8.1.19

an ass is an ass is an ass




What wouldst thou know, my Queen?

Mirror, mirror on Wall, who is the fairest one of all?

1719,  Twosday,  8  1. 19
PS  I havent even heard his braying tonight . . . but an ass is an ass



a spider is a spider is a spider  is a neuron  sometimes a roving neuronbut make no mistake a spider is a neuron
its hundredsthreaded web is a construct of synapses which feed subtle inputs identifiying prey deliberating rents violations holes in its vital continuity curious fingerings which strum its neural strings 



it occurred to him one brisk morninghe wasnt going to pay attention to the house temperatureclose the windows  52 brisk but not too cold the window in the bathroom was open he had a warm showeronce the shower curtain was closed and he was under water the enclosed spacehe was sure wasnt 52  far warmer how you think of things is more than half the battle far warmer

he turned the water off and pulled back the curtain there was a mist in the air that visually movedswirled when the wind breathed through the window he toweled his upper body dry stood on either leg drying his legs then stepped out of the tub onto the bath matthe mist disassembling

as was his practise since he notice appleseed years ago  she seemingly etched in the corner of the ceiling above the sink replaced now by yaaintnoappleseed he liked to think that yaaint was an offspring of appleseeds it comforted him to think so
            as was his practise he looked into appleseeds corner and yaaint was immobilefront an center on silvered weave that was larger than he knew and he could see that each of yaaints legs stood on separate strands

curiously he blew to yaaints leftwatched the threads tremblewatched the tensionthe attitude in yaaint  false alarm

fascinated he repeated blowing into yaaints web a couple more times the results the same and readying to blow a fourth time suddenlyinstead he held his breath his lungs filled he could feel his breaths sensation inside himprickling him then it occurred to him  yaaint was a neuron

a perfect neuron

                  perfected nearly fourhundredmillion years ago


1534,  Thursday,  3  1. 19
1100,  Twosday,  8  1. 19

there is no crisis there is no emergency theres a FAKER


4000 terrorist are streaming across Americas southern borderhmm  4000  like Pences ten-a-day  

No there isnt 

Theres a sham being perpetrated although we ought to be used to shams

This crisis and emergency is consistent with the wholesale widespread Voter Fraud America needs to be defended against
          all those illegitimate black voters
LIES


1027,  Twosday,  8  1. 19
740 days remaining or less

6.1.19



Happy Friday rather happy reggae Friday

the fella looked perplexedbemused confused  he would have guessed him to be younger than himself though physically not up to stripe dropped the ball as if there was nothing to be hadnothing to chase he wore a heavy braided gold chain around his neck maybe thats what he chased  Huh? Reggae Friday? Never heard that.

You know what its beauty is

Beauty?

Yes

I don’t, feel like I walked into a joke . .
. . Hendrix 

Hendrix?

Along the watchtower  there are many here among us who feel that Life is but a joke but thats getting away from the beauty of this

I’m lost.

Happy Friday segues nicely into happy new year man

Ah. yes, happy New Year.

Thank you you believe its Nineteen

No, I can’t.

Came pretty quickhuh

Quick isn’t the word, it’s surreal. I remember when I was a kid I thought Twentytwenty was the future.

As a matter of fact . . . I thought I’d be dead . .
. . You got time

Thanks! he wasnt amused  guys game crawled on its belly

Frankly I suppose it comes down to . .
. . The glass? Halfempty, halffull . .
. . Or the glass isnt . .
. . You know, my old man said that wasn’t the question.

No

No. My old man was a physicist. He’d say that it wasn’t a matter of the glass being either half-empty or half-full. He said the damn glass wasn’t big enough.


1909,  Friday,  4  1. 19
1803,  Sunday,  6  1. 19
Tricky  Nothing’s Changed  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jlwku6e7AhE
Hendrix  All Along the Watchtower  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLV4_xaYynY

5.1.19



he was a bit unnervedhe wasnt often unnerved 
                                                 but while waiting at a light to take a leftlistening to the Beatles Drive My Car he glanced suddenlyright as he recognised the sensation of being watched  

in the boxy vehicle beside himfor some reason he imagined it a Mercedes-Benz van  he didnt care for their look  the new Benzs were awkward misshapen appeared disproportionate  topheavy 


he was wrong 

it was a Postal truck
                      and from its righthand drivers seat a female mailman was looking him at him looking him over 

he looked away 

she wasnt discreet 


he glanced againOhbrother she was still eyeing him

he glanced againthey crossed glances crossed glances are like crossed swords like thrown gauntlets  a challenge
who didnt like a challenge

he turned and looked back at her 

she was still looking at him where was I Saw Her Standing There granted he could only see her breasts up  but what he saw interested him

a dark mop freckles dimplesyes her smile forced his


when the light turned green she wasnt fast off the mark

he went left and threw a tidy uturn before the approaching traffic and nestled into the lefthand turn lane and waited at the red

she evidently saw his manoeuvre he watched her slowly make her way into the righthand lane  

