in the middle of the Mojave(or Mohave) off the 58 was slender billboard

stated in clean black letters: Behold I stand at the door and knock . . 

                                                      . . I hear you knockin  but you cant come in

I hear you knockin  go back where you been . . .  

everyone with a spit of a brain knows that only He Beholdsthink about it    when was the last timeor ever has a friend or acquaintance a family member said to you Behold(he didnt count  he took cheapshots at religionall religions whenever he could  even in the most tangential tortured opportunities  because he believed  his faith demanded  when religion professes love and then was complicit or rahrahed the murder of people who didnt share their faith that faith should be excoriated venally  without mercy   without any blush of sympathy)

BEHOLD

OH BULLSHIT

only Christ was gonna knock at your door and pronounce Behold

                                                 then he had Dave Edmunds queued up in his head to play loudly to drown out Christs repeated knocks(He didnt take a hint) and His deepening Beholds

to each his own has legs

                    and if He kept pounding at his door hed use his legs to give Him a swift kick in the asswith either leg(he played soccer at the collegiate level)

Yes  he was a might bit sensitive to Gods and Religion

untold billions have diedwere slaughtered by religious zealots  only because they could

only because they could

he couldnt imagine anything more stupidmore insipid than Faith and the Faithfull of shit

conceived afternoon, Thursday,  13  4. 17

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“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.” KJV Revelations 3:20

Dave Edmunds  I Hear You Knocking  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ry2td7q5ZMc

Lee Michaels  Do You Know What I Mean  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YY9iVKQPeXA

Ryan Goslingfucked-up sings Relax with Frankie Goes to Hollywood for the next five days – Im off to see if I can recreate the world an beat Gawd at His own game

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFyq5IVbzIQ

 early Sunday morning,  9  4. 17

interspersed with Pharrell Williams  Happy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbZSe6N_BXs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPXnIkjAfyE

“Let em get high  Let em get stoned  Everything will be alright if you let it go”

he caught Mondo Cozmo(who the hells that? cat named Josh Ostrander an a.k.a. his working pseudonym  suppose ya gotta be catchygotta POP! fuck) playing acoustic in Tijuana

albeit it said with music  its what hed been telling family and friends for a coons ageall the fuckin clutchin and turned inside out over decisions made then agonizin over them over an over an fuckin over again as if someone someday was gonna point a finger like a .357 accusin em of somethin that flickered only inside their heads like a bad lamp throwin misguided shadows fugitives and disfigured specters  Christ

he walked em out onto the street waggled his old leather wallet in their faces tapped em on the chinnot too hardmake em flinch and say See this  See this  Dont see a wallet  See it as a decision or some horsehaired knot that binds youdisturbs only you  Got it!  You got it. 

then hed drop it on the ground 

                         then he backed away and backing off hed say Let the damn thing layLet it go  Let it lay

Walk away Let it go

hed leave them standing there as he turned and walked away  

he was willing to leave it

not a damn thing he couldnt replace

theyd coming running up behind him with the wallet in their hand I see  I see what youre saying

Thank you  he took it from their hands  But if you really saw youdve left the damn thing on the street an opportunity for someone to do something right

Shine was the first song in a long time that caught his attention

he wasnt much for lyrics with music

music like a picture painted thousands an thousands of words

1245,  Friday,  7  4. 17

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