15.11.19




the light was better in the livingroom to write
natural
         as opposed to writing under a lightbulb  

in the livingroom he was nearly under a skylight
                                                   to his right was a bank of windows unfettered by curtains or blinds

he opened the two French doors

as he did overhead he heard a hawk cry
                                           no better affirmation



he teased his daughterhis son-in-law that their home was as much childproofed as it was grandparentproofed  for him he couldnt speak for his son-in-laws parents
maybe they knew how to escape
Door ajar  the system warned

No a door is a door  it is never a jar


there was a shallow woven basket at his elbow that held a blackplastic controller likely it controlled the plasma television screen above the fireplace gas fed the music system  the security system 
he didnt have any ideahe didnt want to know

he chose to have no aptitude for the technology


there were three laptops in the livingroom

they were locked by passwords
                                  an even if he knew the words Word up! he wasnt enticed he preferred the security of his PC look at him and his acronym he despised acronyms he preferred his tower and screen and faulty keyboard the keyboard was reminiscent of a steel-caged Underwood typewriter he banged his school papers and thoughts out on

he was from the Stone Age
                           rather  the Stoned Age
unencumbered
freeer

less clothed
less madeup
rarely tatted
more humane

then he thought of the freaks today makingup policy 
                                                       fuckers commiserate to his agehis years though probably since childhood they were overinflated overindulged  they were taught they were exceptional Why wouldnt they buy into their parents and that cultures assessment
Money talks!


they were never exceptional

he would have loved to have a fistfight with one

but that wasnt possible

they had someone else who would do that  they didnt believe in physical labour




the livingrooms silence was a balm
                                     like the silence inside his twentyteight year old vehicle
no air
no heater
no defroster

no radio

no cassettes


the power locks still worked
                              though his familyhis daughters were grown  he didnt have to worry about protecting them
the power windows still worked

as did the sun roof the closest hed ever come to owning a convertible


driving in it he achieved mobile Zen




when he arrived at his daughters home she shared with him something she had written 

with it she gave him a blue lace agate
                                        the agateshe insisted would provide him gentleness 
You should treat yourself better.

You dont think Im gentle with myself

No. You seek adversity, which provides you a reason to confront, and to be antagonistic.

Im fine baby Mars is my ruling planet Aries is always spoiling for a fight Its my nature Either inherent or inherited
I dont give a fuck Im comfortable in my own skin

Im sorry if I distress you

You should try not to worry about me

Ive been on the planet longer than you 

Gives me a sort of seniorityhuh


she smiled at himtshe had this beatific smile a smile that understands  that encourages  that is accepting yet compelling

he hated when she smiled that smile at him because he couldnt be other than who he was even if he tried

she had to know that


he inhabited a wolf in sheeps clothing



woe to those who didnt see


1124, Twoday,  17  9. 19
1443,  Thursday,  14  11. 19

14.11.19




paraAmerica
               Rolls off the tongue like silkdon it  huh


perhaps he ought to feel ashamed by thinking it

butthen
         he was never ashamed of the truth



it came to possess him as he drove beside one of the sea to shining seas
                                                                             the Pacific  specifically
the stretch of 101 north of Santa Barbara

he had lifted his eyes to the rearview mirror to the noise of knobby offroad tires coming up fast behind him seventythree miles an hour isnt fast enough

offroad tires on the highway amused him a bent functionality  not particularly bright

however
          it wasnt his wallet which in itself also humoured him he didnt carry a wallet  an people afforded themselves extraordinary things  all the time


it was a matte desert camo-painted Toyota pickup

accelerating up on him it crossed into the passing lane without signaling just off his bumper 

maybe the driver thought he was Mad Max

he had to arrest an urge to hit his brakesforcing the driver to swerve on knobby tires he wondered how that might work out                                                                                           
arrested
          as the pickup sped loudly by him he saw the driver had removed the vehicles doors the driver wore matching camo pants and a sandcoloured tshirt

he was either a civilian mockedup or a GI mockedup civilian


no sooner had the marvelous ensemble passed him it crossed sharply in front of himperilously close

wisely he touched his brakescreated a comfortable space  the driver had probably caught him raised his ridiculeeyebrow reason why he didnt play poker

the driver didnt raise his eyes to his rearview mirror either he was too cool or oblivious but after all  he was trying to live in the drivers world
Excuse me all to hell

crossing as close as it did he saw mounted in a cage on its fanny beside a knobby spare tire two camoed five-gallon gas tanks