as he watched she threw on her flashers and pulled off to stop at the side of the road a Postal truck stopped at the side of the road wasnt unusual  although if someone was observant they would have seen there werent any mailboxs along the road where the truck had stopped

as the light went green and he proceeded to make a left he saw that she had gotten out of the truck and stood behind it legs partedhands on her hips 

she wasnt shy

she was confident

she was smiling

a smiling confident woman was sexy


he got rightslowed then turning his flashers onslowing furthur he pulled over to the side of the road just ahead of the truck and stopped

he watched traffic through his sideview rearview mirrors  he watched it over his shoulder  when it was safe for him to exit the 4Runner he got out onto the street

she had walked up on him and stood beside the 4Runner

crossing between the vehicles he smiled  Can I help you

she smiled coyly Does it look like I need help?

he walked onto the shoulder of the road and up to her leaves crunching underfoot were muted by a fresh spate of brilliant green grass that grew from the recent rains  It looked like you needed something an that made me curious If I could Id like to help

A knight in shining armour?helping a damsel in distress?

No Youre certainly not a damsel in distress

I couldn’t be a damsel?

Ah mademoiselle no  Your rights have been won  You can even have a soul if you like

Well, shit, I certainly know how to pick em. A prince, a thoughtful man. she laughed  she didnt cover her mouth

he laughed with her


Then I have been chosen

Ooh.

That’s a fine question, have you been chosen?

And chosen for what



Maybe that’s up to you?


Why did you stop?

Im curious by nature a road not taken goes nowhere  And I liked your earnest expressionyour interest

Interest?

Interest


Youre interested

Otherwise we wouldnt be standing here talking

My names Joe

I’m Giselle.

So Giselle perhaps my takemy mademoiselle wasnt off

No, it wasn’t. I was born in Arles. Maman is French, my father is Irish. We moved here when I was ten.

Arles

Yes. Oui.

Youre bilingual

Yes. Oui.


When are you free

1610,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  1. 19
1224,  Saturday,  5  1. 19
The Beatles  Drive My Car  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfSQkZuIx84
Joy Division  I Remember Nothing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YtgzIQEX-M

4.1.19


So what did I miss You were herethen you were gone

It’s a party.

Yes But I brought you to the party

So I’m obliged to you for the duration of it?

No  You were talkingwe were mixing with others then I looked up and you were gone And you were gonenot inside not outside at least fifteen minutes that I recognised . .
. . Are you keeping tabs on me?

No  As I said When I noticed I hadnt seen you



Where were you


Is that important?

Its important because I brought youyou dont recognise that Im responsible to you  and for you

That’s so old school.

Courtesy isnt old

You’re ridiculous.


If Im ridiculous humour me  Where were you

I was with Ben.

I saw you talking with him earlier before you went missing  So you were talking with Ben . .
. . Yes.

And

What? You asked me if I was talking with Ben.


Talking with Ben and being absent are connected

No.

No


Our friendship is based on honestyfriendships are based on honesty An I have a sense that No is  is is you being dishonest with me discarding inconvenient facts

You gotta know?

You had to lie


Ben made love to me in the garage. she smiled eversoslightly pleased


he was shockedhurt  No Ben fucked you   Get your things Im taking you home

Ill go home with Ben.

Bens not here her eyes bugged she looked quickly around the livingroom stepped aside looking into the kitchenthrough it to the diningroom beyond then without looking at him she said Im not going home with you.

Suit yourselfyoure on your own

What? You’d leave me here?

As you prefer

Goddammit, you’re black and white.

Some things are black and white  Lying   The truth


You disappoint meyou chose to be dishonest she finally looked at him  Ill drop you off at home if you like  Im not asking again


We can talk about it in the car . . 
. . Theres nothing to talk about

tears welled up in her eyes That’s it?

Thats it



Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  1. 19
1319,  Thursday,  3  1. 19

a personal note


the two pieces that follow this non-post should be regarded as modest paver stones that eventually will to lead to the graveyard and tombstone of American white male privilege and power 

they were offered ample opportunity to meld resourcefully with the rest of Mankinde but they bitched they wouldnt
they believe their reign is perpetual 

anxiously Ill follow the stones


                                                       a National EmergencyNO
what happened to the National Emergency the opioid epidemic  

No an epic break with reality


FAKER tries and tries and tries to pretend he commands more than he does coequal branches of government




Im so over this selfish braying assspoiled child  and those who support him

1348,  Friday,  4  1. 19
744 days remaining or less


phoney baloney


FAKER  Wall   the Four cloned Baldmen of the Apocalypse

all in all a feeble childish attempt to usurp the Nations attentionthe Fourth Estates  a poor attempt to minimise Nancy Pelosis rise to the House Speakership a historic second time for the 116th Congress  but also the happy celebration of a Democratic House majority to now provide oversight that was neglected the past two years and the more than one hundred women who will serve during the Centennial year of women suffrage  earning the right to vote 


