You wasn't trying, you was sitting on diamonds/Mm (diamonds)   Raye  Hard Out There

    sitting on diamonds

in context of the song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AtTgBoUfiuQ  she accuses someone of holding out   . . . you wasn’t trying you was sitting on diamonds

when first he listened to it without the lyrics before him he had misunderstood her

                                                                                    his misunderstanding 

upbeat

not that hes an optimistwasnt a pessimist  a realist?  shook ivory  tossedem  gaveem a roll  thirtysix possibilities

             So get off the pot, what do you call yourself?

Random

           See whaswha went the bones stop  lay still

Lifes a crapshoot

 

now if he were a proper entitled white man   

life wouldnt be a crapshoot

                            be one entitled day cascading after another until  inevitably  cruel stopgaps physical accidents bodily failings

but theyre not as cruel if moneyed 

but money doesnt afford everything

                                         visit a cemetery  a potters field   a mass grave

Where

Out there  Somewhere    Pieces we like to think well go out as we came in an entity   not promised

    disparate

served with others on moldy charcuterie boards

That’s fuckin’ dark. Pessimistic.

 

Dark

Tellin the truth

One of thirtysix random possibilities

Im a thirtysixer

               And not to lose the string  Hard Out There  I mistook sitting on diamonds  Had imagined a truffle pig rutting for morsels for treasure experiences  to explore examine share

not sitting on the earth

a dumb extruded clod

    theres unmined gold diamonds quiet parked under your fanny

                                                                         No shrugsgot no shovel

Ya got hands

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