Ill double up on them
                                           I also like garlic artichoke hearts black olives traditional crust not thin
You Prince Charming or something?

Something

Alright, Ill see ya in a halfhour.


he picked up an extra large hadnt had pizza awhile cold pizza for breakfast sounded delicious

Hmm he thought Hustler Risqué    Whawas she talkin about



when he arrived he pulled off to the side of her car so not to impede her when she left

she came out onto the porch with two bottles of beer in her hand to let him in and keep the cats inside
                                                                                                           Got the oven at twofifty we can keep the pizza warm while you freshen up

she smelled good not like the cigarette smoke from the tavern like he smelled
                                                                                   You showered
You said freshen up if I like; I had a halfhour.

So acceptable

The bones threw me, but they weren’t human.

Nah Whales

I thought. Lotsa books, art on the walls, records; I didn’t find your porn stash.

You didnt look hard enough  Maybe when were better friends

You’re not denying it?

Im a healthy American man whose parents tried their damnedest to taint with Catholicism I dig an treasure the female form

Hustler?

Im not following but lets hold that for conversation later after I freshenup Gimme five

he took a deep pull at his beer
                                The double IPAs okay
Yes. I like beers with a bite.


they took their pizza and beers out onto the porch café table two chairs they were liberal with the red pepper flakes and fresh parmesan he grated

she marveled Who keeps fresh parmesan on hand?

I make pasta every ten dayscouple of weeks I like it fresh grated


they helped themselves to seconds

the movie was slipping from their grasp

Take a raincheck for The Hustler Some other time

You don’t mind?

Nah  Im enjoying our conversation Its getting late

We could go inside and curl up on the sofa.

Yah Ill fire up some candles play some music 



she was a little high from the tavern the doubled beers suspended it nicely   

they sat she turned on her hip and put her legs across his lap  arranged her skirt modestly   

they kissed softly
                   some gentle caressing and petting he paid particular attention to the inside of her thighs just above her knees lightly stroked them with his fingers

she mentioned more than once she really liked the candlelight how it coloured the paintings on the wall  flickered on the bones 
           I feel like I’m in a museum. I dig it.

I dig you being here


Maybe you might care for three fingers

she seemed amused she blushed  Excuse me?

Three fingers

she giggled
             Three Fingers? Earlier it was Hustler . . now three fingers

he smiled wires seemed to be crossedpleasantly crossed he couldnt wait to get to the bottom of it
                                                                                                        Yah Three fingers
she giggle
           Three?

Doncha think

Don’t know; I’ve had two.

Then two

It wasn’t uncomfortable.


Uncomfortable
                 he stroked the inside of her thigh  a bit higher up

she was getting antsy shifting her bottom

when he kissed her he gripped her thigh tightly

she moaned under his mouth

it was getting hot in there

when they broke their kiss she gasped a bit

he firmly had her thigh

Okay. I’ll try. Three fingers. I’ll try. You’ll be gentle.

Yes

I know you will.

he squeeze her thigh firmly released it  got his arm under her legs and as he turned her a bit on her fanny so he could stand to get the three fingers for them she asked 
                                                    What, what are you doing? a hint of panic in her voice
Going for the drinks

Drinks?

The drinks
            Three fingers  Whisky


Oh.
     Never mind.



in the kitchen it dawned on him he laughedactually bellowed 

You laughing at me! she cried from the couch

No not at you I cant tell you how much Im thoroughly enjoying you

Are you sure?!

I am Thoroughly  Ill show you

she made an elaborate GULP sound 

2354,  Teosday,  8  9. 20
1338,  Day-betwene-Two-Ts,  9  9. 20


You heard QAnons reigning queen Greene Off with their heads! No  no ya got that wrong yare confusing the Queen of Hearts with the Red Queen Alice in Wonderland Through the Looking Glass Greene Red Wrong Queen of Hearts yah  Yeah, I was wrong. But I’m not as wrong as she is; how can she possibly be running for the Congress? Ah  a Republicant enclave in Georgia
Republicant?
Yah
Clever. You hear her recent gibberish?
Thats a languish right
Languish?
Hate having to explain a joke Languish   Language
Lanquish, feeble, right?
Yah but you were saying
Yes. She tweeted yesterday Children should not wear masks . . they’re unhealthy for their psychological, emotional, and educational growth.
Hmm Im thinking Halloween  Never heard a kid bitch about a Halloween mask
And . . and . you’ll love this, Greene said forcing boys to wear a mask is emasculating.
What did she says girls would suffer
She didn’t, good point though. She concluded Masculinity isn’t toxic nor dangerous.

Im waiting for it
Waiting?
Thats it
Yeah. Masculinity isn’t toxic or danger . .                                                                                    . . Unless yare a black man

1042,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  9  9. 20


Tend My Garden James Gang
                                 he was always a fan a little disappointed when Walsh joined The fuckin Eagles  they were not worthy

his CD shuffle-play goosed Goapele ran Tend My Garden up behind her an ran Ushers Yeah up their ass
                                                                                                               he would have cum had Nellys Hot in Here gone off  he didnt have it  wasnt on his machine
                                                                                       but that was an excuse hed make it playhe could make things that werent ante-up extend themselves suddenlymiraculously exist  he pitied people who werent accessible to the fantastic
                                            maybe they werent prone   maybe they didnt try hard enough
maybe they were cunts

he had a habit of not hanging with cunts
                                            not those kinds of cunts
the others he was all over like butter on toast bagels anything butter benefited an enjoyed its ooze



he needed something to tend to hold him together to care for  

the oldest of nine
                   it was entwined in his DNA like a junkie needing a fix

he had nine cats five In four Out  all born feral

he needed their feralness fearlessness
                                           they enforced out of where he came  

the dozendozen-in-a-half hummingbirds he fed werent enough

the fig his daughter shared with him wasnt enough it failed  he lost

the wisteria seeds she shared
                                 they failed
he needed to quit losing


the loses werent entirely on him

he had to be absent four days a week

he was helping care for his daughter


he tried hard not to let it occur to him that he would lose her too



bad year

she escaped too

1144,  Saturday,  21  3. 20
1552,  Twosday,  8  9. 20
James Gang  Tend My Garden  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Ui2Q11IbAY