he paused   curiously arrested  aroused    by the heart of the persimmon he sliced into

the paring knife exposed its dark star  asterisk  which somehow  suddenly  was relevant this morning

he put the slice into his mouth  chewed it thoughtfully  enjoyed its slight gritty bitter skin  its cool silken flesh  then smacking his lips the pulp still in his mouth he took a sip of black coffee and continued   wondering    why     alertly

then as the swirl of the mixture found his gullet  swallowing     a cleaved portion of his sleeps dreaming slipped amid his acute wondering

keen shards colored persimmon and lemon yellow arced away from his shadowy persona  lingered in his eyes like sharp tracers splitting the night 

bent on chasing them he stumbled  they fled ahead of him easily   tho finding his feet he pursued

they outpaced his leaden legs and took him through verdigris Old World streets lighted by flickering gaslight
flatstone and crumbling brick facades statuary cobblestones and pavers divvied at their centres by gutters
where sluice and oils throbbed

overhead the ether descended palpably onto his shoulders like a black shadow or garment  vestment or cape

then on top this odd waking reverie washed an odder sense
                                                                                                   a nausea of nepotism

the shards penetrated and lighted up occasional persons who either stood on the street sat on stone benches before brilliantly carved fountains or gathered in squares where wood-spoked market carts rested on their long handles or leaned fixed and level on crude horses

the faces of the lighted people were familiar to him  faces worn in his past and many belonging to those who had died  yet despite their shocking dreamed presence  still  a hiss  a susurration tinged his hearing  a slick voice at his ears whispered  nepotism

then again
 

                   nepotism
                                          and an acrid smell  smouldering charred remains  embers flashing like evil eyes staring out from edges of haunted darker forests  coal blacker than the horizon etching them

nepotism  wasnt without anything or anyone at your back 

it latent  abysmal  exposed

its faces garish  Toulouse-Lautrec or Matisse painted  ghoulish  glowing skulls  rays bugging from their eye sockets
their illumined heads cumbersome Jack-o-Lanterns 

                                                                                     a faint recognition grows in him    a trembling wash        an echo

all nepotism ever afforded him were trite adages his deceased uncle shared with him  revealed years ago

It is not what you know  but rather who you know

                                                                                     he laughed sardonically through his fast easygoing toothy smile
And pushing up tight on its behind  planned obsolescence  You should appreciate there will be fewer and fewer craftsmen because people  no  consumers  do not demand them  And not demanding them or holding a line against declining quality and manufacturing  they deserve the shabbiness  its cheap and shoddy products

he died as the slovenly and the shabby and the nepotistic fingerings tipped the scales to the bereft of anyone who couldnt afford  Luxury  in the truest sense of the word

in the faces of the Jack-o-Lanterns he began to recognise a few he knew whose lives would be entirely safe and secure

he recognised  he had to admit  those of them who allowed him small ports during the storms of his life  modest nepotism which provided him benefit and solace as he gambled on himself and moved from state to state eluding careers and suits leather shoes homes and tedious friendships

he knew a lot  he was street smart  book smart  but it seemed it was never what he knew that he could make pay off

rather he ended up playing off of those he met and who somehow inveighed on his behalf and cracked tightshut doors just enough for him to recognise a hint of light bleeding out from behind it  from inside  and he stomped it open with the sole of his boot

like shucking an oyster  then gobbling up its odd elastic flesh  sucking its briny liquor

he never cared much for the term nepotism  never enough to read up on its root or etymology

he was wary of its wider implications and fulminations  its slick elitism  how it worked that someone less was embraced solely by birthright  which had to be recognised as nothing more than an obvious crapshoot  nepotism  a suckling that went on and on and on appalling him  akin to those seven eight year olds who breastfed at their mothers teats  nuzzling  nursing  having their second set of teeth

he saw it as queer to the Natural World  a mammalian offspring spending years at the tit  it seemed a codification  declaration  of simpering weaklings  of mothering gone recklessly off the rails
 

and those who defied their fortunes condemning others for not pulling themselves up by their bootstraps  glaring harshly down on the less fortunate whose teats were ripped from their O-shaped lips through no fault of their own

he could suppose they believed that their birthright

  
 

      though nothing could thwart his unblinking wonderment
                                                                                                         how had they not spat out the nipples themselves
how they were never to stand on their own hind legs

 

bipedal fallacies


 

nothing more
         

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1444,  Twosday,  1  12. 15

--  I get this email

tho he spells it e-m-a-l-e

an in it writes

spells it w-r-i-o-t-e-s

                                  “Time will tell Itll always tell Therefore . . never tell Time a secret(you cant afford revealed)”

Hes wrioting me about a possible strategy he thinks my pro ball team is gaming

He said they could choose to lose during the regular season  take the heat off  but if they didnt theyd certainly lose in post

I told him thats bullshit

He said Bet a hunred

I couldnt resistI hate it when my balls get in the way of my brain

Now I think hes trying my head

Anything

--   I got you bet a hundred and your thinking it was a bad bet

--   That  An what douya make of his Time will tell

--   Well  Clever  Poetic even

I suppose Ive never thought of Time telling

Time ratting something Or on someone

You know where his thinking comes from

--   I think it had something to do with his girlfriends saint  A Catholic Church thing

--   Her saint  What was about that

--   Her saint was given to her on her birthday

--   Seems legit

--   Ah

But it seems he was cool to itHes cool about religion anyways

She told him she was told by her mother that her saint was given to her because the saint died on her birthday
in 999 CE  He was emphatic CE not AD

       

Aint a damn thing AD he said

                                            

Muttering After Death my ass

--   Staunchly   NOT religious

--   Staunch is lowballing it 

 

He dont talk it he argues it

And not quietly

Its reflex with him  Like a physician tapping your knee or elbow with that rubber mallet during a physical

Tap

BAM!

--   Some people are like that

--   Aint nobody like himHes on religion as if it were stitched into his DNANo pauseNo hesitationImmediate

--   Not a sociable guy

--   Hell he is

Sociable is his killing grounds

--   I suppose then  

                               Time will tell  Itll always tell  Therefore never tell Time a secret

I like his process

I might be hooked

--   Ill give him your emale

You might like him  Until he squeezes you

--   You dont like him

--   I do

I just dont want to pay out 

--   Made your bed

--   Or maybe he already has your emale

--   HA

Youre a cheap muthafucker

An easily goaded

I think Time told on you an he was listening

0001,  Monday,  30  11. 15