28.4.14

trane ride



“From such crooked timber as humanity is made of,
no straight thing was ever constructed.”                                                         Kant


he liked the shelves of white rock broken and turned on end by the Earth
their noses jutting into the crotch of the bright sun lapping blue skies
the broken fingers of brush hanging at the edges of rock slides
where they grabbed the descending earth trying to save it
the fingerless earth unable to grab back or pull up
uninspired by the yanking brush
unable to cease their slip   
the demands of their gravity
knobs of their bones strewn in sorrowful rents


beside the railroad tracks lie the desiccated skins of black and white cattle
drawn long by runoff into shapeless sacks
except for the elongated tubes that were once their legs and bleached portions of skulls
peering out of their mouths    
under improbable trees blown wayward and ridiculous

                                      rusted corrugated tin sheets collapsed on a broken wood
skeleton  timber beams and broken ribs
                                                several boxed rooms broke flat  indistinguishable 
an immense cow flop  digested  then evacuated thoughtlessly



“There is not a negro alive who does not have  . . .  rage in his soul  . . .  this fever has
recurred in me, and does, and will until the day I die  . . .  Our failure to love without
due care . . . ”                                                          James Baldwin, Notes of a Native Son


careless loving  thoughtless loving  or love ignorant of the ramifications that supple
pairings may grow brittle
                                          a quiet fragility 
while supple can sway and bend and withstand abuse and force  brittle shatters
and splinter
becomes sterile   
        then what would become of all that Beauty

                                                                                        a formation of empty pilings
driven into a low tidal creek  for some reason
stands forgotten  unfulfilled    patient
dry rot permeates its heels
                                               pits its heads like a worm-eaten lobotomy    forgetting 
remembering  
                      forgetting to remember
                                                                                                      or remembering to forget
once possessors  now vagrants
some still erect   crumbling proudly
while others turn   slump


the collapse of an ancient tree is heaped with spent fence posts and planks   kinked
rusted barbedwire and uprooted shrubs gathered with nooses of hemp rope slashed
possibly   Once thought to be burned in a raging bonfire 
                                                                                         a fireballs tail nailed to the earth
Now embraced by sexual wood squids in orgy
tenacles winding  groping   intertwining
                                                               finding sexspots  beaks agape  gasping in boiling
pleasure
                  and among them odd calcified skeletons  tight-lipped  bitter  unpleasured 
ugly  sullen  untouched



the train turns inland turning his back to the sea
the vivacious lands evaporate
he is surrounded by brown bald hills  fields of flat pancaked faces and depressions
harrowing in their gauntness and deprivation
                                                                               some of the crackerjack houses 
wrapped in clotheslines  were decorated with colored and geometric patterned fabrics
other structures were washed blue  slush boxes  like melting ice cubes dumped by
wayward drunks who think fresh ice will bring plentiful fresh liquor to sweeten their
nightmares and cease their delirium tremens shaking
                                                                                        pitiful alcohol junkies
who cant recognize spilling booze is a waste and there is no one who will refresh their
glasses  slake or slay their hard-headed demons
or spur their ugly cross-eyed lovers
                                                                        who were never worth the dip of their dicks
at the snap of their entrails or the cleft of their asses

                                                                                               nor were they
they all were just Something  literally  to do


a forgotten fuck is a disease
a warm receptacle breeding their discontent

                                                                                                
                                                                                    he could see what they cant


1pmishness,  Twosday,  11  11. 08

27.4.14



There was graffiti at the middle of the stone train tunnel
graffiti in the middle of nowhere
     
      Proof:  Someone was there before you
     
      Proof:  Best youre anonymous after debasing or defacing something

fortunately Time patiently erases graffiti tattoos and evidence of humanbeings


aboard a grrl used a pink rattailed comb and pulled it roughly through her orange hair
she had a really big head
he thought if she had to fight 
                                                if she had to throw off a buck who drunkenly sought the 
moist insides of her thighs or handfuls and mouthfuls of her heavy breasts
                                                                                     shed pull that pink rattailed comb 
out and use it on him
                         use it as roughly as she yanked it through her thick greasy hair

the Surfliner whiled through Goleta and north
                                              through occasional dark-green greasy-leafed avocado orchards 
and rough brown grazing pastures beef cattle scrounged off
past rusting tinsheet sheds and collapsed wood-framed structures haloed in emaciated chickenwire clotted with gray rotting stucco

                                         there were lines of sunsunken brittle wood fenceposts    slack and taut barbed wire between them
                                            and petite wildbirds like musical notes at odd stanzas deriding those who would apologize for disturbing them 
                                                                  chasing them from their tarnished roosts



Twosday,  28  7. 09

26.4.14



A round blonde
tangled hair
walked through the front door
yanking her pants zipper up
as if she just finished taking a piss
or had a fuck

people inside noticed

she didnt

her eyes were fixed
straight ahead
and yet 
somehow
              she was endearing

blatant
maybe rude
refreshingly and unapologetically honest
                                                                     even if she was ignorant of her aria

she walked up the stairs
ignoring the escalator and lift

behind her zipper and crotch she had legs
and she used them

seemingly  either that between them 
or trudging the woeful under


10ishness,  Friday,  18  12. 09