Bachofen cal . .

. . Who 

            Or wha

Ya didnt give me a chance Johann Jakob Jingleheimer Schmidtno coudnt resist  no no  Johann Jakob Bachofen 

I dig the cat he claimed women ruled the world until twentyfivehunred years ago

                                                                                       Gals fuckedup

Shoudnt have let men get their hands on it

    Walter Benjamin sorry Im dropping names on ya an early Twentieth Century German philosopher eclectic cultural critic media theorist essayist agreed “which Bachofen call the Hetaerae”  From ancient Greece  Highly educated female companions in who were artists entertainers conversationalists  Courtesans

You know courtesans

We do

Benjamin alluded that these women Hetaerae “Its manifestation is that of self-forgetful life, and thus also of death.”

    Self-forgetful life looked like it hurt

Jah

Thas heady

Jah

        I cant shake itobviously

So wha are we supposed to do with it

Muse   Marinade   Steep

    Be like Eileen

Orwells wife

Jah

      Looks at you for a minute before answering

Anya remember why

Everything was important to her

Jah

Her sense of life was so intense she got the full impact of anything that turned up and saw it not isolated but with all its connections

As we quote Anna Funder

Jah

So as you ponder  not isolated  but with all its connections

                                                                 Self-forgetful life

Youre still working on

I havent put it down

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1325,  Wednesday,  14  1. 26

https://www.swisscommunity.org/en/news-media/swiss-revue/article/johann-jakob-bachofen-he-claimed-that-women-ruled-the-world-until-2500-years-ago 

Blood Memory

                Awcomon How coud one not be attracted to a title like that it screams from its spine bold white letters on a black jacket

a book about buffalo

reading yesterday he learned that Plain Indians had pictorial calendars painted on buffalo skin to document memorable things that happened that year

                                               in 1833 only one image THE YEAR THE STARS FELL

on 13 November was the largest recorded meteor shower an estimated 72,000 per hour

                                                                                                likely

a blood memory stored in everyone who witnessed it

 

from this text he plucked a quote as he did a day earlier Abraham Joshua Heschel  

                                                                                        “Prayers are humble answers to the inconceivable surprise of living. It is all we can offer and return to the mystery by which we live. Who is worthy to be present at the constant unfolding of time.”

he plucked from John James Audubon who in 1843 confessed to killing four buffalo and taking only their tongues

          “What a terrible destruction of life, as it were for nothing, or next to it.”

                                                                                     and plucked from the prophet Brigham Young “If we do not slay when we do not need, when we will need we cannot slay.”

what these quotes have conferred to his blood  its memory

                                                                   is that human beings are wastrels

    every day he tries not to be

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1212,  Wednesday,  14  1. 26

in a mirror is how we see what we look like to ourselves but not what people see when they look at us

he learned its called mere exposure effect someone was clever people prefer things that they are familiar with hard to argue with that

he tries hard to avoid looking in mirrors

when necessary he will

otherwise turns a blind eye

                               its handful enough contending with mariachis

toss on top the heap a reversedreflected id-ego-superego harping at him that he cant punch in the mouth to shut up

           he couldnt imagine actually    he could

being an argumentative soul  when ones person is saturated it percolates into their soul  

                                                                                              if he wasnt

he wouldnt have one baggage

  

 

the reason for this exposé

                               he had taken a really hot forestscented bath

the temperature in the house was  cool

the bathroom mirror fogged

toweled off dressed in sweats for the reminder of the evening he stood before it combing out his hair and as he did he saw the condensation being wipedaway from the opposite side and through the streaks his reflection mouthed

                      I coud not see you

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1051,  Wednesday,  14  1. 26

https://www.simplypsychology.org/mere-exposure-effect.html