What crap he thought
that cinched it

nutted him up
               inviting him to cumblow a gasket


America
         is paraAmerica 

quietly hemorrhaging blatantly heroworshipping 

narcissistic

quasiNationalistic

phony militaristic  

paramilitaristic

parasitic


worse
            paraHuman 

1045,  Sunday,  10  9. 19
1111,  Thursday,  14  11. 19
The Sound  Skeletons  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4S_Ia24fjg4     

10.11.19

Ohbrother what was he supposed to do now

the Pharmacy closed in ten minutes

the pharmacist was a woman
                               he didnt know women were even interested in pharmaceuticals hed never seen a woman behind the counter before  granted  he spread his business around but never in any of the other drugstores he frequented did he meet a woman pharmacist

time was forcing his hand 
                           he couldnt make it to another drugstore before they closed

he had a hot date this evening  Cappy  curly raven hair  olive complexion  Italian  crazy body  theyd been aching from afarfriends for a year  enamoured  but the timing was never right  relationships  neither was free when the other was  until a week ago when her boyfriendidiot dropped her

when he caught wind of her being unattached he beat ass to her place to find out from Cappy herself no word of mouth for him

Cappy

Joe. How are you?

I think I might be elated

Elated?
Yah 
     she smiled real big what a beautiful mouth Why elated?   

Are you kidding me

Am I kidding you?

Youre killing me  

Ive heard youre free


Yes. Didn’t see that coming. Tommy got a hard-on for one of the twins that moved into town.

The Seagrams

Yes, the Seagrams.

How do you get a hard-on for one identical twin and not the other her smile began breaking down Or maybe Tom doesnt have to choose  Dig

You’re asking me if I dig? he broke up with me . .
 . An kicked the door open for you and I

Finally

her smile began to grow again
                               then she erupted in gay unbrooked laughter
she didnt cover her mouth
she had a beautiful mouth
                            full lips
white even teeth 
                  her old man must have spent a ton of dough on her mouth 

few kids in his neighbourhood were afforded pretty teeth big families needed food  crooked teeth chewed as good as straight teeth

when she came downwhen her wonderful laughter subsided tears in her eyes Yes, Joe.  Finally.

he got swept up in her Finally 
                              he got his right arm around herpulled her body up tight against his paused  looking her in the eyes HUUGE brown eyesflecked green he waondered in them he smiled she smiled warmlyshe didnt resist she put her arms around him he kissed her deeplyhed never kissed her before hed always wanted to his cock grew against her belly  she was aware  she held him tighter
they  kissed  deeper . . .



he and Cappy were going out on their third date 

the petting of their second date had them come out of their clothes in the back seat of his parents ninepassenger Town and Country Chrysler  he spread her legs he admired her  she looked asif she wanted to protest  Cappy Youre beautifulabsolutely beautiful she quieted  he motioned with his eyes and said Take the arm of the door she slowly raised her arms up over her head and took the door  Dont let go his voice was husky with passion Dont let go of it she glistened  then slowly  deliberately  he placed his hand on her he slipped one finger inside her she moved her hips against his hand he slipped his finger out teased her clit round and round slowly  she closed her eyes but not before she looked deeply into his and smiled then she smiled wantonly licentiously  whatever embarrassment she had it was flushed over and arrested by her passion she smelled wonderful he played with her clit chased it awkwardly  chased it accurately dug her face moving with mocked frustration as he teased her  then seriouslyadamantly when he found her spot

