something changed out the lid

changed itperhaps  to the familiarthe less-threatening  no clouds  nothing but blue skies coming my way

there wasnt a cloud in the skynot a single curl or waft 

blue    blue       bluer skies

                         surrounded by blue skies in every fuckin direction it was  BLUE   it was disorienting(it reminded him of diving off a sailboat at an actresss behest into the brilliant pearlyblue caldera off Santorini in the Aegean Sea an having to follow his bubbles updistinguishing up from downwhere the surface an his breath could be found)  saving a barebreasted maiden from drowning was unexpected  an enticing   then the absinthethe disco in a cave  insane   he just wished he had some hashish to join Baudelaire I have felt the wings of madness flutter above my head   instead  an insanely beautiful Greekrocked out of her gourd straddled himlifted her blouseheld her breastsrubbed them against his face he suckled her he supposedhe didnt understand her language but she didnt pull away when he sought her deepbrown erect nipples she gyrated on his lap feeling his hardon against her groinperhaps her clit it was a breathlessthen a heavingbreath encounter he came to their grindingshe shuddered maybe she did or maybe she didnt she may have been a good actress but he unseated hertook her to the edge of the throbbing dance floor in a dark corner she took him in her mouth he marveled at her beautyher wide eyes her awareness of his awareness  he bought her a drink to cleanse her palate they laughedtoasting in different languages she wandered back onto the writhinglaserlit dance floor          

somethings are unforgettable when youre rocked

reflective blue skies can be like that if you pay attention          

1157,  Saturday,  18 11. 17

Doris Day  Blue Skies  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K01YNsa_8m8

the sky looked like a lid something slipped overhead an tapped firmly into place  strange echoes  reverberations

a quieted distant dullthrobbing thunder  

it was creamy  wavy  crenelated  whipped with sliver grey white an black braids  daubed shockingblue with sharp crests brilliant white highlights

it was asif they an he were tossed into a container like captured bugs an hurriedly covered so we couldnt escape

we didnt know we could 

                   where would we go when we escaped
Go!  Find out

What if we didnt like it

Then why did you leave

I dont knowmebbe I wasnt satisfied

An you could carve satisfaction out of where you were

I  I dont know   I . .

. . You

I . .

. . You youve said   What about you

Mebbe  I didnt try hard enough                        

Mebbe   Since its you talking about you I have a hard time accepting mebbeeither you did or you didnt   you know   you would know more than I    Did you or didnt you

I havent given it any thought

Then before you escape know that you cant return

Everything you know will be behind you and everything youre to learn will be ahead of you

Its not escaping if you can go back

he turned around an around on the sidewalk beside the busy street the parkway of tall autumnal trees coloured leaves striated with naked branches making himself dizzy  he watched at the edges of the lidthe horizonwatched to see if a crack appeared a soft lazy yawn  a slender opportunity to take  to escape    to escape

                                                                                escape

hed miss bits of it 

              but the bits could never ever come together an make up the wholean entirety   they werent even enough to thrown down in fast water to allow him steppingstones across it  the bits either swept away immediately or they quivered were unsubstantial  he feared they wouldnt hold his weight keep him up   anthen those were swept away while he wrest with his indecision   then the decision was made for himan he could shrug nonchalant  accepting it   for the time being   until the next time

when youve done enough next times youre only actingyoure going through the motions

youre crying wolf

youre lying to yourself

he turned round an round  watching

there 

           there  anTHEREhe lurched  bugwings erupted out of his back an he flew dead on into a gap that opened briefly

no one paid attention if he made it or not

they werent going anywhere

they were content  trapped   an captured 

 

              

1239,  Thursday,  16  11. 17

Coil  Heaven’s Blade  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuP3Kgej9zQ  (it’s even better when you play it over itself with a delay just long enough to open another youtube Coil’s  Heaven’s Blade window and play)

Murray Head  Say It Ain’t So  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hW9tq9ImRTg