26.10.16



growing up in Chicago how couldnt a disaffected teenage paperboy not find hero-worship for SDSs Tom Hayden Freedom Rider Port Huron statementer  howl and cheer his part in the Chicago 8 standing against the Machines Boss Mayor Daley sitting(bound gagged and chained) shameful Judge Julius(Caesar) Hoffman and defended by the reeling razorsharp attorney William Kunstler(he wanted a Cunstler)
                                               how couldnt a disaffected teenager recognise Bobby Seales courtroom plight recognise then the validity of the Black Panther Party for Self Defence created after Malcolm Xs assassination and then understand all the more keenly appreciate that these black Oakland California men celebrated Womanism and associated with Whoa! Whos that? Angela Y. Davis  her afro jacked him her intellect jacked him and years and years later she remained the only black woman he ever formed a crush on (what pinned his crush was his unmitigated relish that she was apprehended by (suspect J Edgars) FBI in a New York City Howard Johnsons Motor Lodge -- Friday Nights All-You-Can-Eat fried clams baby -- manna) 


in 2015 at a conference on Vietnam Haydens keynote remarks cited that there must be a persistent struggle for memory and for history  they were living things on-going and did not end

his words caused him pause 

the day before Hayden died  curiously  he wriote a piece where he declared that he didnt spell America A-M-E-R-I-C-A but A-M-N-E-S-I-A



so despite his agonising his bitching his teen-angst of having to live in Chicago itching to begone

he did keep his eyes open

he was vigilant
            OH the things he saw the things he remembered keenly 

things that some people to-day are trying to rewrite


it made him wonder who the anonymous person was hed hand off to



1834,  Monday,  24  10. 16
2254,  Twosday,  25  10. 16
 

25.10.16



concrete curbs given blackface by yellow school bus tires

their drivers cant seem to gauge where the curbs are so they hit them


they aint paying for the rubber


they make me worry for their articulation while theyre in traffic

loose command of their vehicle probably suggests no command inside it

heads down avoiding the mouths

get from spot to spot and be over with it for another day



he drove truck for years

you know your vehicle and the space it needs

if he was driving a school bus and couldnt command the respect due a driver

their zip respect  --  kids aint going anywhere

they can sit on their asses till the cows come home


or they can walk



he was there to drive

not babysit

how is it babies ride in a bus by themselves


its common courtesy


hed invoke Keseys Youre either on the bus or off the bus

you dont know

flip a coin


his bus would belch the Beatles from its tailpipes I He You Me All Us One 
 
Goo goo g'joob g'goo goo g'joob goo goo g'joob g'goo goo g'joob g'goo everybody knows that   



1408,  Saturday,  22  10. 16
Beatles  I Am the Walrus  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BrtXl9xgh9M