“The only scenario I could imagine in which I’d become a mother was if I found a baby, orphaned, crying, maybe in a dumpster.”

                          Creation Lake  page onehunredsixtysix

apparently Sadie Smiths sadistic

                                       which is alright

every family has to have one to compel the others to either fly right or assume some kind of ambition for one thing or another

in his family

                 their mother

when they were punished  switch belt they got to select which one from their fathers closest  man had an amazing array of belts  he was sure many were bought with him his brothers and sisters in mind  wooden spoon  thank gawd they hadnt horses

        frankly

anything readily at hand

when being punished it was best not to make eye contact

not that it encouraged her

but not to witness her relish

                                which 

is a mothers love

 

she couldnt make him cry

                            his siblings baawled

tried to cover their assesback of thighs with their hands  risked enthusing her more

                                                                                risked broken fingers

 

she couldnt make him cry

because at some unknown young age he flipped

                                                        became a masochist

she didnt want to make eye contact with him

 hed be smiling

his ace in the hole

he tried to convince his siblings  Let it go

                                            Ya let it go ya wont feel it          though

                                                                                   to be fair

they were sensitive

 

helped to be the eldest

                          at the gate in the concoursecoming in hed taken a slew of items from the top shelf

among them  

a thick hide

           Ohshit

was one of the first items he grabbed

went nuts at that shelf

 

    sometimes he wonders

                               when his brothers and sisters enteredbecause they were family

had he depleted its store

                           and whoever  hadnt restocked it sufficiently

they came at a quick clip

five in seven years

other three dawdled 

Possible

             he not that he consoled himself  he considered that was a possibility 

sadistic Sadie Smith

                              unlike his mother who wanted children

afternoonish, sometimes early March, 2026

1349,  Wednesday,  18  3. 26

The Shirelles  Mama Said  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Tls-55Q5Bo