30.9.16



as soon as you put a camera on someone you take them out of who they are


people are coerced

theyre skinned alive

worse-cases  theyre eviscerated by the devises that record them



in his ‘81 interview by Paris Review writer Gabriel Garcia Marquez said The problem is that the moment you know the interview is being taped your attitude changes . . . I immediately take a defensive attitude

then his created-attitude is reflected in his spoken words                                                                    
and then again in his words to print


a cameras cold eye opens and captures reality              

No
   the moment you know youre being filmed(reality television  off-camera coercion by directors and writers  --  because reality must have directors and writers  --  horseshit) youre acting

nevertheless that reality has been gobbled up for more than a generation(a degeneration he called it) by . . . by . fuck it!by Gobblers   no tastebuds   no nose   blinkered (Darbys dose comes to mind)( No You can look it up  Also see Thomas Thistlewood )

he wasnt keen on Gobblers or those aspects of the Internet the Book of Faces and all the rest trotted out  Menu items 

he tried hard to fly low  low   How low can you go*Limbo  under their prying and prioritised radar(a second horseapple) which made him wish there were Victory gardens yet(considering the Long War they were in) so he too as his father and uncle did could speed to the cobblestone street with a shovel in hand and scoop up the warm plops dray horses dropped behind the ice vegetable and delivery wagons they pulled


he was perturbed that anonymity was a casualty of this

perturbed that his privacy was deemed unimportant and that everyone should either have a right to him or he should be forthcoming with the cast of characters(tagging) and settings he interacted with and among

Shakespeare did warn him  All the worlds a stage And all the men and women merely players

still  he thought these circumstances would likely astonish the prophetic Bard


a small voice inside his head asked Marquez Shakespeare Victory gardens Long War horseapples  people knew what those were  right      



if they didnt

hed inform them   

pith them
       snag-hooked burred pithy bits that he could pass off as inane harmless  a dribble that stained their shirtfronts
Whas that That there
Oh that Thats Rimbaud    

he had access to them via a cashiers mundane interaction of taking their money for vice

he could talk until their purchase was sacked and they escaped out the automatic doors

he busied them abruptly as they approached the counter so they wouldnt conceive of the cameras overhead filming them that they remained who they were
if only for that moment
                   immutable


Thank you

Youre welcome (not that they knew what he did for them  because he selfishly did it for himself)



1757,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  9. 16
0930,  Friday,  30  9. 16

* Chubby Checkers  Limbo Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XgCHOrF5ryY

"All the world’s a stage, / And all the men and women merely players; / They have their exits and their entrances, / And one man in his time plays many parts, / His acts being seven stages. At first, the infant, / Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms. / Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel / And shining morning face, creeping like snail / Unwillingly to school. And then the lover, / Sighing like a furnace, with a woeful ballad / Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then a soldier, / Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard, / Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel, / seeking the bubble reputation / Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then the justice, / In fair round belly with good capon lined, / With eyes severe and beard a formal cut, / Full of wise saws and modern instances; / And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts / Into the lean and slippered pantaloons, / with spectacles on nose and pouch on side; / His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide / For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice, / Turning again towards childish treble, pipes / And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all, / That ends this strange eventful history, / Is second childishness and mere oblivion, / Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything."



29.9.16



STRIKE ANYWHERE matches were the bomb

he picked up the bomb from a girl from Boston he met on the Wisconsin River as a longhaired teenager doing his best impression of Easy Rider on his black motorcycle

she wore a fetching   utterly fetching  knit white bikini that left just enough to the imagination to render him desperate and work really hard to see her  not just imagine

she was tall darker complexed and the revealed spaces between her white knit was hobbling  breathtaking 

of course she was there with her boyfriend and their ensuing fistfight was worthwhile to dispense of their relationship

from getgo she was obviously keen on him paid attention to him  but that wasnt his fault

and looking at her why wouldnt he be keen on her too 

it was mutual


she was a minx the three days they spent together before her family her father flew into Dane Madison airport to bring her home

exmilitary  her father asked why he hadnt been drafted obviously he was ablebodied better yet why hadnt he enlisted for Vietnam to protect the country

Nams not an existential threat  Its other countries that need to be protected from us
they did not hit it off well



her last night they fucked in the suite on the couch outside the hollow bedroom door her father slept behind

he gagged her because she was noisy

her eyes grew large as he did though her smile wasnt lost behind it

Im doing this so you dont wake your old man

she nodded in answer then slipped out of her shorts pulled the thin straps of her top off her shoulders and yanked it down past her breasts around her belly

as she pulled at the buttons of his jeans fly he took his black tshirt off over his head and recognised briefly that the only respect he had for her father was for fathering her



he whispered to her through the suite door to get her to unlock it Teresita Urrea said Truth is everything Of Truth I have no fear In Truth I see no shame

parting the door her face at the jamb JesusChrist she cooed youre romantic

then she threw it wide open


maybe he was    maybe
but he couldnt imagine her getting away from him until he spent all the semen he had inside of her


leaving her early in the dark morning he reminded her tugged at it with his finger to take off the gag

her eyes crinkled

they kissed goodbye

it seemed she might have fallen asleep with it on as comfortable as she was wearing it as comfortable they seemed with domination

surprisingly he was pretty good at it





Theyre strike anywhere matches

Ive heard of em the kid said putting away his matchbook Lemme see a couple

Tell ya wha  Throw in the box of matches and Ill take the bike at your priceWont negotiate a second longer

Done


a few days later the kid got killed on the bike


at the funeral home to pay his respects the kids mother tried her grieving best saying out loud and loudly he killed her baby boy she didnt want him to have the bike but he him standing there in the aisle before her babys body bold as taxes he knew she didnt he knew that but he wanted her boys money he didnt care what she thought he wanted the money and now its blood money my sons blood is all over it
You bastard! You bastard!

he stepped inside of her screams close to her and very quietly said into her twisted face That was your sons choice He was your son Im not responsible he was a dimwit



after paying him the cash he sat straddling the bike digging on it and lit Strike Anywhere matches match after match off the gas tank cover

he threw them on fire onto the gravel

This is the shit manReally This is the shit   Where you say you got em

Hardware store on Main


it was at the intersection south of the hardware store that he tried to beat cross traffic

witnesses said
  



1641,  Twosday,  27  9. 16
1032,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  9. 16
quote from The Hummingbirds Daughter by Luis Alberto Urrea