1.6.20


his father gave him money for his birthday
                                             frankly he was very generousmore generous than his mother had ever been he assumed they discussed what theyd send him

his father sent cash in a letter 

his mother always sent a check in a card

she died recentlyhadnt been feeling well for a while however it happenedsuddenly  caught the family unprepared


his father sent him five crisp onehundred dollar bills in sequence he thought maybe they had adhered to each other as new bills can

when he called to thank him for the money he didnt say that it was too much though he did allow himself to say it was a very generous gift

You know, son, it occurred to me that living away from home, all these years since you were a teenager, living outside the state, that you haven’t benefitted in the manner your siblings have; and they have  
Don’t think too much about it 
You’re long overdue.

Any money you borrowed from us you always paid back, and beleaguered us that we ought to have charged you interest.

I have nine children.

Only you paid us back. But you don’t give money to someone depending upon them repaying it.


I did not know that

No. You didn’t.

So you enjoy your birthday, and if it’s appropriate, lemme know what you spent it on, what you acquired.


that was a big order

he was thrifty with money

books and art art catalogues were his soft spots
                                                   but he always knew what he was going to do without to afford them
hard to imagine

his father was affording himif he chose to be frivolous  

his father was affording him drugs and sexYes That order  good drugs were always harder to come by than sex

hashish hed pop seventy for a gram brown Lebanese he had accessthough he hadnt used it  he was usually treated once in a blue moon if he happened to be in the neighbourhood during a blue moon 
                                                                                        a carpenter Jerry a Nam vet he met when they worked constructionbuilt houses crewed together Jerry maintained his criminal connections after the war

he had enough pull incountry during the war to have three Vietnamese adversaries hung from lampposts one evening in Saigon

he didnt have other adversaries hung

Saigons called Ho Chi Minh City now 
                                        they still called it Saigon old habits are hard to break particularly when they didnt kill you when they could have or should have they apparently shared likekinds of horseshoes luck tucked up their asses 

he spent time there too  R and R several breaks military didnt want him getting out of country he might not have come back

Jerry was stationed in Saigon operated supply materiel logistics crafted a brisk drug business crossing back to California
           he was never one to let a crisis flounder


hash in hand he was invited to a party upscale  a doctors house

his pass in was Kati 

Kati was fond of him

turns out they became reacquainted an old acquaintance because she worked as a nurse for his new internistwhose party it was also a woman  safety in numbers he supposed

the internists receptionist Gretchen Nordic also turned up  bodacious had a body a set of tatas to kill for 
                                                                                                                 though coy too coy for cool  he thought mildly retarded regarding her sexuality  he would have figured her burning barns down  Christ ohChrist Not religious!he thought  That would be a waste of body and flesh sucking up for the Body of Christ


he got Gretchen stoned out by the pool

he managed her way back into the houseinto the kitcheninto the splendid pantry
                                                                                      a frosted glass door led in cabinets left and right low and high a countertop that ran the lengths and across the back and held mixers other utensils a mill beautiful ceramic containers for grain which would have made a pharaoh envious wishing rather they were canopic jars

A hunred dollars he offered Gretchen  Expose your tits he wanted to be raunchy break her in an a handjob
Twohundred!

he hadnt expected a counter offer Twohunred

Yes, twohundred! I’ve got two that are worth every bit of onehundred apiece.

Twohunred an I get to feel them while you jerk me off



she was stoned  Okay.

the craze began but five in she wasnt inspired seemed she wanted to be he went long suckled her she didnt object pinched her nipples that responded as he expected but she lagged
                                                                       he wasnt gonna ante up more dough though he would have loved to have her give him head
Ahhh
      he got her skirt up panties off

she was earnestly trying to jack him off 
                                          though something was amiss missing  something needed to give something needed to push her over the edge

Well he thought  Whynot he slipped his finger into her pussyshe let go of his cock  she squirmedshe liked it
You masturbate

What?

No.

No  Oughta
              Gimme a momentjust a momentwoudja  Ill be back
Back?

Dont move a muscle unless ya finger yourself  as good as bracelets

O – kay.

Gretchen Thats my girl he kissed her hardpinching her nipple harder she gasped  before he boltedhe didnt bother buttoning his pants  it was a party  Whas my name


Gretchen


Joe.  Joe.   You owe me another hundred.