he went down on her lapped sucked her  she groaned while playing her with his mouth he slipped a wetted finger bitbybit in her ass she bucked he withdrew it he slipped two fingers bitbybit gently up her ass she groanedgrunted let go of the door with one hand flailing then finding his head she yanked his hairpulled his face tight to her his tongue deeper his fingers deeper inside her  she buckedbucked against his facehis fingers panted she panted buckedpantedgroaned panted OHshe gaspedgasped GASPED raucously she Ooohedshe came she squirted  My god she moaned then moaned animally emanating from deep deep inside her throat

he wanted to be inside her 
                              wanted
want is a good thing


finally she opened her eyesher hand still clutching his hair 

he smiled it was hidden by her mons pubis by wet lazy curls his eyes smiled 

she returned his smile

he licked her  a long slow  doglick from anus to clit then he kissed her clit hardkissed her once more between her wet parted legs

he nuzzled the insides of her thighs as he got up on his arms his knees

she let go of his hairreturned her hand to the door arm

she didnt take her eyes off his face he smiled at her 
                                                         then he turned his eyeshis attention to his cock
he gripped his erection and poked it against her ass her breath quickened he leaned against her paused  she held her breath  he dragged his cock slowly up to her pussy to her widespread lips pushed his cock down with his thumbthe head of his cocknestled nestled at her she pushed with her armspushed her bodyher pussy to receivetake to take him
he lifted his eyes to hers  they stared long

he let go of his cock it slapped up against his belly  she pouted  he smiled  she pouted more

hoarsely Careful A bird could perch on that pout Cappy But maybe thats my intention too

she laughedrather  cooed

he straightened her legs out between his then saddledslid up her hips to her belly  

Hold your tits Cappy squeeze them tight together My turn

she pressed their weight together  watched eagerly

he wanted to be eager too but didnt

he put his hands on the edge of the doorthe window was cold at his fingertips and slowlyever so slowly he fucked her tits watched her rapt attentionher focus on his cockher tongue working under her lipsthe tip of it parting them peeking receding Christ Christhe thought

                                                         then
                                                                    she purredturned her eyes up to his Fuck my tits, Joe. Fuck my tits. FuckmeJoe his hands went to the front benchto the seatback of the backseat  he thrusted thrusted  his nuts balled  a bolt gathered  he sexgrimaced Elvissneered  her eyes went madly between from his his cock his eyes cock eyescockeyescock  an she saw in his face  an lockanloaded on his cock he came ferociously a bolt struck her widowspeak a second bolt lasered a Z under her eyeacross the bridge of her noseacross her upper lip a third easing lashed her tits
                she opened her mouth he slipped up her tits between his thighs she grabbed his hipsgrabbed his ass
he thrusted thrusted  in her mouth



Well  later she said We certainly made a mess back here.

Yah his vision was finally untweaking  Yah we did

I like it, our mess. I like it a lot.she hadnt wiped off her face she noticed he noticed  she smiled big

she ran her tongue across her upper lips Hmmm. You ought to kiss me.

he didnt say Fuckyah he leaned forward and kissed her deeply their faces got mussed with his cum   would have been a great time for a cop to tap on the steamedup windows  to move them along





almost eightclosing time  

like it or not she was the gatekeeper 

who spends five minutes picking out a pack of gum  actually he picked out three  Clove Beemans Black Jack

I have to close in five minutes the pharmacist said

Yes I know

Ill take the gum and a half dozen rubbers

she seemed to be watching the words come out of his mouth her eyes opened wide at rubbers quickly she asked  Condoms?

You say condoms I say rubbers potato potatto  Yah

she smiled Yes.

he was a bit uncomfortable but he summonsed his best poker face  it definitely was enabled by the thought of poking her  penetrating Cappy

Which condom did you want?

Which condom do you prefer

she gulped

                  I prefer the ribbed ones; they help, ah pleasure . . a woman.

Im game Your ribbed ones please

she smiled largeshe brushed a lock of red hair from above her eye off her forehead

Well get you locked up on time he looked  on her breast was a nametag Angel she had nice breasts under her palegreen tunic went well with her green eyes he hadnt noticed earlier actually very nice breasts and eyes

she blushed
              maybe female pharmacists can read minds I like your candor; I like that you’re using, using sounds coarse, nevermind, that you’re being smart.

