What do you have
Nuthin
Nothing Let me see nothing
he dropped his clasped hands to
his hip turning his body aside following the lead of his hands
Its nuthin
Please Id like to see your nothing
Nuthins nuthin yaknow
I know what nothing means to
me
he held his hands up in front of himself outstretching his fingers
See Thats nothing
Let me see the nothing in your
hands
he stood retained his
profile
Why
Why not why wouldnt you let me
see what you havent in your hands
I mean to say
its nuthin to me
Then its probably nothing to me too
Unless it isnt
Unless it isnt
Dont be coy let me see what you have
I dont know coy
Sly
You grasp what sly means
Im not sly or coy
Let me see
Why should I
Because I asked and since youre
here with me I have obligations responsibilities youll not force me to
forego by being stubborn Or disobedient
Ive asked nicely
So please
Letmesee
Alright but you have to protect your eyes
I dont see that youve protected
your eyes
My eyes werent good to start with
You know Theyre bad I aint wearin my glasses am I
No I forgot
You forgot because you dont see
me very often Youre really busy Maw says Too busy to see me until you want and
then I cant be busy and not see you
It must be real nice to do what
you want
Okay I hear you
How do I protect my eyes
Since you got real good eyes you got sunglasses
I havent sunglasses
You dont like them do you I seemto remember
You remember correctly
There Over there
he pointed to a broken brown bleach bottle laying in the dirt and patched grass
That should help might do it
he pointed to a broken brown bleach bottle laying in the dirt and patched grass
That should help might do it
Help
Yeah Its bright
Bright
Uhhuh
the boy held the posture he
assumed torqued sideway
it was just past dusk
if he held something bright cupped
in his hands it wasnt apparent
bright also suggested heat
and yet the boy didnt seem
uncomfortable holding nothing
Okay Helluva a place out in the open for broken
bottles glass
Boys come down around here and
break bottles with their slingshots I
see them I watch them They sound like theyre havin fun I watchem from the trees above They dont know Im there
Im real quiet so they dont know
Im real quiet so they dont know
he was born with congenital
defects
kids never warmed up to his
afflictions
he was slow-moving
he wast smart
kids knew what they wanted or
didnt and kids around here usually got
what they wanted and didnt what they didnt
those his age enforced his
thinking to not want to be there
he didnt mind their trouble
though he didnt usually end up holding the
shit end of the stick if they came at him one at a time
but they were learning otherwise when
he blew them kisses goodbye
Muthafuckers
So youre real quiet then like
a mouse
Yeah A
mouse
Smart boy
Ha No Not really
I dont like getting hurt Theyd hurt me if they knew what Ive seen
he laughed
Sometimes theyre dumber than me
You shouldnt denigrate yourself
I dont know denigrate
Im sorry belittle make yourself small or insignificant in anyones eyes
the boy looked at him hard
Youve
never wha denigrated me
Never have Youve been dealt a lousy hand Nothing you ever did To denigrate you simply speaks of the asshole that person is
Assholes
Thats right Assholes
Now whatcha got
Get the bottle
he returned
when the bottle broke it followed its seam he had half the bottle to hold before his
face
Be careful dont want you to cut
your nose or fingers
You saying Ive got a big nose
No
Thats a joke
Oh Then yes
Youre no comedian
No
Whatcha got
Ill show you You ready to hold the bottle up to your face
I am
he
held it twohanded thumbs and
indexfingers the edges were keen his little brother wasnt stupid
his cradled hands came off his
hip
he held them up directly in
front of himself
he was very proud
If its too bright youll say
something I dont wanna hurt you
Ill be sure to say something
as he began opening his hands
rays of light shot through his parting fingers and thumbs
he saw them run traces across the
breast of his black tshirt
Yasee
What the fuck
Yasee Its really coolhuh
Ohmygod What the fuck
cradled in the palm of his right insubstantial
except for its light lay lay
impossibly a shimmering bit of neon light
pulsating marbling as if it remained intact a shard and not
Its a reflection I took off the
glass of the Chinese place across from the theatre
Its
beautiful isnt it
Its fuckin
amazing
It
is isnt it It blinked at me an seemed to want me to
have it
Youll not take it from me will
you
Ill not
Thats fuckin amazing
Youre
saying fuck Youre not mad
Im not mad Im wondering how but I dont care how in the slightest
It
is fuckin amazinghuh
Watch your tongue Maw will have your head if she hears you say fuck
Fuck Fuck
FUCK
Got it out of your system
Hahah
the lightrays curling in his
brothers deformed hands strobed the crowns of the trees above them on the hill
it was
thats all that mattered
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