When we conclude I climax he fingered out her other fresh hunred held it up I havent forgotten Right back


he knew Kati was keepin an eye on himknew she wasnt far from the pantry  intrigued  curious almost surprised she hadnt entered 
                she was a freak like him 
there  Kati

What’s up?

Wanna play

Gretchen?  She’s cold fish.

Ive an idea

Yah?

Yah If memory serves me correct you own me a few blowja . . 
. . Only because your heads came fast and furi . .
. . An

What an?

An

An I’d lose my mind.

Im up  Ya owe

Yes.  Yes, yes . . YES.

Any qualms regardin Gretchen

Strikes me straitlaced.

Wanna unstraiten her with me

Think you can?

I think we can You aint shy

I don’t kno . .
. . Shes stoned Heard it sang When my minds tore up then my body dont care

Sure. She’s got a build; I am curious.

Got yer glasses

I do.

Put em on Your eyes are enormousyour glasses make you look like a fuckin elf

You’ve told me before.

I love elfin head


he didnt rap on the glasshe guided Kati in ahead of him

Kati!

Gretchen.  Damn. Nice tits, girl.

as Gretchen blushed Kati walked up to her and squeezed both her tits in Katis small hands they looked even more enormous

Shit. Nice tits. Kati teethed an erect nipplean suckled it

Gretchen gasped brought her hands up then almostmotherly took Katis head in her hands

he sidled up bit and suckled the other nipple

Gretchen held his head too

reaching downnot that he had to he could smell her Gretchen was wet lubed he slowly began to finger her 
                                                                                                                 and as Gretchen gasped in her throat he took a handful of Katis red hairpulled her off Gretchen tit and yanked her down to his cock

she struggledsmiling  then relented opened his pants completelypulled them down to his knees took him in hand then took him greedily in her mouth
                                 Gretchens eyes grewher groans and gasps grew voyeur participant voyeur participant vovovoYer finGrrs  voYers  then he yanked Kati off his cock and planted her mouth on Gretchens sopping pussy
FUuck! Gretchen  Pleaded  FUuck!
things got sketchy

some grain got dumped honey jars got violated

orifices fancied lapped fingered fucked

his legs quit workinghe went downthey went down after him  tried to smother a drowning man


he was ahead

Jerry wouldnt take his moneylaid two grams on him

his internist when she discovered them got frisky herself

her pantrywhat he recalled reminded him of a telephone booth college coeds tried to stuff





Hey Paw

Yes, son?

Ya sittin down

1255, finished 1829,  Sunday,  31  5. 20



the Pentagons 1033 program
                               allows surplus military equipment to be transferred to local police  Surplus he could appreciate a surplus contingent on its availability or redundancy for war zonesappreciate its necessity to protect the life of servicemen and women in harms way but why would military surplus meant to kill be provided US police departments whose job it is to keep peace To Protect and Serve

Obama should have eviscerated the program entirely not limited it
                                                                       then Along comes Mary she reverses Obamafat she has sought to reverseerase anything the black man did to her White nation
1345,  Monday,  1  6. 20
The Association  Along Comes Mary  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BD7SvXmjf3U

lose the turds


he had dropped his eye on the opening of Politicos Huddle today 
                                                                    Lawmakers are grappling with yet another awful crisis: how to end police brutality and heal racial inequalities.

grappling
           stuck in his head  grappling

and cleaning his catboxes – no better time to consider political grappling – he understood government as a hierarchy a supposedly shared hierarchy except the presidencythe imperial presidency hasnt been taken down the notches it has insisted it was due

beyond the novel coronavirus the economy resulting from it Race has always paramount and overlooked an inconvenient truth an rather than face the truth all presidentsexcept one  have been racial motivated NOT to bend the arc


grappling
                after Ferguson the Holder Justice department entrusted their blue print which confronted police brutality across the United States to the incoming overtly-entitled racist Trump administration 

its exhaustive blueprint was ditched as everything Obama is trying to be erased

then the racist president his racist senior advisor on policy Stephen Miller were joined by a prancing-performing racist William Barr who was confirmed Attorney General by the Republican Senate
                                                                                  what could go wrong

theres nothing to grapple with
                                he thought as he cleaned the cat shit from the catboxes

lose the turds
               thatd be a good beginning to rectify Race and Americas vibrant Inequalities
1259,  Monday,  1  6. 20  

