9.7.17





The world will always be what it has always been. Luck rules our lives.



Luck
       he hadnt spent time with his brother-in-lawbrother-in-law by marriage to his wifes sister not a brother-in-law who married one of his sisters  a bloodline cleaved nearer the heart(youd think)
                                                                  they hadnt spent time together since his brother-in-law sided with his wife(necessarily – he had to live with her – although if he had disagreed with his wife he ran it out hard and in no-uncertain-terms)(old adage  go along to get along)(fuck old adages)  they sided against him  and by virtue of his marriage  harshly against his wife too  his sister-in-law shrieked at him Fuck youGet the fuck off my property  You can tell my sister she wont be seeing her nephews again

he thought his words then were Fuck youyou spiteful cunt

his brother-in-law had moments earlier emerged walked up into that storm and rage and he triedhe really tried to step into the fray against himagainst calling his wife a spiteful cunt 

he gave him a sharp look stopped him in his tracks  then out of the side of his face he snarled Your wifes a cunt  and thats your problem


as it was his sister-in-law was good to her word 

she was a stalwart member of the communitya successful high school teacherone of the suspension cablesone of the fibers the small rural town hung by

he and his wife and children were newly-arrived  unknown

thats called leverage




eight years later his wife died seeing only her eldest nephew once  after he graduated high school and made it known to his parents that he wanted to see his aunt before he entered the Air Force


she never saw her other two nephews


then eleven years later his brother-in-laws wife died


that was four years ago



they finally had that beer they long talked about  blowing a grey crepe of dust and ash off its cool head before imbibing 

as they drank his brother-in-law kept referring to their meeting as a putsch(the guy and his vocabulary)  couldnt shake him off the terminology  I hope Trump doesnt have operatives skulking around about here 

I dont think this townNo  It aint connected despite what local Republicans might think
Theyre small friesthe proverbial big fish in a dribbling pond
Yaknow

Yaneverknow


No   I suppose youre right    Yaneverknow    But I do know theres a white supremacy group in next town north  Read about them on the Southern Poverty Law Center website  Besides we aint nothing akin to what I seem to recall
the beer hall putsch Hitler convened  a failed coup attempt  which is probably a discerned pronouncement of the luck youve been bantering on about  a luck that eventually germinated  or German-nated generated  Mein Kampf


Yeah   I seem to remember something about that too  My world history is lousy

Not as lousy as mine  I never had a good history teacher in school   I lay my historical ignorance at their feet  But the older I get the more interested I am in history  History on my terms I suppose

his brother-in-law smiled  As luck would have it


Sure  As luck would have it   And the world will be as its always has been


1101,  Saturday,  8  7. 17

Ngũgĩ wa Thiong'o  Wizard of Crow
Kendrick Lamar  The Spiteful Chant  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISFUG005Flg

8.7.17



he still locked the place down as if she lived there


she hadnt in a year



want?    desire?he tripped himself up  he didnt live by things that were unnecessary

need outstripped want


he deferred to his needs                             


habit?




before she was in his life he left his firstfloor apartment unlocked

he didnt haveto his mind anything anyone else would want

nobody stole books or records or artwork off walls


and should anyone break in while he was home

he didnt joke
           hed have enough to eat for weeks


others thought he joked


No
        he had a boss in Montana  worked for his inventory service  who taught him on the side how to butcher  how to bisect an animal cleave it into pieces then render cutlets steaks ribs meatbones
he taught him well

itd been a long time since hed been over half a cow a pig a lamb

but like learning how to ride a bike
                             after a few minutes to refamiliarise himself
itd be as if hed never been away from it


no joke

if someone took it upon themselves to violate his spacea precious inviolable space
no apologises could be offered    
or would be accepted



it was almost beyond him that he took deliberate pain to render their house impregnable

he could feel the tingle at his spine and in his hands to leave it wide open  daring trespass

above his desk hung a sign that he stole off a barbedwire fence in Montana
black letters painted on a whitewashed board 
                                     TRESPASSERS WILL BE VIOLATED    

as close to a mantra hed ever admit to chant
                                      trespassers would be violated      


0028 and 1134,  Friday,  7  7. 17

Killer Mike (feat. Emily Panic)  Anywhere But Here  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3BmqGtZtDGk