30.3.26


You wasn't trying, you was sitting on diamonds/Mm (diamonds)   Raye  Hard Out There

    sitting on diamonds

in context of the song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AtTgBoUfiuQ  she accuses someone of holding out   . . . you wasn’t trying you was sitting on diamonds


when first he listened to it without the lyrics before him he had misunderstood her
                                                                                    his misunderstanding 
upbeat

not that hes an optimistwasnt a pessimist  a realist?  shook ivory  tossedem  gaveem a roll  thirtysix possibilities

             So get off the pot, what do you call yourself?

Random

           See whaswha went the bones stop  lay still

Lifes a crapshoot

 

now if he were a proper entitled white man   

life wouldnt be a crapshoot
                            be one entitled day cascading after another until  inevitably  cruel stopgaps physical accidents bodily failings
but theyre not as cruel if moneyed 

but money doesnt afford everything

                                         visit a cemetery  a potters field   a mass grave
Where

Out there  Somewhere    Pieces we like to think well go out as we came in an entity   not promised

    disparate
served with others on moldy charcuterie boards

That’s fuckin’ dark. Pessimistic.

 

Dark

Tellin the truth

One of thirtysix random possibilities


Im a thirtysixer
               And not to lose the string  Hard Out There  I mistook sitting on diamonds  Had imagined a truffle pig rutting for morsels for treasure experiences  to explore examine share

not sitting on the earth

a dumb extruded clod

    theres unmined gold diamonds quiet parked under your fanny

                                                                         No shrugsgot no shovel
Ya got hands

1238,  Monday,  30  3. 26

    epipphany twistingup his spine like a climbingvine

                                                                  It’s not.
No
It’s not.

 

Ifnotthenwha

    Recognition.

                    You’ve laid the groundworkset the trap. That which eludes is just dumb luck.

If following the scent.

Would have walked right in.

 

Youre saying she walked in  maybe not knowingly    but      compelled

she smiled

You like compelled

I do.

        You’re not attractive but you are compellingit works for you.

I wouldn’t recommend it.


Not epiphany  Recognition

Not attractive

                     Compelling

    Almost make me feel I havent a lot going on for myself

 

Oh.  Fuck.  You the way you carry on.

                                            You haven’t a modest bone in your body.

A human xylophone, touch you tap you rap you.

                                                       You emit rich, vibrant, honest tones.
Many inappropriately.

There, your immodesty plays to your benefit.

In your case au naturel.

If you were brilliant, possibly contrive.

                                              But you’re not.

 

Ill say this for you


    What’s that?

You describe me tit for tat
                        No.
That’s how you describe yourself.

                                      A coin.
Aspects meldedmeltedcreamed.

Heads. Tails.

                   A heavy sliver.

Whatever it lands its immediately overshadowed . . dusted . . . . by its extreme oneeighty . . which then . . . should make one pause . . before . engaging . . . your proposition.

Theres wher . .
. . Save it.

                 I am not wrong.   Matryoshki.

What appears a broad stroke, examined, reveals it a composite, composition, of its individual hairs, fibers.

    You give me more credit than Im due

 

Not one modest bone in your body.

Your assuredness is exciting, attractive.


But not my fac . .
. . No.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oqJ0JpMj6I  epiphany  he hadnt ever seen the video   smacked of his girlfriend

1516,  Sunday,  29  3. 26
0634,  Monday,  30  3. 26

Edwyn Collins  A Girl Like You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oqJ0JpMj6I   

Nina Simone  Feelin’ Good  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D5Y11hwjMNs

https://princetonbrush.com/blog/types-of-paint-brushes-a-guide-to-choosing-the-right-brush-shape/

pointing to their face  wristrolling their right index counterclockwise before it

                                                                                       What’s that?
A lewd grin

    Lewd.

It is.   It is very lewd.
                            You been working on it?

Nah

         Ive earned it

 

   Earned?

Jah

         Got people jumpinthrough hoops    Which  I had an idea but coudnt have imagined

    All in all to save themselvesthey hope   pain

Lightweights

 

People.

Ohfuckjah  More than a few

                                  Feel like Im selling Girl Scout cookiesrather cornered the marketselling briskly  everything disappearing into the rearview sideview mirrors

                                                                            Whardyago

 

 

Are you going to say?

    Im gonna say  coarse cloth

Coarse

 

Cloth

 

Cryptic, man.
Not reallynot at all

Whas happened to me

Forced whas happenedhave forced everyones hand

                                                         Coarse cloth
Spit in Tolkiens eye  Phonaesthetics

                                              And

Something Im givin wide berth while swingin shingl . .
. . The grin your grin this is about that?

Jah

         Panicked yall an in turn ya panicked others

Like touching a Strike-Anywhere Ohio Blue Tip to a twisted wick  it creeps  along  then   suddenlybursts   A conflagration

   

    I only told you

                           I witnessed a veritable visible visceral telephone tree

Wha a treat

 

By your expression . . . terribly humored.

nodded

 

Despite you sufferin . .
. . Don get carried away

    Suffering pain.  Electric nerve pain welts oozing blisters struggling to sleep.  Exhaustion.

nodded

 

 

You grin. You nod.

                         Funny?

 

    Oh definitely worth the price of admission

1140,  Saturday,  28  3. 26
2044,  Sunday,  29  3. 26

Raye  It’s a Man’s Man’s Man’s World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JXYotcnYF2Q