6.5.14




ODs do

hed have a hard time counting the ODs do he knew who didnt make the cut         
who anxiously happily spooled out all the coil they had                                                
and then clutching for more realised they had come away emptyhanded            
their limpid tailends turning lazy doublehelixes just beyond their reach 

they played out every bit they had
 

ODs do

they forgot they were the only one Inside                                                                       
who could possibly hold their scarce tether between a thumb and fingerjoint  with minimal pressure   to keep themselves from being lost


ODs do

drifted off into a warm haze 
the haze from where they had been before they were born                                               
that promising haze  deliciously lashing their senses with shimmering radiation and 
shadows quizzing of times to come   if    they didnt do what ODs did


ODs do

when crooked fingers were pointed                                                                                     
pointed with livings coddled finesse  pointed rapaciously   ignorantly        
he refused hardily to find fault with their slips
                                                                            Theres no fuckin telling where theyll end  
and he imagined them racing at lightspeed elsewhere after having shed their physical encumbrances  their chaffing frictions


ODs do

there were more than he could count                                                                               
and countless more to come                                                                     
the drug experience was scintillating                                                                                        
and only those who were experienced knew   Jimi sang it
was Jimi a casualty                                                                                                         
he didnt think so                                                                                                                     
ODs think outside the box   radically trying to change their containment


ODs do

there are worse ways to die when one is born terminal                                                                                             



1436,  Twosday,  7  1. 14

5.5.14



He had one helluva problem
a bit obscene
                      and no matter how overtly he held it struggling by its throat
front – and – center
                                                                                                                            inevitably 
seemingly at the worse possible juncture   he faltered
                                                                 then he had to spend untold delirious hours   
keenly and sincerely apologizing for his perceived harm                                                 
his transgression and utter misstatement

                                                                                                                   
                                                                                                                          his problem 
whenever he wrote was     
                              he inevitably failed to complete a contraction during a critical passage
for example:                                                                                                                           
"I could imagine youd agree with his racist surmise"
when in fact what he truly wished to impart was:                                                         
"I couldnt imagine youd agree with his racist surmise"

                                                   and the gulf between Could and Couldnt is ENORMOUS


he was thinking of giving up contractions altogether
though admittedly  he had a thing for consonants                                                        
vowels could take flying leap 
                                                too fuckin round for his tastes 

not looked finer as nt
                                   but if he was simply content going on  stumbling  dropping it        
to save his knees or face  catching himself with his hands . . . whew . . .
                                                                                                                        Why?       
his knees face and hands would eventually heal
                                                                                though what he put at risk might not  
apologizes become suspect when youve made the same mistake over and over and over 
again
             apologizes do buy forgiveness   S E E   apologizes do NOT buy forgiveness                          no matter their sincerity                                                                                                                

he knew it damn well                                                                                                          
hed rejected relationships for less                                                                                                  
how could he possibly imagine forgiveness                                                                                    
when he refused to dispense it

                                                     Dispensation  -  a churchy thing  -  according to        
the Encyclopedia Britannia: “. . .  Christian ecclesiastical law, the action of a competent  
authority in granting relief from the strict application of a law . . . ”
 

                                                            whod want to be granted relief from the strict 
application of a law

particularly when the law wasnt the way they saw it  
                                                               but fearful to be recognized as an outlier 

                                                     apparently no amount of honesty can impinge or outleg illconceived selves-serving laws . . . smart ALECs wanting to have their noxious ways 
peppering the pots and buttering the palms of pious acolytes


                                                                          and writing honestly meant               
either hitting all his contractions or suffering whole round vowels so not to be at error

he had to be deliberate                                                                                             
(despite perverse temptation scratching at his back for fallout  and confrontation)

                                                                harmony exists briefly   only after Chaos



1733,  Friday,  2  5. 14