1147,  Friday,  4  1. 19

3.1.19


he might be nutshes been accused but it seemed to him Chinese Japanese and Korean ears were more sensitive to sound than Americans

he watched filmlotsa film
                           however hed been on a streak of foreign films as opposed to domestic America was shrinkwrapping its senses with comicbook superheroes babysisters handling sidearmsable to knock out a newts eye at thirtyfeet brothers speedingswinging expertly through downtown traffic in hi-octane cars and neighbourhood geeks suddenlycool wavinround unexpected skills  cars crashes  buildings blowing up  simple folk faced with annihilation
CG orgies
             dramatic content  nil


perhaps sound is due to the nature of explosions the spittlelaced swearing chestthumping bravado

yet despite orchestrated cacophony wired Asians acrobatic fights frenzied swordplay flying daggers Ninja throwing stars
       their sound didnt scorch his ears

he usually kept his theatres Volume at 50

for American films he had to turn it up to 58 60 in order to hear  

he dialed Asian films down to 45 43

recently he compared 13 Assassins and House of Flying Daggers to Lucky#Slevin not a particularly boisterous flick
44 versus 57

Rashomon 42

Crime Wave 55

The Man from Nowhere 45

The Big Combo 53

Serenity 61

Late Spring 43



What gives?


maybe he was just losing his shit


2052,  Monday,  31  12. 18
1229,  Thursday,  3  1. 19


sand and death Syria  shithole countries


                               “I would look foolish if I did that.” shutdown   the FAKE PRESIDENT would look foolish
“I” 

a president isnt an “I”


1109,  Thursday,  3  1. 19 

2.1.19


     you wouldnt want to play Duck Duck Goose with him anymore than youd want to play Musical Chairs with him he brought a brick in his schoolbag  his handeye coordination was unhooked  could drop a kid in his tracks across the circle from him 

he was small fast agile he didnt mind getting hurtdidnt mind blowin someone up if he had to to win playing fields are never level

but thats what a life of punishment or correction to be like others gets ya

Do you have to learn the hard way? his mother asked him his grandmother asked him and when his father got home unbuckled his belt Son, it seems youre gonna learn the hard way. he didnt say Get on with it although it must have shown in his face a glint in his eyes for his defiance he took a couple more straps across his bare ass even attempts to humiliation him didnt cut it  and when his ass grew accustomgrew numb to spankings his father took the belt to the back of his thighs was that supposed to wake him up Maybe that will wake you up. dont speak until youre spoken to didnt mean you had to speak  no you didnt

he kept his own counsel
                         who knows your mind more than you a matter of ethics  No Soliciting No Exceptions he was really fond of Trespassers Will Be Violated


pain passes
             he chided Certainly brings ya into the presentthe Here an Now  Like nothing else Mind over matter  If ya dont mind it dont matter

if someones pain was chronic he could be persuaded to be compassionate 

his compassion was hard won had a small window

he was knocked for it


what else was new



addictions come in all shapes and sizes

1847,  Monday,  31  12. 18
1243,  Twosday,  1  1. 19
Bruce Cockburn  Don’t Forget About Delight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTpfWDY6T7o

1.1.19




The New Year just keeps bringing us the old year
                                                    he wrote that in a note to his brother-in-law he also stuffed the envelope with newspaper and magazine articles to substantiate his proposition to wave under his siblings noses

he knew how they thoughtthat they were intractable he knew his brother-in-law was reticent to upset themhe didnt want to challenge them However its alright that they challenge you he might sayhe didnt that would be rhetorical Ah the sublime tyranny of family    

his brother-in-laws siblings were like the knuckleheads he knew and faced down at every opportunity they gave him mistakenly thinking that because he was outnumbered that hed shaddupHA  idiots  very white Republican they believed as the House Freedumb Causus did  they were a clutch of mynah birds rahrahs regurgitating party lines  theyd would have made great Cold War comrades 

their nonsensical answer to his counterarguments was he ought to quit reading  Quit reading history and live in the present. Stop living in the past.    

try as he mayan he did he couldnt get it through their thick skulls that history is a ladder they werent where they werenot in their highfalutin present as they called it if others hadnt stepped on and climbed up historys lower rungs
                     
That's so much bullshit! 
                          Hmm evidently ignorance has wings you could quote him if you like

he paraphrased a line from the book How Fascism Works he was readingsinful as that may be Corruption to fascists is the corruption of purity rather than the law

Purity over law he asked them  they bobbleheaded him You wouldnt want to be judged in the same light bobbleheads 
We wouldn’t be. We’re right. 

the righteous have a blindside as big as a side of a barn 

no of course they wouldnt be judged in kind it wouldnt be allowed
                                                                        had to be a fine place to park ones ass


Any of you ever read Orwell Animal Farm 1984

You’re living in the past, man, lost in the past.


1737,  Monday,  31  12. 18
1017,  Twosday,  1  1. 19
Warren Zevon  Lawyers, Guns and Money (reallyreally good lawyers please)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2HH7J-Sx80