Stravinsky said I had only my ear
to help me; I heard and I wrote what I heard. I am the vessel through
which The Rite (of Spring) passed.
he was getting a lot of that
recently reading it hearing it
he said it wrote it deferred to it
vessel
it sounded nice
a vessel(vassal eruiopted in his
ears someone accusing him)(he even looked
around for who may have howled it his
eyes falling on his housecat who wandered into the study out the hallway)
Givin me a hard time indie
oblivious indie continued in up
to him then jumped up into his lap and laid down
every cat he ever had preferred
his lap and when there were five in the
houseWHEN he was left with five cats he literally had to dole his lap out and
it wasnt unlike them once he set them down they begrudged him and went around to the end of a nonexistent
line though a line it was
always first up was Stormy the dame
she was the runt of her litter and
he might have called her a runt if they all werent
but they were
each
and every one
Storm
Smellycat Bajus Puka Tigger
he came home from work and the
cattery that was their house adopted another without asking him or for his input
argument or benediction
then what is now that bitched common
precept It is what it is that spat-harangue he wished had a neck so he
could grab it by its throat and choke and shake it to death
Yes I resent it
it was what it was as long as he didnt
have to share his bed with them
and he didnt
though very curiouslyand hed
admit as much indie slipped into bed or
beat him to bed at night and he didnt mind
Whaddafuck
was that
maybe because he was one animal and he wasnt the runt
his sister Lo was the runt and their
first-time mother Link took off with her the second day Lo was alive
the next door neighbours little girl
found Lo three days later dying nestled in some ivy groundcover under bushes not
twenty meters from their house
out of cat earshot
Link cared for her other three
kittens extremely well
he supposed Los abandonment was simple
animal logic indie and his remaining sister
and brother Sevvy and Bentley benefited by Los exclusion a lost cause is lost cause big brains are antagonised by simple
premises their emotions aroused
he took Lo from the little girl set
her in his lap(as undoubted she would prefer) and sat with her until she died a
couple of hours later
Arent you going to take her to the vet
the little girl asked tears in her eyes
No
You wont save her
No
Why wont you save her
Because something inside her is wrong
And while this seems cruel(A learning
lesson passed in his thoughts) this is only another aspect of living and Life
Shes going to die
She is
she mumbled over her weeping And
you wont save her
I am not stepping in between what
Los mother did according to her instincts
I accept her decision
maybe it was because he could accept
an animals decision that he was benefited being a vessel a creative
a hearer of words occurring to him from somewhere
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