if not his cats liknowleum  occasional thoughts interrupt what-should-be pleasant shits

                                                                                              relieving his mind

relieving does not include his thoughts

he savors what he takes in

savors what he excretes

 

    this afternoon likely spurred by last evenings final episode of Dying for Sex he returns it appears in the rearview window passes through the glass sits harps from the backseatNever heard of a backseat driverShaddup  returns to the lies to the accusations of codependency  intertwined

                                                              weeds he hasnt been able to pullup  eradicate

Weeds

Is tha fair

 

he thinks it through

                         Fair

he didnt plant them

they seeded themselves

 

sitting on the pot he thought Pretense can only be retained when its rewarded

like treating a pet

so it remains obedient

remains willing to be restrained

walked on a leash

told  Heel

told  Sit

told  Rollover

                   You see how well Ive trained them

 

he prefers feral

                 prefers those who are who they are if they can be who they are who seek to please no one other than themselves

    if they choose to be generous

that generosity is not meant to become habitchualised

                                                            expected

grateful  one says Thank you

graciously  they reply Youre welcome

                                            not Youre welcome to plunder me

No

 

he pulls over

parks

gets out

opens the back door

                     Get out

    it slinks out

he gets in starts the engine gears to D goes off without looking in the sideview rearview mirrors

 

Pretense is only retained when rewarded

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