5.3.26

    Saturday
took an early shift at the factory

let out midafternoon

his boys birthday

he pulled up into the drive behind his daughters boyfriends new Camaro

his old man had change


went inside
              remnants of the party
coloured twisted crepepaper streamers balloons strung hung from the ceiling

they did that when the kids were asleep

Looks good, yeah?

Festive as hell kiddo

You don’t think he’s too old?

His big sister wasnt

Yeah.

Bed

You have to go into work?

I have to

You’ll miss the party.

Youll have it in hand Sis will help

Him too. He’s a good kid.

Hes fuckiner

Jesus, Joe, your daughter.

Every girl is someones daughter  I fucked you


Im home

they were in the kitchen at the back of the house

walked through the ruin of the livingroom few balloons down torn Happy Birthday wrapping paper

stepping through the doorway into the kitchen 
                                                      Im home
the kitchen smelled amazing
                               Smells wonderful
boys favourite  mothers creation  cinnamon creamcheese frosted rum-laced applespice cake

boy Sis boyfriend were sitting at the kitchen table drinking cherry cream soda from bottles with paper straws

wife was busy before the window looking into the backyard washing cake bowls utensils a small sheetpan

boys private cake that he shares with family

he jumped up from the table Dad. sugarhigh
                                                ran to him buried his face in his gut hugged him
hugging him tousling his hair
                          Hey kiddo party a success have fun

muffled Yeah, Dad.

                      We going to the arcade now.

Right after I shower

leaning his head backfrowning
                            Aw, Dad.

Don gimme tha Patience tousled his hair again
                                                A quick shower well go
Everyone have a good time

They did.
           she turned from the sink wiping her hands with Happy Birthday balloons sprinkled confetti dishtowel he didnt know they made those  clutching it with one hand that to his spine her other hand at boys shoulder  she hugged them
                                Welcome home, love. kissed him You stink.
You like my stink

The kids. bugeyed him

bugeyed her back They don stink
                                Ill shower somehow a queer thought  embraced it  H Two Oh  he oxygen they hydrogen separating their molecule came apart
Out in a flash


I said Id be fast Lets go to his beautiful daughter and boyfriend  You ride with us

she made a face

he faced her back

walking through the diningroom he grabbed a couple of Happy Birthday napkins stacked two vegetarian pizza slices kid loves vegetarian pizza what kid didnt like pepperoni or sausage   his kid

You want me to drive?

Ive got it Ive got it


kids were out the door in the backseat

he opened the door for her goosed her with his free hand as she went by
                                                                               Joe. The kids . .
. . Cant see shit
goosed her again

she giggled

What Mom? asked the boy

as she sat Your Daddy’s funny.

All in looked down her blouse

she noticed Tucked in tight.

he shut her door

walking round the front of the car he took a huge bite of pizza




Wha luck  Boy youre good luck a spot right by the front door

one to relish good fortune he took his sweet time  backed in

You never back in.

Suppose we slained neverhuh

she punched him in the arm

Ow

I’ll give you ow.

Pleease

Later.

 

the arcade was nuts kids every which way

he gave his a roll of quarters each
                                     Think  When theyre gone theyre gone  Go  Have fun
they fled into the room

he went to join her in the parlour  raised  overlooked the game floor to witness the happy riot happy havoc

they split an enormous chocolate malted in a heavy fluted glass hes considered stealing to use as a unique flower vase two really long straws to suck through stuck through gobs of whipped creamed topped with sidebyside red candied cherries
                             she nodded towards them  Those are yours.
They’ll have to tide you over till we get home.

We got whipped cream

Reddi-wip Extra Creamy.

You my grrl  Thank you

You’re welcome, figure I lost you part of Saturday, so we would make it worth our while.
                                                                                            When we get home.
Let me roundem up

Funny guy.

You keep sayin

                    he stoodabruptly leaned over the malted took both cherries in his mouth at once
What a jamoke.
                  laughed she had the most amazing dimples  the why he married her  the cherries on top the sundae that was her inside and out

she kissed himdiscreetly licked the whipped cream from the corners of his mouth his chin
                                                                                              Sticky chin, babe.

