banging around in his books

takes halfdozeneight to bed

reads

changes channels

reads

changes again

makes it a point to get something out of each and every one

    How do you keep track of the storylines?characters?

Read nonfiction to fiction sixseven to one

                                              Fictions

Candy

Dessert

I saw Sometimes A Great Notion, Kesey, on your headboard, Grass’ The Flounder, candy?literature.

    I have acquired a unique sweet tooth

Lemme share a couple instances

Instances?

Quotes

           Slingshot into sleep gyri fold roundem python anaconda constrictor not to kill to smother  tactilely feelem up

I suppose that’s a way of looking at them.

Don suppose  Change Your Mind  Pollan

                                               Quotes Huston Smith page onehunredthirtysix

“. . . a spiritually ‘realized being’ as simply a person with ‘an acute sense of the astonishing mystery of everything.’”

I countered with my own Check faith at the door

                                                    Unnecessary

Acquire inhabit  a childs eye view

                                      Be receptive of other stranger forms of consciousness

Get high on curiosity

Fiction  Candy

                    Creation Lake page twentyfive

“. . . all of us on the planet earth inside this shiny, driverless car, then what would we be exiting, besides reality? What would we tumble into, if not a void?”

                                                        My brains Nooo  Don go to sleep now noooo

Read something else

                              Lets wallpaper over exiting reality an void     Awfully potent

    See

No.

      But it seems to work for you.

no dimples  but had a wickedkeen smile

                                      Gloriously

2131,  Wednesday,  25  2. 26

1853,  Tuesday – St Paddys Day,  17  3. 26

hypercoherence

    K. Dark

               “. . . as such systems become more complex, and the degree of interdependence between their constituent parts grow, keeping the overall system stable becomes more difficult.”

                                                                                         which lead him to cliodynamics

                 “. . . an interdisciplinary field that treats history as a quantitative science, using mathematical modeling and data analysis to understand long-term social processes like the rise and fall of empires, population dynamics, and political instability.”

dynamics  instability

                          which should have given him a headache

he waited

 

it didnt show

he dared it

 

 

 

didnt show

he told her about it

                       Would you give me a break?you’re boasting.

he had to consider that

 

    considered

                    it was

only time he suffered them was when he had toomuch alcohol

                                                                    a hangover

but once he started smoking grass hashishtippled faggish really disliked the word beer     You’re tippling.    Beer Wet my whistle keep cottonmouth at bay    Tippling, faggish or not.    Youll vouch for me    Not faggish?    Im definitely notNo. You’re definitely not. I remember times being so raw I didn’t want to move let alone have to get up, walk.    Youd sign an affidavit attesting to tha

    You a comedian?

No

    I prefer people not to take me at my word                        

Many think Im unserious

You?  

         Imagine.

Agreed

         I have my fun

Youd attest

I consort with you.

Well have it notarised

                           Keep it simple

 

she shrugged smiled   dimples  Why not.   It’d be a hoot.

                                                                       rolled her hazel eyes  Papers, please.

Now whos being a load

 I have my moments.

2015,  Monday,  23  2. 26

1612,  Tuesday,  17  3. 26

Kara Swisher  Tribology  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcjUHQrzmh4

Cliodynamics  https://escholarship.org/content/qt9v71n5h4/qt9v71n5h4.pdf 

Hold on hold on woudya  hold  on   a freakinmoment

                                                                    I don know whatha is

Although   A whiff of it

                           Methinks  Freuds screen memories        Therapeutics

Yes.

 

And

    Its a lousy acronymsay woudya just say wha it is Im not impressed theres a lot of things I don know top of the list  arduous   antagonistic   fuckinacronyms

                                                                  Yasaid E M D R

Wont guess

Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing.

Thank gawd not reprogramming like the brain can be dialedup

You took two quarters of psychology, fan of Jung, have multiple books, Sartr . .

. . Philosophy

                Religions philosophy

Inarguable

Wha I don doyou do

                           Please help me  Whastha on youtube

Yet another acronym

    ran his hand over his face You’re kiddin’ me.

Man

       In one ear out the other

Do.  It.  Yourself.

                      D.  I.  Y.

Thas it he felt so proud of himself

You’re patting yourself on the back, aren’t you?

Tha I recognised the letters

                             Jah    Yabet

Progress?

No

So

So what?

Define it please

                    Or did ya mention it just to twist me

No.

      Something new I’m trying.

You’re familiar with my PTSD.

One of the very few acronyms I do recall

                                             Like USA

    Are you being facetious?

Yathink

              I can see the two handinhand   Id like to say skipping    but no

Stumbling

Or spastic

Jesus.

 

I have trauma, traumatic memories. 

My psychologist has me focus on a memory. Then we engage in bilateral stimulation, be it side-to-side eye movements, or taps, or tones, sometimes physical touches.

They help me reduce that memory’s . . . . emotional . . intensity.

 

    What do you think?

I apologise

              Whereof thereof

Ive no experiencehave had drauma

But no clinical experience

If it is helping you thas all I need to know

 

It is.

   Then Im down with the letterswhaever it was tha they are

1825,  Saturday,  14  3. 26

1128,  Tuesday – St Paddys,  17  3. 26

EMDR  https://www.apa.org/ptsd-guideline/treatments/eye-movement-reprocessing

EMDR  https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3951033/

Screen Memories  https://complit.utoronto.ca/wp-content/uploads/Screen_Memories_COL1000.pdf 

preaching to the choir Creation Lake’s Sadie Smith

                                                       I’d rather be driven by immutable truths than the winds of some opinion [influencers], whose real function is to underscore a person’s social position in a group, and belief without depth.

                        Go! Sadie! Go! See Sadie Run the Ball!

    winds

hes had to contend contentions bored him to tears with these blowhards his adult life

when he a kid a teenager picked fights with them

                                                       Put up or shaddup   his words

then win lose where it usually ended bloodied split knuckles welts blackanblue bruises

except for hardheads who didnt want to leave it a beat down

                                                                    he wasnt one

usually the skirmish was left in that weekend or evening

usually steered clear of each other avoiding other clashes

    last fight he was in he was compelled

                                            his boss in his office at the front of the business was getting knocked to hell by he had no idea why no idea what transpired but he was his meal ticket

the big man dragged him by his necktie out in the parking lot

                                                                he freakedhave someone by their Windsor punch over the top of it

lunging forwardslammed the back of his head on the red clinkerbrick wall behind him hamfist loosened tie slipped free pummeled him with both fists to the ground

                                                             Stay down

Down

Down

    mumbled Yeah

                          I’m gonna sue you.

looking down at himnoticed his shirt front hoped all that blood wasnt his

                                                                              Sue me  Ill find ya

he was Nam informed

                                                                                     Cunt

in his book lout wouldnt be fighting fair

 

nowadays he slings immutable truths

                                           curbs winds with brutal reason brutal words

    his children

informed by their mother who lovingly applied ice or steak to his eye  goose eggs  mercurochrome to his knuckles

                  said

Not as satisfying, is it, Dad?

    he taught them rhetoric

shared his sense of black humour    

1451 & 1937,  Monday,  16  3. 26

0954,  Tuesday – St Paddys Day,  17  3. 26

Donovan  Catch the Wind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iuc9_46wf7I