31.5.20


spoonfed 
           he was just a babe in the woods spoonfed gruel he didnt have to lift a fingermove a muscle the sustenance flowed to him without him asking

I  theres that pervasive I  he continually speaks in first person while thoughtlessly forgetting his obligations  he represents all shades and creeds of Americans
                                                  I don't feel that as a G7 it properly represents what's going on in the world. It's a very outdated group of countries.

Lets remind everyone who the outdated group of countries are countries who have snubbed His Magnificence thats what those inside the White House who are indebted to call him – and by attacking Black Lives Matter and antifa – its getting Whiter by the moment – for the time being

the first OUTDATED country we have is the spangely Stars and Stripes entry the United questionable States of America

the UK second to the United States because they lost the war and have been US lapdogs since FETCH FETCH! It dont matter what the US throws the UK springs after it seemingly without thinking  loyal bootlicks

Germany 

Canada

Japan

France

Italy


once upon a time it was the G8 Russia but on 24 March 2014 Russia was flushed from the International organistion for its violent overthrow called annexation of Crimea



rightly Make (White) America Great Again (MAGA) has floundered  its new slogan is Keep (White) America Great (KAG)

Internationally the US has no ground game
                                              no longer the selfascribed Indispensible Nation

1227,  Sunday,  31  5. 20



the clown in the Washingtons center ring has jumped aah not literally  the man cant jump for his life on big fat Bill Barrs bandwagon poor wagon to accuse and will declare Antifa a terrorist organisation
                                                                                           https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/trump-says-he-will-designate-antifa-a-terrorist-organization-as-gop-points-fingers-at-extremists/ar-BB14Qu0i?li=BBnb7Kz&ocid=mailsignout

now  is it just him neither fat man Johns-come-lately have accused or thought to declare White Extremists  Neo-Nazis  KKK  as terrorist organisations
                                   seems black and white to him  a no-brainer
two sides of the same coin to be precise
yet only leftist extremists are vilified 
Righty and Whitey arent

   WHY pray tell

1129,  Sunday,  31  5. 20
 Otis Redding  Sittin on the Dock of the Bay  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyPKRcBTsFQ 


Easy peasy. she said
                        raised hackles on the back of his neck he didnt like it nothing he experienced was ever easy peasy he found the phrase effete  jejune  vapid   worthless

coming out of her mouth surprised him

his daughter was rarely flippant

Easy peasy was probably the last thing he imagined escaping her lips

she frankly shocked him
                           although she defended a friend of hers who he took exceptiontook exception to a remark the woman made

her defense was that the woman wasnt being judgmental

Ahh he replied Beauty in the eye of the beholder Defaming judgment in the ear of the hearer  You miss the tone in her voice

Well, Dad, she was pissed!

ONE pissed he was thoroughly disgusted by the wordit didnt appeal to him he felt it was beneath anyone who could stitch two simple thoughts together

the sound of word pissed irritated him
                                           and to have her say it  even though quoting her friend  boggled his mind

TWO he took the womans remark personally

he was in the room when she disparaged it

walking in out of the cold into the roomderiding it making a snap judgment thinking she was confiding it alone to his daughter  not looking around  not taking squat into account except her keen eye  was derogatory
                                                                                                         which he also found cowardly

yet his daughter defended her

she could have said the room concerned her or better yet frustrated her not pissed her off

not to mention as he mentioned it she only came by when time suited her and then she expected to waltz right in no matter how his daughter was feeling that day

he sent her packing couple of time telling her her timing wasnt good not that the time wasnt good  he provoked her despite the fact the time really wasnt good for his daughter then had to eyeball her when he saw her wheels turningthinking that perhaps she might bullrush the doorstick her foot in it like a door to door salesman might
once upon a time 
  
when he was a boy in Chicago a couple of salesmen considered pulling that off on him thinking theyd get past the little gatekeeper

they didnt which was smart of themsmarter than they knew 

as the eldest he was obliged to protect his brothers and sistersthe family hearth so he kept a ball peen hammer leaning against the door jamb 

somebody wanted to play tough

he had no qualms using the hammer

Take it easy, kid.