Youve no idea  Wait till later




the place started feathering out
                                  people heading home for dinner foregoing the diner having dropped a pretty penny on games the kids exhausted by them the bounce house the playpen of coloured balls

their kids descended upon them
                                            simultaneously  A little more?
You kids convene a congress

simultaneously  What?
Nothing
           I got cold pizza an a beer waitin on me

AwwDad, it’s my birthday.

It is boy  snapped a roll of quarter in half
                                                   Now thas it
laughing the three turned
                           Shit. the boyfriend said it was unlike him to swear in their presence

he looked out the window where the boy was looking
                                                          Why’s he here?

Sis said  Dumb luck. Had no idea we were going to be here.

Somebody must have said.

Nothing we can do. It’s a free world.

I should meet him outside.

Make a scene? No.

                      This is a public place.

    I shoul . .
. . No.
        Let’s play pinball.  We’ll ignore him.

You two okay

impatiently boy pulled on her arm
                                      Let’s go, Sis.

Are you okay

We’re okay, Dad.
                   That kid’s an asshole, can’t seem to take no for an answer.


as they headed for pinball her boyfriend started drifting towards the front door

she grabbed the crook of his arm  tugged a bit

he resisted

she yanked him
                        she was a lot stronger than she looked  a gymnast                  

    his wife stood  looked through the big paneglass windows 
                                                                    He’s walking funny.
she began after the kids
                           He’s walking funny.
You said
             Where you going



kid came through the front doorleveling a shotgun
                                                     first shot caught Sis’ boyfriend in the side  hand  hip
later lost his hand his leg

boy ran towards Sis

second shot caught her in the belly  disemboweled her

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! was the last thing out of boys mouth
                                                                 then he didnt have one

his wife closed on the kid  almost touched the barrel  he shot her in the chest

he wasnt ten steps behind

turningfired on him
                      blewup the table at his right  scattered buckshot table peppered him concussion knocking him to a knee

the kid fled out the door  left  up the parking lot

it was a mall

funneled him up towards the busy cross avenue

emerging he saw the kid toss the shotgun into a dumpster

he jumped into the car
                        hurled hard left up the parking lotscarcely avoided hitting a vehicle backing outveered right had an anglevisual on the kid

he ran into traffic

pulled a handgun out of his sweatshirt

shot at cars bearing down on him

brakes srieked
collisions
he turned the car hard left into the lane
kid
stopped
turned around
opened fire on him
shots shattered his windshield
he went through the kid
fro an aft felt like squishy speed bumps
in between bounced between the undercarriage and tarmac
brakingswerved right
stopped
leapt out of the car
started back
an oblivious car Tboned his


stopped at the grotesque thing

stood above it

it was crying

he kicked it in the head

its neck snapped
                                               
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1203,  Thursday

Heartshaped tree

he was pacing

she saw it

he was livid

she saw
              but
not unlike hot glass she wouldnt touch him reach out to him  until he slowed  until the rage went out of his step his spine  his face


he saw she saw

                     he was grateful
she knewintrinsically he needed spacewasnt one to be coddled 

she knew to let his heat dissipate fall to simmer before breathing a word

                                                                                     in time 

    when he could speak

she waited


                                           TheyI wish I knew who they were     They

Cut down my heart tree in the creekbed

Your sculpture.  You point out to me every time we walk past it.
                                                                    Oh no.  her heart began to ache
Hurts jah

    I . . . . I don’t know wha . I don’t know what to say.

Some fucks committed a crime

It was dead.  When it fell it wouldn’t hurt anything.

Not a damn thing
                   Been like tha since Eleven when I moved here one of the reasons why I did

I’m so sorry, babe.

                          They.   They keep cutting your trees down.

    Jah

              I think the idea is  is tha eventually theyll catchup to me


I wont fall easy


I am terribly sorry.

Thank you

    Your heart?

Broken again

                     Itll mend

Is there anything I can do?

Jah

            Hold my hand  Walk with me

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Beatles  I Want to Hold Your Hand  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CXZV-XH9ObE