Im not often accused of being smart Thank you Angel

No. You are. I wish more boys . . no, you’re not a boy . . a young man, I wish more young men bought – there – bought, not used, condoms.

she was the one who now was uncomfortable they swapped  You get a kickback for recommending the ribbed condoms

Oh goodness, no.

Well there ought to be something in it for you Youre dispensing practicaltried and true advice she blushed Your recommendation has sold me on doing business with only youwith this drugstore yaknow for all my health needs

Thank you. Six, correct?

Lets make it a dozen

A dozen? a smiled curled over her mouth  A dozen.

Yah I think so 
I suppose Ill see you inside a week he smiled  You work evenings Angel hurriedly My names Joe  he didnt want to seem overt  improper

I do . . Joe.

Look at us On a first name basis

I prefer first names You Takes the formality out of a relationship Cements it

he extended his hand to her Angel So very nice to meet you

she accepted it Joe

then shaking over one another they chorused Nice grip

still holding hands they laughed together




when Tommy came crawling back to Cappy  crying apologising after he found out that she was enthusiastically seeing Joe  seeing one of two identical twins seemed wearying Tommy couldnt tell them apart 

Cappy decided to go back with Tommy Fuck

I love him.

You love him Then its right for you

Yes. Thank you, Joe. You have always said, always wanted, what was right, felt right, for me.

Cappy I want honesty  

And honestly  Ill miss what we shared

It was crazy nice

Crazy nice? It was insane! you turned me inside out! I can’t function inside out. I need something more staid, I’m sorry. But that’s who I am.

Knowing who you are is the battle

It is, isn’t it?

It is




before he left for Miami a year later  after Cappy  after Jane after Janeyafter Janeys voracious Karmann Ghia convertiblewha the fuck was her name built  must be Jello cuz jam dont shake like thatBECKY  OhJesus  Becky

after Cappy  in some nice crazy way  Angel

she did dig the ribbed condoms
                                 when they werent otherwise entertained embroiled  roiled  crazed

she was the only redhead he was ever with
     

1439,  Reggae Friday,  8  11. 19
1604,  Saturday,  9  11. 19

Sugarloaf  Green-Eyed Lady  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_i7PKdQJU4

9.11.19



whats lost todayif one didnt have a clue he thought most didnt though he held himself to a high bar anif he could make it over the top so should others  lost  were rites of passage

talking with mencontemporaries younger 
                                           few could say they had stood up in a dark theatre trying  in a hushed voice imploring their date to return to their seat beside them  Gina, aww comon, baby; I was just having a little fun witcha.  Gina. Baby. Comon back.   or Mo  or Addie  Babette ouch she was something else  Sue theres always a Sue or Suzy COMON . . I WAS JUST HAVING A LITTLE FUN.  Davida Kaahrist what a rack 
                                                                                 standing up in the seat aisle  a bright celebrated waxen bucket of popcorn  the last of its contents dumping out onto the floor  hanging from their cock
against their thighs 
                      a rite of passage
                                         as a young teenager buying a condom from a drugstore pharmacist the condoms then  were kept behind the counter
                                      or WOW buying a condom from a female pharmacist  who knew women pursued degrees in pharmaceuticals


or once upon a time men of the Maasai tribe of Kenya and Tanzania proving themselves underwent emorata  an unanesthetised circumcision anif that isnt a bridge too far  it is also believed a boy to become a man a warrior  has to kill a lion with a spear
                       Does anybody know how few men there would be in America if they had to kill a lion with a spear

It aint like eating the worm from a bottle of Mescal

Is it?


Impregnating a womanhaving a baby  aint a rite of passage



Making obscene amounts of money aint it either




What rites are had to prove a man or a woman in America
                                                                                he hadnt a fucking clue 

though he shared popcorn at theatres with many women
bought condoms from female pharmacists
eaten worms from Mescal
did drugs that killed friends and acquaintances


rite?


1424,  Reggae Friday,  8  11. 19
1153,  Saturday,  9  11. 19
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