Hit the bricks

1612,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  1. 20
1645,  Saturday,  30  5. 20

To Protect and Serve, who?


Justice will be served  big fat Bill Barr Trumps AG   whose Justice
                                                                         Fatty has to get in line to attack protesters of police violence in Minneapolis and other spontaneous flareups in major American cities

he has to step up behind White Power cop Bob Kroll and a perhapsthough not blatantly White Power NYPD Commissioner William Bratton
(Bob  ofcourse hes a Bob) Kroll is hardly alone in employing war on terror-style rhetoric to demonise Black Lives Matter. Last year, New York Police Department Commissioner William Bratton – one of the most powerful law enforcement officials in the country – compared Black Lives Matter protestors to terrorists and announced a new heavily armed “Strategic Response Group” to “assist us in dealing with demonstrations.” Meanwhile, Black Lives Matter protestors have been preemptively spied on by both the law enforcement and the FBI, from New York to Minnesota, and during the militarized show of force in Ferguson.

“Since 9/11, all manner of legitimate protests have beencharacterized by law enforcement of all stripes as acts of terrorism,” Vice Warren, executive director of the Center for Constitutional Rights, told The Grayzone.  
Addressing "rioting" in many cities, Barr said, "the voices of peaceful protest are being hijacked by violent radical elements."
"Groups of outside radicals and agitators are exploiting the situation to pursue their own separate and violent agenda," he said. "In many places, it appears the violence is planned, organized and driven by anarchic and...far left extremist groups using Antifa-like tactics."

these men forget to mention their agent provocateurs -- an old shtick
0955,  Sunday,  31  5. 20



30.5.20


. . put the lime in the coconut an mixem both together put the lime in the coconut then yafeel better . . 

thats how he remembered the song Nilsson Schmilsson 

if he was wrong Fuck it 
                           no matter  hed been wrong before thats what the words sounded like to him it was hard to hearhard to concentrate on the words 
                                         he was in a hotbox under covers  she was shy his head was between her thighshis tongue in her pussytickling her trying to reach her tonsils an ever itsy bitsy thing in between  first time a guy went down on her
                    she glommed onto the top of his headhad him by the hairyanked it left rightright right left right pulleduppushed down pulledup yanked fuckin gspot fevered  must have been running amok a lively spastic visiting a new playgroundthreethree? times she tried to crush his skulltried to fit his head up inside her quaff it swallow ittried to engulfengulp it  like a snake at its prey

still she didnt wanna see him at her
                                       though more likely she didnt want him to see her quakingqiuvering lips she didnt think vaginas were attractive hers embarrassed her an he couldnt get her off that ponytailed prejudice he couldnt stop her from calling it a vaginaso fuckin clinical  quim cunt pussy slit peachfish
                                                                                 to be fair he was a huge fan of oysters  their construct folds slipperiness liquid taste texture sucking  how sensual

she didnt buy it
                  It’s ugly. You want it?  Get under the covers.

Its not an it Its beautiful  OKeefeian
Shaddup!
            really dug her heels in an no amount of cajoling or flatteryhe tried drugs nothing bent her will

so  he went hotboxsweat like a pig

shared it with her pussy

dug his companion Cantcha talk to her he whispered between bites an nibbles an sucks tryin to turn her inside out



Nilsson went off in his head as he gaze outside into a stone garden and fountain beyond her bedroom through fixed plateglass windows rather a see-through wall

her room was hermetically sealed the windows couldnt yawn or tilt or gape a fuckin waste the outdoors out of doors like a caged animal

usually he hated hotboxes coldboxes ceiling fans recirculated air recirculated farts and belches and halitosis whispered lies plots intrigue  which all could be swept fresh or scrubbed by a breeze or wind

outside in the gardenoutside the dust and rainstained glass the crossed woodframes hanging from a greened brass hook was a slender flaccid wind chime

whoever hung it she said she hadnt wasnt interested in its music 

who would torture a wind chime

maybe it was hung only for the benefit of the sun playing on it exciting its crystalbeaded clapper and tooheavy crystalfaceted bob 

four thin metal chimes hung down around the clapper and bob

no wind penetrated the garden or circulated to stir the chime

its utility denied
                  he wondered why it was ever hung



like trying to slip a slice of lime inside an intact coconut

0936,  Twosday,  21  1. 20
1501,  Saturday,  30  5. 20

distraction from $105K (Killed)


"With this launch, the decades of lost years and little action are officially over," the president the clown missing from Washingtons center ring and sawdust said
"Past leaders put the United States at the mercy of foreign nations (RUSSIA) to send our astronauts into orbit--not anymore. Today we once again proudly launch American astronauts on American rockets--the best in the world--from right here on American soil."
NPR cited “Actually, it was two past presidents who put NASA on the path to this SpaceX launch, though it would be hard to know that from listening to the post-launch speeches.”
Pence was there to suck his cock "Today is the culmination of three and a half years of renewed leadership in space," calling the launch "a tribute to the vision and leadership of a president who, from the very first days of this administration, was determined to revive NASA and American leadership in human space exploration.." saying this of a president who struggles to find his cock for his obesitywho refuses to wear a mask during the coronavirus pandemic because it will mess up his makeup  is a desperate reach  
1758,  Saturday,  30  5. 20



Saul on Breaking Bad said Let it be noted, I do this under duress.

he laughedcracked him up Sauls protest would have been more viable had it been recorded in writing documented

once he supposed Saul aspired to be an esquire
                                                        Once

now hes a preeminent shyster preeminent preceding shyster a bridge too farNah Saul was superlative shyster


at the only corporate job he ever heldhe had to be physically broken to come in from the outsidemade him cry like a baby the last time he cried like that was when a fuck shot his dog and he couldnt prove the muthafucker did it the police and authorities werent interested he was new to the area living rural the ranchers family had been there generations Com’on, your dog was just a dog.
                                                 the only corporate job he ever held everything and anything he was required to signbecause he was usually against their new provisions every few months something new and always indemnifying the corporation at the expense of their customers and always revealed in fine print deep in the contract that they insisted everyone should readpages of fine print while knowing full well people wouldnt read they didnt have time or magnifying glasses  and they wanted the product so ofcourse they signed
                                                                                        the only corporate job he had when push came to shove for his signature he signed too  


Corporate  sharp as they were covering their ass didnt think someone might cover their own they thought his last name was Underduress

2323,  Reggae Friday,  29  5. 20
1059,  Saturday,  30  5. 20


hmm   theres hoi polloi  the common   the masses  and theres hoity toity  the snobbish   the haughty

they damn near rhyme


Hey, boy!
           nearly rhymes too 
Boy!

Keep it comin, boy, keep it comin!

that frosted his fannyBoy  Boy
                                 that he was supposed to fall over himselfbe at beck an call serving refilling getting fresh hot black coffee for the monkey because he was too busy yapping didnt drink it let it get cold  doesnt like cold coffee SHADDUP 
                   and the while responding to Boy

Daresay Dont think so fuckNot your boy 
Not anyones boy mister

Aah, did I say, boy?

Ahh  Yaknow ya did


Maybe . . . accidentally 

he howled another scab pickedpulled at 
                                            Yawannanother cup of coffee Fetch it yourself
Myself?
Yourself

Aah. You forget yourself. I’m along for the ride. A Ghost Rider of the Purple Sag . . 
. . Rider Riders   Riders of the purple sage  A Zane Grey book

Or something like tha . .
. . No  Exactly that  Either Ghost Riders in the Sky or Riders of the Purple Sage No excuses Own up


Something like that.
                     I’m not into Western music or novels. I dig it, though, when Indians come away with scalps, or, for that matter, anyone comes away with a bloody scalp.
And white women are taken captive.
Yes.

Yah

Yes. Let’s say no more, not speak of it any longer, I’ve wasted more breath than I ever imagined I would have . . talking to you.

Ahh Lets say no more


Good.
       Now, get my coffee pronto. I need to stoke my caffiend.

Yah

Yes.



he hated when he argued with himself


he won one way or the other

0835,  Twosday,  21  1. 20
1332,  Reggae Friday,  29  5. 20
Ghost Riders  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W56pl1QZNcQ